From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V3 #401 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Monday, December 11 2000 Volume 03 : Number 401 * If you ever wish to unsubscribe, send an email to * eda-thoughts-digest-request@smoe.org with ONLY * the word unsubscribe in the body of the email * . * PLEASE :) when you reply to this digest to send a post TO the list, * change the subject to reflect what your post is about. A subject * of Re: eda-thoughts-digest V3 #xxx or the like gives readers no clue * as to what your message is about. Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: Fight the dawn---lyrics ["*~*~ Claudia ~*~*" ] ET: you did this to me... [DrkShadws85@aol.com] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Sat, 9 Dec 2000 20:46:29 +0100 From: "*~*~ Claudia ~*~*" Subject: ET: Fight the dawn---lyrics Hi everybody! I hope you're all having a great weekend! I found these old lyrics i wrote more than one month ago but i can't remember if i already sent them! Anyways let me know what you think! hugs Claudia *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* ~Fight the dawn~ I close my eyes and i see your smile i wonder how many things you are trying to hide. We both know hope is so much stronger than reality and watching the moon you fill me with your poetry. The rain reminds me there's a sky we can't touch i love you, i do...you just don't know how much. Your angelface and my love are your armor and you pretend not to know that i need more. *So fight the dawn don't let your hopes burn in the sun, close your eyes and let the nightsky embrace your mind. Under this velvet mantle i can see the world from another angle 'cause bright smiles and sweet promises can easily deceive our weakness but in the stars about our strength finds its richness* A cold wind has started blowing through the trees, they look like a skinny version of our dreams. You say the air is the only thing we really need but you don't see all i want is you and me. You say you want to live in the sunlight but you know it's just another lie. Darkness is our precious secret world and that's the only freedom we'll ever get to know. *So fight the dawn don't let your hopes burn in the sun, close your eyes and let the nightsky embrace your mind. Under this velvet mantle i can see the world from another angle 'cause bright smiles and sweet promises can eaily deceive our weakness but in the stars about our strength finds its richness* *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* ~ Every day we starve while we eat white bread and beer instead of a handshake or hug ~ *Little sister* - Jewel ------------------------------ Date: Sun, 10 Dec 2000 15:23:24 -0500 From: "Seth D. Fulmer" Subject: ET: If I should die...(poem) Well I was requested to send a poem out and here's one I typed up a few days ago...If you don't want my poems, let me know..and as always comments and all that are welcome but not required :) I'm sorry it's so depressing..I'm not too happy this time of year. Take care and Have a Great Day! ~Seth ======================================== If I should die... by Seth D. Fulmer 12-8-00 The dreamer of dreams The liar of lies We may be the music makers why does my music break windows? I died yesterday honey on the table of the ER after an overdose of heroine and a really awesome trip I see you now from heaven but you are dating Him That asshole you were talking to before I died and went through hell I wish I had a lightning bolt A wave of forgiveness washes over me The devil then comes to me tells me to just go do it He says to drop an anvil on him or even to make him gay so much that he hates females even his mom who gave life to him I note that my parents on earth are going about their happy business They're shopping for christmas gifts and decorating the tree beautiful I make their tree burn down I even throw a spark from the fire into my parents marriage license HA! Now you're not married anymore That would not be too good for them because they fight all the time My mom's just so numb with drugs That she's agreeable and in denial They look at the ashes of their burned tree and think to call me to complain I'm the person that everyone comes to when they need a shrink or a confession I don't mind in the very least, but God I'm only their son They could at least want to talk to me and ask me how my life's been My best friends on the planet are busy partying where they live It's New Years eve; what do they care? They wouldn't talk to me for weeks anyway Oh pity on them Lord They're missing out on a lot If they don't care about me See if I really care about them And so I turn around and see a gorgeous woman so perfect I know this is heaven but This is too good to be true She says that she's in love with me and wants to make me so happy I tell her she doesn't have to do that She says it's okay because she wants to So I go with her to her bedroom, but because I'm an angel I hear thoughts she's going to seduce me today this morning, then meeting another fellow in the evening I ask her why girls are never good to me I tell her she's a dirty bitch and whore The woman says I don't care what you think You are so beautiful and we're doing it I tell her I don't want to do it She tells me I have no choice She tells me this is hell not heaven, so get naked I find my wings have dissappeared now I'm naked on a rocky cliff with fire A female more beautiful than ever before is ignoring my screams of "No!" So I detach myself from the torture; This isn't happening at all to me She'll go and make that other guy happy and I won't be upset in the least While she's walking away, I am tempted to kill her I hear up on earth though as I hear her laugh all my friends trying to find me with despair I hear one friends even was in love with me My heart just broke into a million little pieces I wish I never took those pills with alcohol The woman said as she walked away slowly You were in heaven Seth, You just hurt yourself ------------------------------ Date: Sun, 10 Dec 2000 16:57:07 EST From: DrkShadws85@aol.com Subject: ET: you did this to me... this is to someone...but hes someone whos not on the thoughts list..you know who you are..i still care but i feel like shit still for so many reasons..to that person, please write me back. +++++++++++++++++++++ you spit in my face i just turned my head thinking you didnt care anymore talking to me one day ignoring the next coming on and off without a single goodbye now that i love you could never be a mistake just an action in my life thats burnt tiny holes all over my heart and soul my lifes changed for the better but im still losing who i used to be its a mad time right now but i dont hate you im screaming out to you in a silent way why wont you answer me? ++++++++++++ "I am not the person who is singing I am the silent one inside" --* Paula Cole *-- ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V3 #401 **********************************