From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V4 #89 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Thursday, July 19 2001 Volume 04 : Number 089 * If you ever wish to unsubscribe, send an email to * eda-thoughts-digest-request@smoe.org with ONLY * the word unsubscribe in the body of the email * . * PLEASE :) when you reply to this digest to send a post TO the list, * change the subject to reflect what your post is about. A subject * of Re: eda-thoughts-digest V3 #xxx or the like gives readers no clue * as to what your message is about. Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: an untitled mess, nothing amazing, or even interesting, just a stream of rambles...trying to start my day... [Katherine] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Wed, 18 Jul 2001 11:38:21 -0700 (PDT) From: Katherine Alexandra Subject: ET: an untitled mess, nothing amazing, or even interesting, just a stream of rambles...trying to start my day... the compliments burn my insides as he tells me (in a certain voice) that my eyes are beautiful he quickly compliments all that is wrong as my ears burn i hear his words but they are telling me how ugly i am sadness erupts inside of me i am no longer the happy girl that i was when i was younger now i feel old because i can buy a beer and seduce an older man now i feel old as i break his heart with my own bare hands. little nothings are all that i can write fragmented sentences are spilling out and i wonder if anyone is reading this or if more importantly, i am writing this for someone to read and i am surprised by how quickly i avoid the answer to the question that was asked of me apparently, i have not been loud enough these days. i have been not telling the truth apparently. because all that i say is not being listenned to. "i am uncomfortable" yet he still persists he is not a bad man a lonely one that recently lost his wife to QVC and other shopping networks and he is ageing rapidily he wants to feel young and my breasts are still perky and i am the only one that has spoken to him in years. yet, i find myself in all of my uncomfort wanting to know more more about those wrinkles and how they came to be more about the failed marriage, more about the scared boy inside of the man Get personalized email addresses from Yahoo! Mail http://personal.mail.yahoo.com/ ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V4 #89 *********************************