From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V3 #332 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Sunday, September 24 2000 Volume 03 : Number 332 * If you ever wish to unsubscribe, send an email to * eda-thoughts-digest-request@smoe.org with ONLY * the word unsubscribe in the body of the email * . * PLEASE :) when you reply to this digest to send a post TO the list, * change the subject to reflect what your post is about. A subject * of Re: eda-thoughts-digest V3 #xxx or the like gives readers no clue * as to what your message is about. Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: From this point on(poem) ["Seth D. Fulmer" ] ET: Just wondering... [DrkShadws85@aol.com] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Sat, 23 Sep 2000 11:43:59 -0400 From: "Seth D. Fulmer" Subject: ET: From this point on(poem) Hey there, I guess I'm a bit better this morning. As some of you know, at night for quite a while(months), I get into this state at night where I want a girl around...just to chill with in person(not the internet or phone, although phone's not bad) and lately my Friday evenings have been spent falling asleep in front of the TV in bed. I wrote this last night getting mad at life and fate talking about relationships with a friend. But as my bible study minister points out when I said to him 2 months ago, "If this relationship doesn't work out, I won't ever love anyone again" and he said to me "Can I hold you to your words there?"(hehe I shouldn't have told him that he could lol :))...I'm probably going to find someone...Last night though I was just adamant about giving up. As some of you also know I can be a stubborn ass at times and my best female friend(*waves to a few of you*) could stand in front of telling me she loves me and wants to date me and if I decided that I'm not into that anymore, I'd tell her right out "No"(even if it broke her heart). But I've lost my stubborn-ness this morning for now though..but here's the poem :) Let me know what you think(if you want)...and if you don't like to receive my poems, let me know and as William Wallace says in Braveheart "Well, we will have to remedy that, won't we?" Take cares and I hope you all have a most excellent Day!! :o) -Seth ============================================================ From this point on by Seth D. Fulmer 9-23-00 From this point on I stop my search I will remain single for life and beyond Anyone who likes me C'est la vie Fuck you girl I'm sick of the bullshit The bullshit of "I like you I love you a lot I want to spend my life with you But I'm on the other phone line" The bullshit of "You're perfect" "No you're more perfect than me" How can someone be more perfect dear for perfect is the best one can be Talking on the phone for hours a lot of it in silence and babble Speaking languages known to people referred to as romantic idiots Doing favors where one wouldn't be done Why can't one just respect the other I like to do favors for just about anyone All they gotta do is ask me I hate to see people who are holding hands and kissing The sight of it just makes me sick to my stomach all over I hate Valentines Day and even my birthday and christmas even though Christmas I can ease pain by helping others out with gifts I can't make fun of them though the couples have the right to love Guys I admit are assholes indeed but girls are worse by far They use their power to get male glances The guys buy them a lot of nice stuff They then take that stuff and go away telling the guy they just were using him Taking his virginity, and then taking his money Robbing his mother blindly, of her son's purity I'd rather be in heaven now for then I'd find my angel God doesn't admit demons to heaven just those who refuse to hurt others But then I wonder, can an angel hurt me or am I truly safe after I die But as I said from this point on Kiss good bye your chance to love me Say good bye to the happiness for me Tell me off, It's all the same dear for all I have to say is I don't care I don't need anyone to love me anymore I don't need anyone to care I don't need the kisses, or even to hold hands The truth is I miss it, but alas C'est la vie As Seven of Nine from Star Trek says, "I will adapt" I'm not turning gay; I'm not staying straight I will not bring down any other girls or their men I won't kill myself, not over another human being But I won't be brought down to idiotic romanticism A lover I would have been, a loner I was and will be Now there's no change except I'll even ignore the one. ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 23 Sep 2000 23:55:05 EDT From: DrkShadws85@aol.com Subject: ET: Just wondering... Hey people, I was wondering..have any of you heard of Suzanne Vega?? Okay yah la la take care bye!! - -Samantha "so many sheep Ive been counting/sleepless and embarassed about the way that I feel/trying to make molehills out of mountains/building basecamp at the bottom of a really big deal" ---ani d. ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V3 #332 **********************************