From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V4 #57 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Monday, April 16 2001 Volume 04 : Number 057 * If you ever wish to unsubscribe, send an email to * eda-thoughts-digest-request@smoe.org with ONLY * the word unsubscribe in the body of the email * . * PLEASE :) when you reply to this digest to send a post TO the list, * change the subject to reflect what your post is about. A subject * of Re: eda-thoughts-digest V3 #xxx or the like gives readers no clue * as to what your message is about. Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: ~unsure closure~ [shiverflicka ] ET: ~heart-close~ [shiverflicka ] ET: (no subject) [DrkShadws85@aol.com] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Sun, 15 Apr 2001 07:27:48 -0700 (PDT) From: shiverflicka Subject: ET: ~unsure closure~ + he was away for a stag and it made me feel single all of a sudden the need to make human contact with my past strong travelling down the telephone line no matter the cost to discover the simple familiarity of recognizing a voice now somehow lost amidst moving apartments paying with pride acting polite amd apologetic to the new frankenstein bride standing there i didn't care for the accompaniment + i can't believe i told you where i was relenting and retreating like someone who's gone soft does but tell me you miss me again that i'm a great person and a deep, close friend maybe we really could make ammends give a salve to the shock of never meeting up again bit i can never pretend that i don't recall the sound of something as vital as your voice and the beauty of your bends no matter how many months count up the indifference and moving on between us parallel calenders still exist + Get email at your own domain with Yahoo! Mail. http://personal.mail.yahoo.com/ ------------------------------ Date: Sun, 15 Apr 2001 10:00:24 -0700 (PDT) From: shiverflicka Subject: ET: ~heart-close~ + i ran into you with my skidmarks sliding into singledom without any shocks still screeching independence because my breaks had always been faulty you somehow seemed to me more mechanically-inclined + craters full of constructed excuses i offered you like a loophole why we shouldn't enter each other and risk the letting go even though it was what i wanted more than my birthday i wanted to give you an out asking to put my picture in your wallet to think of me as your girlfriend oh how these things made me shudder with secretive pleasure when i discovered you had decided to disregard my advice + i love you marty. Get email at your own domain with Yahoo! Mail. http://personal.mail.yahoo.com/ ------------------------------ Date: Sun, 15 Apr 2001 19:09:50 EDT From: DrkShadws85@aol.com Subject: ET: (no subject) Sitting here existing almost living almost breathing thinking of everything that I can reach for and the answer came clear as I walked out of the bathroom you cant be what makes up my insides anymore I cant believe that I was sitting here taking in your every word when you were never talking to me just looking right through me Now im sitting around looking for walls to talk to something that's as pure as I used to be and then I realized I had all your phone numbers memorized and I had never seen a more beautiful night than the ones that I spent in a room full nothing where I could have been everything to someone and wasn't Theres something somewhere Im just getting tired of listening tired of looking tired of living tired of existing tired of breathing ~~ You were running from all the memories that you held in your mind you cant face the things that you made up in your head and you couldn't express it into words just pictures im learning h ow to sit in the dark and not cry quite so hard I lost you between start and finish you didn't meet me at our special meeting spot that we had always talked about in case someday one of us got lost in case one of us got hurt in case at one point things werent okay you never showed up but I left my number posted on one of the trees Im the little lonely one who stands alone Im trapped again with to many paths to go down so ill sit here in my little cage more happy than if you left me out there in the cold wheres its snowing in the middle of april at least that's what the weather man is say ing but you cant ever trust him just another liar in the same world the same world we just happen to live in ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V4 #57 *********************************