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eda-thoughts-digest     Monday, September 25 2000     Volume 03 : Number 333




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                               Today's Subjects:
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  ET: Just a thought..                                  [DrkShadws85@aol.com]
  ET: No Regrets (poem)                                 [DrkShadws85@aol.com]

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Date: Sun, 24 Sep 2000 20:53:34 EDT
From: DrkShadws85@aol.com
Subject: ET: Just a thought..

i sit here cold
lonely
trapped in my own desire
that i can reach out to
im crying
alone
scared to mention
what happened today
getting yelled at
with headphones on my ears
i dont understand this
i dont understand these rivers
flowing from my eyes

i smile through the weariness i feel
but it isnt geniune
its guilt, its hate
its what i think i am
what i dont want to be
cant accpept for who i am
just hate me for what im not
i dont want to be another you

the voice in my heart cries out saying
im tired of being here
thinking these blank thoughts
whenever i look in the mirror
i fade away to another place
on the other side where you cant see me
i have my wings
i fly away
and this time im not coming home

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Date: Sun, 24 Sep 2000 21:13:55 EDT
From: DrkShadws85@aol.com
Subject: ET: No Regrets (poem)

i lean on the wall
and wipe the blood
from my eyes
im dying in front of myself
and i cant stop it

your voice would have saved me
but you werent around
you dont come around anymore
im not needed
not one of those things
called a necessity

you cant tell me theres something wrong
even though there is
more things that i can count
i just dont want to have to admit
to these circumstances
this isnt the news i want

why dont you stop arguing
STOP the voices inside my head
youre scaring me
im scaring myself
oh sweet release
you left me
please come back
i need you more now than ever

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