From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V3 #382 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Sunday, November 19 2000 Volume 03 : Number 382 * If you ever wish to unsubscribe, send an email to * eda-thoughts-digest-request@smoe.org with ONLY * the word unsubscribe in the body of the email * . * PLEASE :) when you reply to this digest to send a post TO the list, * change the subject to reflect what your post is about. A subject * of Re: eda-thoughts-digest V3 #xxx or the like gives readers no clue * as to what your message is about. Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET:I'm not a virgin anymore.. [GuMmIbEaRs ] ET: challenges im not winning..just failing is what i do [DrkShadws85@aol] ET: and every dream is just a dream... afterall? [Naomi Subject: ET:I'm not a virgin anymore.. I am shutting down and my Hanson CD isnt making me feel any better any more... the steel cage i live in is hugging me again tonight and the bars are making my heart grow cold but if you were to look at me see me from the outside you would never know the pain the hurt and the many tears i have cried.. ===== "-Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends" or "how very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart." -Rose Walker __________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? Yahoo! Calendar - Get organized for the holidays! http://calendar.yahoo.com/ ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 18 Nov 2000 20:06:11 EST From: DrkShadws85@aol.com Subject: ET: challenges im not winning..just failing is what i do Ok err..so I had a shitty night and I thought I was going to die. WARNING: dont read this if you dont wanna..its just loverly lil me venting about what happened to me tonight. But there is a poem that goes along with all of this at the bottom..so yah you can at least read that. Okay, well, hrmph. Mother and I decided that we wanted to go into the city (which is a 30 min drive, we live in a itty town) and okay..so yah its snowing not very much. And well, I we get on the freeway and it snows harder and harder. So, there we are driving along..and we cant see the damn lines on the road. Coming from Arizona (now in Michigan) we arent used to the whole snow thing. Of course...we're running off the road in all directions. Cars kept passing us and we would almost hit them. Then we finally get to the place where we were going and well, out cor goes ERRRRR clunk ouuuff blehghgh. Or something close like that. We go in the store and do our thing and then come out and its snowing harder yet. So we go and are driving along and are all SHIT, our tire is flat, which was the noise we were hearing before. We are already on the main road and theres nowhere that we can pull off really and we just frantically look for a gas station, which we cant find..but a few miles up the road (the whole time our car sounding like it was going to die)..we pulled in and couldnt find a place to get air...I went in and asked and we found it. Come to find out 3 OUT OF 4 of our tired were flat. Go figure..so we fill em up and go on our way. Right? nope. We go to pull out and mom turns to fast and we are stuck in the middle of the road WITH CARS COMING! So, we try and hurry to get the car to move, it does and now we are in this place and we really have no idea where we are. At that point Im asking my mom just to call someone, and being a wimp cuz I thought we were gonna die I was crying. So, we get back on the road all okay..I wouldnt let her barely go so the car would move. And we went to another store and then came for our way home. The drive home wasnt as bad..although I was still feeling really sick and paranoid. But we didnt die..I guess thats the good part. Oy..I never wanna leave my house again... :( - -samantha ive come to the conclusion this is the winter with no music a winter in which all i will do is cry over everything because Im to scared and want to call for help but they wont let me they think they can handle everything themself as a secret i know that they cant now im scared i made myself sick i dont want to leave here anymore but i hate it here and dont want to stay Ill let you stay here baking your cake which is supposed to make everything all better and doesnt.. ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 18 Nov 2000 19:36:58 -0800 (PST) From: Naomi Subject: ET: and every dream is just a dream... afterall? last year i had a crush on this guy chad... for pretty much the entire year. we danced together at the prom, one dance... and it was magical and my heart flip-flopped and the whole bit... but after the dance we went our seperate ways. then i met corey and we became close and next thing you know we're together... and suddenly chad is back, after having been out of touch since the prom... we talking about the good ol days or whatever... and it comes about that we both admit to having had feelings for eachother the past year... but me being w/ corey... nothing can come of it... so we go our seperate ways again. tho w/ corey i still felt lingering feelings for corey... but, didn't do anything about it. me and corey eventually came to be engaged... and i see chad 1-2 times a week at school... we're friends, talk here and there... and i am aware that his feelings are still there, but mine have gone away. so friday night there was a senior dinner... him being my only friend there and my ride... i stuck by him all night... we all went to the movies afterwards... and it was a great time. tho i didn't feel anything towards chad... me and corey had been having problems... so i couldn't help but look at chad as the simpler alternative... but i'm in love w/ corey, and honestly do not feel anything for chad any longer. but friday night i had these dreams about chad all night.. romantic dreams... sexual dreams... dreams where we ended up married.. and i woke up feeling so guilty. so, i dunno... can anyone tell me if there's validity(sp) to these dreams? i love corey... *sigh* ===== "What is Desire? Desire is... complicated. One person always wants the other person more." -VS __________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? Yahoo! Calendar - Get organized for the holidays! http://calendar.yahoo.com/ ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V3 #382 **********************************