From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V3 #386 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Friday, November 24 2000 Volume 03 : Number 386 * If you ever wish to unsubscribe, send an email to * eda-thoughts-digest-request@smoe.org with ONLY * the word unsubscribe in the body of the email * . * PLEASE :) when you reply to this digest to send a post TO the list, * change the subject to reflect what your post is about. A subject * of Re: eda-thoughts-digest V3 #xxx or the like gives readers no clue * as to what your message is about. Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: angels [shell ] ET: And Now... [DrkShadws85@aol.com] ET: I think But yet I'm not [Seth Fulmer ] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Wed, 22 Nov 2000 21:31:06 -0800 (PST) From: shell Subject: ET: angels And I understand but if we're so alike why the hell doesn't she? I know, and why doesn't she? I can, why can't she? Why? and why doesn't any of this make sense? What the hell is wrong with her? I just want to scream at her when I see her, and just wring her neck! Why doesn't she just grow the fuck up already and quit her fucking whining! That's all she's doing! All she is doing is whining and complaining and she won't do anything about it! all she's doing is playing one huge victim card all the damn time and she doesn't even know it. Don't tell me you understand! Don't tell me you care and you know! You don't care, you don't know and you sure as hell don't understand! I'm just getting pissed now! I'm pissed as hell dammit, because you don't know! You're hurting me! you are hurting me, do you understand that? YOU are making me cry. You are making me scratch my arms. This is ALL your fault, what the hell is your major malfunction? Stand up for yourself! If you don't like him then say so! Say it! Tell him "Keep your hands off me, bastard" and if he doesn't like it, tell him to suck your nuts. Just get the hell off the ground, quit your whining and grow the fuck up already. ~~~~~~~~~~~ if you didn't like it, too bad, it probably wasn't written for you anyway Court _______________________________________________________ Tired of slow Internet? Get @Home Broadband Internet http://www.home.com/xinbox/signup.html ------------------------------ Date: Thu, 23 Nov 2000 14:49:34 EST From: DrkShadws85@aol.com Subject: ET: And Now... And now I am sitting here looking through the painted glass. But I dont see anything that I want to, I dont see my old self. I miss the person that I used to be but I dont know if I want to go back to that. To all the days where all I can do is look down at the ground and spit on myself, then again its pretty much the same these days. i just have learned that I have to cover it up more often and Im not allowed to have my 'bad day' which has always been everyday. And they leave me there with them. You know I didnt want to get up and go, but Im tired of being left behind, I dont know maybe things like that dont matter. I just dont see the people that mean anything to me around anymore, and let me tell you thats shitty. Most things are though, and they arent here to finish the food. Im sitting here stuck with someone I cant stand (myself) thinking I wish I could leave this room empty and still be in it. Impossible, yes. Just wish everything wasnt like this. Because nothing would hurt if I wasnt here. ------------------------------ Date: Thu, 23 Nov 2000 18:40:39 -0500 (EST) From: Seth Fulmer Subject: ET: I think But yet I'm not Hello everybody and if you live in this great country we know as the United States of America, Happy Thanksgiving to you! I came home after a fight with my girl..."friend" and was not in the best of moods, untalkative, not hungry, and I have been sleeping quite a bit. Since I came home, I talked to one of my friends from High School and he offered to help me try to find a job as well as did his attempt to cheer me up by pointing out that my exgirlfriend wasn't worth getting upset over and that I deserve someone better...ya ya ya If not then why don't I have them already? Anyhow, like so today I felt a little better after my friend Mandy sent me an email about stuff and she's sooo hilarious. My dad got called into work then and so we were waiting for him to return before sitting down for thanksgiving dinner. My mom and I got into a discussion then(I forget how it started) and she mentioned that she thought I would have invited Jennifer(my ex) home too. *sigh* But it's next to impossible to truly break me. I think the closest I've gotten to breaking down is tears on my eyes while waiting for the train on Wednesday afternoon. So but like after dinner, my dad went to sleep and my mom was watching "It's a Wonderful Life"(that Xmas movie with George Bailey and how he wishes he never existed). Sometimes I wish I never existed because the world would be a million times better. Well anyways, I was lonely so I went online to www.collegeclub.com where I'm a member and found someone(2 people actually but only one that appealed to me) that was a Virgo that said that it was next to impossible to annoy them and that they put up with a bit more than they deserve. Maybe that's my sign *sigh* and not "me" and I should blame my parents for giving birth to me during the starsign of Virgo and not Leo or Libra. But now I am sitting here and wondering what I'm doing here, what I really have to be thankful for. Yeah I have friends but they live way far away on the internet. Jennifer was really my only real life female "friend". If I went away I doubt anyone would miss me. I need a job and although I'm rather close to finding one, it's not helping much. Christmas is coming up and I feel like it's the end of the world and I really don't have anyone to make feel like they're totally awesome...which would make me feel totally awesome too. Oh well, I'm not doing too well here. I just needed some people to babble to. I told Jennifer to call if she wanted to but I honestly doubt she will so I'm not holding my breath(even though it would attain the required effect). Take care and I'll talk to you later :) *hugs and kisses to all who care to receive them* :) ~Seth ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V3 #386 **********************************