From: owner-jinglejangle-digest@smoe.org (jinglejangle-digest) To: jinglejangle-digest@smoe.org Subject: jinglejangle-digest V7 #106 Reply-To: jinglejangle@smoe.org Sender: owner-jinglejangle-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-jinglejangle-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk jinglejangle-digest Friday, July 23 2004 Volume 07 : Number 106 Today's Subjects: ----------------- [MLL] Hello all from Mary Lou [mail@rachelkramerbussel.com] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Thu, 22 Jul 2004 11:36:33 -0400 (EDT) From: mail@rachelkramerbussel.com Subject: [MLL] Hello all from Mary Lou From: Commelina@aol.com Date: Thu, 22 Jul 2004 03:31:48 EDT Subject: Hello all from Mary Lou To: jinglejangle@smoe.org Hiya guys...It's been a while...I just thought I'd check in... Well, as some of you know, I have decided to c ancel a bunch of shows I had set up...I dunno...I got burnt-out from the road (literally)...I had been on tour since March and I was becoming quite the party road warrior...I missed my daughter Annabelle, and I was falling in with all those people places and things that can make a person "lose life's d irections"...I needed to get off the touring-treadmill and put some things into perspective... Anyway, I'm hoping that at some point I might pick up a few (very small) tours or shows here and there, but nothing too drastic, and certainly not any time too soon... It's not easy being on the road, away from your family and trying to keep yourelf sane and free of chenmicals that help you forget how crappy the road really is!!!...God, it's sooo unglamerous!! You don't even get paid to play...you get paid to DRIVE..... I do have to admit though, some of it was fun...Being on tour with Josh Ritter, Jeff Klien, Eric j and Gingersol....All those guys made the tour cool and as fun as it could be...Met some good people new friends...Heard some great music... So, at this point, I'm enjoying my summer (what's left of it) and hanging out with my daughter Annabelle.... I have also been enjoying one of my other latest pass-times (God, and I almost feel guilty about it...can you imagine?) um.........Courtney watching... As most of you know, she has never been one of my favorite people in this world...I used to always say to myself (while biting back my tongue) ...That one day...her day will come..you reap what you sew....Well it appears that her day has finally arrived...I knew that it would come, it would just be a matter of time...I knew that when she fell, that she was going to fall hard.... This is a woman who put me through so much pain and so much inner turmoil that I could (at the time) do absolutely nothing about...I used to have these little fantasies about how I could "get back" at her...i knew that nothing would work, nothing would make "her" any different , and that ultimately, it wasn't worth it to try...If I had threatened to sue her back then, I would have lost (she was rich) and maybe no one would have believed me and some of the things she had done to me..At that time I also couldn't do anything because I DID KNOW the degree of her insanity was enough for me to not f**k with her....God knows what she would have done...or "hired" someone to do, either to me, or to my family.....I thik I'm "finally" beginning to feel "safe"...Her power has waned...She's like the wicked witch finally melting... I look at her these days in photographs or see her on gossip tv and I just can't believe the drastic change in her physical (and mental) appearance...She just looks SO BAD...It's almost frightning...And I NEVER thought that "I" of all people would ever see the day that where I would say I feel sorry for her...But, I honestly do....It's just way too much...It's obvious that she's finally gone.... It's kind of like what it must feel like to have a really domineering horrible parent or step parent that you've always hated suddenly get really ill or years go by and they're like old and dying in a bed all fragile...No matter how much crap they put you through, its just not natural to be somewhat sympathetic.... Saying all this however, I am also very aware of her stregnth and ability to "fight tooth and nail" for what she wants .no matter what the consequences are...She's too f***ed up right now to know what she wants ...If these people at the "institution" she's in right now can get to the root of Courtney and help her clear up the oxycrack-fog that she's obviously in right now....she'll probably be back again...stronger than ever...But...she also IS NUTS....drugs or not....SHE'S WACKED.....So, I hope that if they do manage to get her off the drugs, that they send her to a shrink and make it MANDATORY that this person monitors EVERYTHING she does...I don't think jail time would make her any less nuts....A person with a bunch of money is powerful...A person with a bunch of money that's also nuts is TERRIFYING!!!!...I think it would probably be in order to take away her money and put it in a place where she can't get to it ...Just give her a little allowance...enough to live a nice little life while getting her shit together.......She IS very strong....this could be an act for all we know....a bunch of bullshit for her to get out having to do the trials, etc....She's sneaky.... Thanks for letting me ventalate... It's really anyone's guess what will happen next in the loony life of Courtney.... We'll stay tuned - -Mary Lou ------------------------------ End of jinglejangle-digest V7 #106 **********************************