From: owner-precious-things-digest@smoe.org (precious-things-digest) To: precious-things-digest@smoe.org Subject: precious-things-digest V4 #87 Reply-To: precious-things@smoe.org Sender: owner-precious-things-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-precious-things-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk X-To-Unsubscribe: Send mail to "precious-things-digest-request@smoe.org" X-To-Unsubscribe: with "unsubscribe" as the body. precious-things-digest Thursday, March 25 1999 Volume 04 : Number 087 Today's Subjects: ----------------- SATY [Jennifer Lynn Roth ] Re: little story [Space Dog ] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Wed, 24 Mar 1999 22:06:31 -0500 (EST) From: Jennifer Lynn Roth Subject: SATY I never looked at SATY as being about abortion. I feel it closely resembles my life story. Probably most of your life stories as well. "Excuse me but can I be you for awhile" - what a POWERFUL opening line, I mean, who HASN'T wanted to be someone else? I know I used to DREAM about it all the time. "I've got something to say...but nothing comes" - I think this is why I turned toward music, I could NEVER express myself, sometimes the lump that was forever in my throat just got in the way "But what if I'm a mermaid..." - I lost myself in my fantasy life all the time to escape the people talking about me ("yes I know what you think of me you never shut up") and ridiculing me through school. "Boy you best pray that I bleed real soon" - well, who hasn't skipped or been late for a period after a moment of careless insanity? "My scream got lost in a paper cup, you think there's a heaven where the screams have gone" - I was raped. I tried to scream but he put his hand over my mouth...it had to go somewhere... "Years go by while I choke on my tears til finally there is nothing left" - - I never cried, it was always a sign of weakness, until, when I wanted to cry, there were no tears "Lets hear what you think of me now but baby don't look up, the sky is falling" - I always looked at this like my revenge, when I go back to all the little people and say "Look at me now!!" and now it's THIER world coming crashing down "It's your turn now to stand where I stand and everyone's looking at you, take hold of my hand" - but I rise above the revenge and help out the ones who stood looking and laughing with the others because I'm a better person than them "Sometimes I hear my voice, and it's been years....Silent all these years" Sometimes something, an emotion would burst through the barricades, but never enough to free my soul. Then I heard Tori and I knew I was not alone, and I subscribed to this mailing list and knew there were so many people out there going through and feeling everything I was, and it all came out at once, and I screamed and cried and everyone thought I was crazy, when I was finally sane. I was never silent again. Thanks for reading, this is something I can't share with the people closest to me, they think I'm a crazed fanatic, but I know you all understand. Faery blessings, Jenn ------------------------------ Date: Tue, 23 Mar 1999 15:28:19 -0800 From: Space Dog Subject: Re: little story You know, I have to comment because I can empathize here. I think it's interesting the kind of reactions I have to different events. There are certain things that just bring on an overwhelming sadness for me (for example, whenever I see a senior citizen working at McDonalds, or when they put too much road salt on the sidewalks). Go figure--I can't explain it, these things just make me very very sad for no apparant reason. The same goes for different types of music. I go to a school where everyone listens to 1) Phish, 2) Grateful Dead, 3) Phish. For some reason, whenever I'm visiting someone and they're like, "Dude, just listen to some Phish and everything will get better," I'm like screaming out of my mind with depression. For some strange reason, that type of music just makes me so sad. But put on some Tori or Aphex Twin or Cure and I couldn't be happier. Hmph. Go figure. I wonder what it is. I think it really has to do with comfort zones and what we're used to. I wouldn't be able to find common ground with those artists, so I feel out of place and ill-at-ease, therefore my mind tells me to feel bad about this feeling, hence the sadness. Follow? Anyhoo, I guess what I'm trying to say is that I feel for you in this way--or maybe that's not really what I'm saying. Either way, I hope everyone had fun reading this little anecdote. I'm not crazy. Slap my 'fro, JOE >Date: Mon, 22 Mar 1999 22:25:02 EST >From: Dink6@aol.com >Subject: little story > >well hello to everyone, i havent posted in quite a while. i have a little >story to tell, and it is quite inconsequential, so if you dont want to read a >little story, this post isnt for you. > >okay this started over the weekend, i was at my friend alison's house and we >listened to the cranberries 'everyone else is doing it so why cant we' album >(i think that is the name, something to that effect). i had only heard it for >the first time a few days earlier but i was listening to it for like the third >time (i spend alot of time at her house), and i was realy digging it. well >next in her cd player was portishead (dummy), and then another cranberries >album, 'no need to argue'. i listened to it pretty much all the way through >and the album REALLY depressed me. i just kept thinking how different it >sounded from the other one and how sad this music was making me, so when we >went downstairs to make our ritual saturday morning belgian waffels, i told >her. and she said that she didnt reallyhtink it was sad, but what does it >matter, that i listened to tori all the live long day and her music was pretty >sad (she is also a huge tori fan she was jsut saying that she thinks tori is >sad). well to that i freaked! i was like "no way, tori is NOT sad, or at >least she doesnt make ME sad...there is something in her music that makes my >heart swell and i could (and do) cry from listening to it, but it never >depresses me, but ALWAYS makes me happy in some wierd way". i honestly could >not think of a time when tori's music had actaully depressed me or made me >really sad. > >well tongiht in the car on the way home from dinner i had on a bootleg from >the plugged tour and we listened to dougnut song (one of my absolute >favorites). and i was sitting there, driving and singing, and i totally got >dragged down. i mean, like i thought my own car was going to run me over >becaue i had sunked though the seat and through the floor and hit the pavement >HARD, at about 45 mph. so after the song, i looked at alison, and i said >'wow. that just made me really sad :( ' and she jsut looked at me and said, >"who is this?" and i was like, "uh...what the hell are you talking about?" >and she said, "WHO IS THIS SIGNING?" and i said "tori" and she said, "oh. >tori huh? okay." > >well aobut 2 seconds later i realized that she was gracefully proving my >TOTALLY wrong. i dont know what it was but tongiht the song really got to me. >oh well. that was my silly little story. not much of a point i just wanted to >share. > >for those of you hwo actaully got this far, thank you for reading, and i want >to recommend a movie to anyone that likes "pulp fiction-esque" movies. Lock >Stock and Two Smokin' Barrels is a definite must see. there are cute british >boys in it and the cinematography is great and the plot is so twisted that >you'll NEVER guess what happens. i definitly think everyone should see this, >so much so that i am going to use that old move cliche`...RUN, dont walk, to >your nearest theater and see this movie!!!!!! > >once again thank for listening to me ramble, > lisa anne ------------------------------ End of precious-things-digest V4 #87 ************************************