From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V3 #334 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Tuesday, September 26 2000 Volume 03 : Number 334 * If you ever wish to unsubscribe, send an email to * eda-thoughts-digest-request@smoe.org with ONLY * the word unsubscribe in the body of the email * . * PLEASE :) when you reply to this digest to send a post TO the list, * change the subject to reflect what your post is about. A subject * of Re: eda-thoughts-digest V3 #xxx or the like gives readers no clue * as to what your message is about. Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: His name is a secret [Tudegirl08@aol.com] ET: hum de dum.. [DrkShadws85@aol.com] ET: whoohoo! [shell ] ET: sigh [shell ] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Mon, 25 Sep 2000 01:35:26 EDT From: Tudegirl08@aol.com Subject: ET: His name is a secret When you're infatuated with a person they are "the one" for you they are flawless in every aspect and you stare at them every chance you have because you just know you would melt if they whispered in your ear You practice your name with theirs scribble it quietly even the sound of the two of you together is music being played for the soul You even tell your friends, "wouldn't we look good together?" confidently you wait for the, only answer they grant you your wish and stabilize your nervous hands of course it's fate, it always is what are the odds the two of you would be in the same exact place, at the same exact moment and so you tend to keep having these coincidental meetings and the casual, "funny seeing you here" comments but they'll never see your heart thundering before their eyes because how horrible would it be for them to know that you've planned this destiny from the beginning every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday at 1pm sharp ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 25 Sep 2000 15:19:58 EDT From: DrkShadws85@aol.com Subject: ET: hum de dum.. - --Mistaken Boundaries-- cant you see that the readings are farther apart angel myesteries cant be shared with you i cant tell you my secrets because i dont want anyone to know how it really is i cry because im scared and theres nothing left to do i know you canthelp anymore, ive asked to many times your ears are starting to bleed from all the things ive told you im starting to scare myself into insanity that whatever this is wont be cured i hear them saying things they shouldnt be makes it worse, makes it better time stopped mattering to me it doesnt matter isnt gonna prevent my bones from shaking my body isnt little and i cant be held all the time anymoe pictures dont hold the memories that i want to make more of of the friends i used to have, the life i used to lead when i would actually smile for myself the hole grows bigger and wider everyday shattered pieces of the mirror stay in my hand you pick then out, but time doesnt turn back my fingers are mistaken but the fairy tale doesnt follow all the way through it ends short i wasnt notified of the changed plans and the fact that its gonna be the way it is im have undefineable problems i have no help i have no support im losing ground i cant hold myself up anymore this isnt my decision ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 25 Sep 2000 15:39:23 -0700 (PDT) From: shell Subject: ET: whoohoo! Dear Angels, :) life is good. My sweet 16 was on the 15th of september, just thought i'd pass that along. Today I got an invitation to be inducted to the National Honor Society. :) Go me... :)I'll be fine. I haven't posted in forever. I do have a couple new poems, one in particular i'm really happy with. But they are currently in my college english folder, so I can't post them yet. I will when i can though. That's all I really had to say, thanks for listening to my pointlessness. Court _______________________________________________________ Say Bye to Slow Internet! http://www.home.com/xinbox/signup.html ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 25 Sep 2000 19:29:31 -0700 (PDT) From: shell Subject: ET: sigh and now for the longer, non-cliffs notes version of my happiness. A certain someone in my life I'm beginning to lose touch with a person who has, up until recently, been my reason for living. I'm sure we all know who he is anyway, but I won't say his name. I don't feel he loves me the way he used to, and he has changed a LOT. He's not...him anymore. I'm sure there was a better way for me to phrase that, but i don't know what it is. He's changed a lot and he's not the same person I fell in love with. I still love him more than anything, and I probably always will, but he's not the same. And that's okay. As long as he's happy, I'm happy for him, and I suppose that's how it should be. If you can love someone, you can learn to let go. So, if and when they come back, it was meant to be, and if not, it wasn't. Not to say it doesn't hurt, because it hurts like blazes of hell. But I'll get over it eventually, and was convinced by another friend of mine that if he doesn't love me the way I want him to, it doesn't mean he doesn't love me with everything he has. I kinda went through a little self-empowerment over the last little while... Things been going hellaciously wrong lately, and that's okay. Losing him for one, and little personal battles. All kinds of yummy stuff. But I'm not as afraid of the guys that love me. :) I've been talking about my flashbacks more, and I'm losing my fear of guys. So this is fun. Realizing my own strength over the past little while. And remembering some little not so fun things about when Chris died. That wasn't too great. But I'm getting over and past and it's all good. I am on the verge of getting a new girlfriend. her name is Leslie, we've been friends for about 2 years now. We ended up having a make out session at her house the other day, so that was interesting. Just thought I'd share my happiness. Have a great day, take care of yourself and someone else. Courtney _______________________________________________________ Say Bye to Slow Internet! http://www.home.com/xinbox/signup.html ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V3 #334 **********************************