From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V6 #26 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Tuesday, July 29 2003 Volume 06 : Number 026 * If you ever wish to unsubscribe, send an email to * eda-thoughts-digest-request@smoe.org with ONLY * the word unsubscribe in the body of the email * . * PLEASE :) when you reply to this digest to send a post TO the list, * change the subject to reflect what your post is about. A subject * of Re: eda-thoughts-digest V3 #xxx or the like gives readers no clue * as to what your message is about. Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: I'm Scared [Holly Miller ] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Sun, 27 Jul 2003 21:52:46 -0700 (PDT) From: Holly Miller Subject: ET: I'm Scared I'm scared... I feel as though I could cry I think I dont belong here atleast not yet not till I am done with my medication and until I have a car and a job I am not suppose to be here in Seattle to work I should be here to play my idea has gone sour I thought it would be a great idea get a job here and maybe stay here? HELLO! think about it I am not rewady for this type of living I have never lived this way I have never even thought of living this way I am still a 19 year old sometimes acting like 16 year old I am not a 19 year old with the smarts and the knowledge of a 24 year old like evryone else here is I am no where near there I am not ready for Seattle I think I may need to make a few phone calls or something because I sure in hell shouldnt be here I am not ready for this life maybe in a little while couple of months to a year when my life is stable then I could move up here if I get a job here I wouldnt know what to do! I would be young dumb and confused! VERY confused I'm not ready for this...that is all there is too it and I wish oh I wish I was... ===== now i will tell you what i've done for you/50 thousand tears i've cried screaming deceiving and bleeding for you/and you still won't hear me (I'm going under) don't lend your hand this time i'll save myself maybe i'll wake up for once (wake up for once)/not tormented daily defeated by you/just when i thought i'd reached the bottom i'm dying again -Evanescence "Going Under" __________________________________ Do you Yahoo!? Yahoo! SiteBuilder - Free, easy-to-use web site design software http://sitebuilder.yahoo.com ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V6 #26 *********************************