From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V3 #305 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Sunday, August 27 2000 Volume 03 : Number 305 * If you ever wish to unsubscribe, send an email to * eda-thoughts-digest-request@smoe.org with ONLY * the word unsubscribe in the body of the email * . * PLEASE :) when you reply to this digest to send a post TO the list, * change the subject to reflect what your post is about. A subject * of Re: eda-thoughts-digest V3 #xxx or the like gives readers no clue * as to what your message is about. Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: good to know you'll always be there evoking pain, i know it's for my own good... [RJon] ET: well this is good...4 tonight. [RJonthego@aol.com] ET: it feels like winter, on this summer night [RJonthego@aol.com] ET: Emotional Shields(poem) ["Seth D. Fulmer" ] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Sat, 26 Aug 2000 00:53:17 EDT From: RJonthego@aol.com Subject: ET: good to know you'll always be there evoking pain, i know it's for my own good... wow i'm falling again more like slipping sliding like you were teaching me balance on that snowy cliff and then i tumbled (if my life was a nancy drew, you pushed me) and i'm going in an irreversible direction back into the land of no control and what can i do to stay still? what can i do to keep you here? you look at me like you've always seen me small from your lofty position at the top of the mountain like you know that there's nothing inside and i've been covering up the barren ground with snow hoping against hope that there might be a soft landing. ~~~ roya well i'm writing poetry again. am i glad? i don't know. ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 26 Aug 2000 01:16:35 EDT From: RJonthego@aol.com Subject: ET: well this is good...4 tonight. you still hurt me when you're distant. although my life is filled with closeness your coldness is the only one that touches me through my flaming pink shield you enhanced my vision and then walked away and now i scrutinize, because i can every little detail of how you walk your back the background you dissapear into. remember me when the scenery has stars shouting your name i'll be here hurting because you are so distant. ~~ roya when you're a cuddly person, distance is not a good thing ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 26 Aug 2000 01:39:09 EDT From: RJonthego@aol.com Subject: ET: it feels like winter, on this summer night suddenly this tank top which was too hot earlier is now too cold without you but that's always the way it goes isn't it too cold under a tree alone i'm watching you when are we going to get nice boys and settle down? too much freedom goes to our heads when will we have those velvet ties again? i'm floundering like a fish out of water not the prettiest metaphore but that water was warm and i'm struggling and wondering how will i swim again? ~~~~ roya but i never get goosebumps ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 26 Aug 2000 18:30:06 -0400 From: "Seth D. Fulmer" Subject: ET: Emotional Shields(poem) Okey I wrote this one today earlier this afternoon and I wasn't going to send it but my friend Dennis says I should let my emotions out. I don't know why I listen to him..He's like my best friend in the whole world but can't help my life much. I wrote a poem earlier yesterday too that's longer but I wasn't gonna send it. If you really wanna hear it, email me back. I'll send it. Also if you don't want to receive my poetry, let me know and I'll take you off. Comments and all that are welcome but not required. Take cares and Have a Great Day!! :o) -Seth ==================================================== Emotional Shields by Seth D. Fulmer 8/26/00 The feelings inside me are very alive and well The emotions inside rumble but at the surface quell The shields are strong but the sunlight can't shine The daisies outside me are there but invisible I love her when I am alone when others are there I hide I feel pain in the heart muscle and my eyes give way to tears I try to hide them all, or even make them stop The smiles on the outside are fake but they work People think I'm happy I laugh and smile for them but when they all do leave me I give myself an eyebath Lightning strikes but once Maybe twice or thrice Have you ever heard of a thunderstorm happening across a person's life? I'd love it if it happened if I found the one for me if she walked right up to my front door and she kissed me until I fainted The flowers would bloom then The angels would smile Children would sing to me and I would then be happy I love you girl! "I love you too" She says to me and kisses me I slip her a ring, she wraps her arms and tells me that I am her hero Ok, so I dream, but what is a dream but a vision that has yet to become reality I plan on dreaming and dreaming a lot and making a reality worth having ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V3 #305 **********************************