From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V4 #2 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Sunday, January 7 2001 Volume 04 : Number 002 * If you ever wish to unsubscribe, send an email to * eda-thoughts-digest-request@smoe.org with ONLY * the word unsubscribe in the body of the email * . * PLEASE :) when you reply to this digest to send a post TO the list, * change the subject to reflect what your post is about. A subject * of Re: eda-thoughts-digest V3 #xxx or the like gives readers no clue * as to what your message is about. Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: remember me? [Naomi ] ET: if you dont understand.. [DrkShadws85@aol.com] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Fri, 5 Jan 2001 21:51:38 -0800 (PST) From: Naomi Subject: ET: remember me? after a nudging to drop back in on my ET family i see it's been rather desolate around here. what's up ladies and lads? eh? not that i'm one to talk... i can't even remember the last time i posted. i'm not really writing anymore... trying to get back into it though, i always feel like i'm missing something when i let that part of me slide. i have an incling (thanks james) to post something tho... spur of the moment deal. lots going around my head right now... i just need to find the right way to get into it. maybe i think too much. no... i def think too much. oh well. i hope all my angels are happy and well loved out there. i am deeply in love... and happily in love... but life aside is taxing. but alas... love& gumdrops, nai - ---- images flittering *no...* memories i never had creeping back into existence whispering to me calling to me asking of me acknowledgment but i don't hear i don't see i don't understand what it is i'm supposed to see in his hands *remember?* no it's all just the result of one too many soap operas one too many episodes of opera chasing away her spirit but it's still there lingering this being that says there is something i need to know something i must see and all i have to do is look but i'm afraid afraid of remembering what if it's true what if i was really awake what if all those stories all those nightmares/dreams/shudderings were real? ===== "What is Desire? Desire is... complicated. One person always wants the other person more." -VS Yahoo! Photos - Share your holiday photos online! http://photos.yahoo.com/ ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 6 Jan 2001 23:38:37 EST From: DrkShadws85@aol.com Subject: ET: if you dont understand.. i was so tired and couldnt face the mirror this morning so i walked around now knowing unaware i sit back and listen to the silence then everyone else walks in the room and all i hear are murrmurs, maybe they were screams but i got tired of paying attention so i stopped and walked away it finally took them that time the time when i was walking out into the snow away from them away from you just away with no coat in my pajamas if you dont understand what i was going through that was more than fine i just wanted for someone to listen to me without telling me that i didnt know what i am feeling and if i was feeling that then it was no thing but wrong so stop talking and leave in the middle of our conversation put up with to many things that i shouldnt have to dont need any more problems so take it as it comes keep it to yourself remember the better forget the worst u dont get excited about the things that you dont im sorry im not in complete awe over fish and plants i could care less, not because you like it, just because you dont see me i was on the couch crying with you sitting right in front of me am i that translucent? i suppose so the blood is pouring down my insides but im not gonna let it escape not this time because im stronger than the hurtful words you whisper into my ear at night when im dreaming so ill have nightmares maybe this time im gonna stand a little taller im the back of my mind things are getting any better but im learing how to deal with things so much better and i can hide it, i can fight it but i rarely win which isnt really the point because im still walking around here i am if you dont understand thats fine because i didnt need your encouragement i just needed to learn more about myself you didnt understand i hope it doesnt happen to you someday because you wont understand ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V4 #2 ********************************