From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V3 #301 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Sunday, August 20 2000 Volume 03 : Number 301 * If you ever wish to unsubscribe, send an email to * eda-thoughts-digest-request@smoe.org with ONLY * the word unsubscribe in the body of the email * . * PLEASE :) when you reply to this digest to send a post TO the list, * change the subject to reflect what your post is about. A subject * of Re: eda-thoughts-digest V3 #xxx or the like gives readers no clue * as to what your message is about. Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: the legacy behind [shell ] ET: wowzers [shell ] ET: Entreatment to God(poem) ["Seth D. Fulmer" ] ET: hmm [shell ] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Fri, 18 Aug 2000 21:34:32 -0700 (PDT) From: shell Subject: ET: the legacy behind By this I'm not saying in any way that it's okay. By this, I'm not saying I will forget I am not saying I will condone. I am not saying you do not deserve blazes of hell. I am saying I was abused. I was hurt. I was raped. I was betrayed. But much more importantly, I am saying, that I survived. Maybe you don't understand that. Maybe, you don't care. Maybe all of this falls on deaf ears, I'm not sure. But I am sure, that my forgiveness... it will be a shame if you consider it to be your false hope. Because you may one day have my forgiveness, but you will have nothing else. You have no family. You have no wife, no children that care. You have nobody. You can apologize until your lips grow numb you can drink until you have no liver you can do whatever you want that will make you feel okay, but in the end, the bottom line is you, are alone. ~~~~~~~~~~ If you didn't like it, feel free to keep it inside. if you did, feel free to say so. :) love yall take care of yourselves and someone else Court _______________________________________________________ Say Bye to Slow Internet! http://www.home.com/xinbox/signup.html ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 19 Aug 2000 09:33:56 -0700 (PDT) From: shell Subject: ET: wowzers Dear Y'all, Well. I am SO good. :) My life rocks because... wow. I am so happy. As I told another eda recently, some things here are really going wrong. I'm losing a friendship with someone I care about quite a bit, amoung some issues I'm having with my family. But I feel like the euphoric idiot in the middle, because in the midst of all this crap going on I'm just smiling and giggling. As all of you probably know, I *don't* giggle. So this is cool. Stephen's getting me flowers from what I've gathered, from little things he's said. And, a couple days ago, he said to me what I thought he was going to say, because you can just see it in him. He thinks loves me. :) And the cool thing is, I think I love him too. Life is good. Everything else is screwed up, and I don't care. I feel soooo good about myself, and I'm basically learning to really like who I am. Thanks also to all the eda's who responded to my recent poems so enthousiastically, I appreciate it. :) Take care of yourselves and someone else Courtney _______________________________________________________ Say Bye to Slow Internet! http://www.home.com/xinbox/signup.html ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 19 Aug 2000 14:05:04 -0400 From: "Seth D. Fulmer" Subject: ET: Entreatment to God(poem) Hey everyone...and Stephany too, Please read this. I think this is very powerful again. It's also my first poem in a while I've written. If you don't want my poems, let me know. Take cares and Have a Great Day!! :o) -Seth P.S...a quote for y'all... "I've held you tight..I've pushed you away. Now with all my might..I beg you to stay" - Celine Dion, "I don't know" ======================================================================== Entreatment to God by Seth D. Fulmer 8/19/00 Loneliness sits in me all day and all night I talk to my friends but they don't seem to help I think I realize what's going on but I wish it had been realized long ago We were having too much fun in too many sinful ways She wanted emotional fulfillment as did I but I wanted to please her I figured from her words to me that she wanted to wait to date normally I love her as a person God I want to get to know her better I want to consider her my girlFRIEND my friend with benefits divine I want to be able to kiss her sweet lips and hold her hand as we take walks together I'd like to read her poetry that's reminiscent of her beauty and take her to dances and parties and dance like there's nobody watching I don't want a live in lover God I want a friend who is in love with me someone who enjoys every second with me and thinks about me when I'm gone from her But she is at home now and my line of communication is broken I leave messages for her to call me but she does not and it hurts me I think about her and cry for I feel like I've lost a friend God I've only lost a friend a few times in life and every time it was worse than not making one Today I sit here, nobody is online My one friend hopped on, but then she hopped off I called her again today God I left her a message to call me I gave her my number even Perhaps I should learn Patience Please God give me the patience so that I can learn to be a better person I want to make her proud of me Lord like she was before the storm The storm in my heart God It's brewing nice and bubbling The birds that used to fly and whistle love songs are now screaming as their wings are ripped off The other night I talked to my best friend from High School He spoke to me about love and relationships and tried to give my confidence a boost I found I could talk to him about love for a person as well as for you God not just loving them to do practically anything but loving them enough to die for them It felt like old times when I talked to him then He's always been such a mature personality and could give me advice as a male where no other being possibly could For the first time in my life Lord, I love a woman so much it hurts I think he could see that in me and when I'm married he's my best man My wedding, Oh Lord, will be incredible, just wait! There will be flowers in every window sill and wherever one might think My wife, my love, whomever that will be will look truly magnificent like you sent angels down to grace us From the rice being thrown at us to the limosine standing by The pictures and the champagne glasses and the ringboy and flowergirl kissing I'm so much in love God I don't know though with whom with her or with me or with the thought of us together boyfriend and girlfriend I wish I could call her that She may have fallen for another guy Lord Please give me faith to not believe that I don't know what I'd do then I know I'm beautiful, but is it enough? I can't wait for the day Lord when I can take her into a field of roses and make her feel majestic "These are yours dear!" I'll tell her all the time every last rose petal and fragrance even the horse standing nearby would be bred for her pleasure Please let me realize Lord all that can be done to love her I truly will do anything, and I mean every single word of it I give her my heart and my soul I ask only that she take it and love me back and if there's something that she doesn't like God that she tells me before it becomes menacing ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 19 Aug 2000 18:59:35 -0700 (PDT) From: shell Subject: ET: hmm Dear Y'all, Hi y'all. My 16th birthday is next month. :) (On September 15th, for those who care) :) Today I found out that some people just aren't very nice at all... I don't wanna talk about most of it, but one in particular is Paul's mom. I mean, she's a sweet lady, she's cool to be around and all, but sometimes she just sounds like she'd rather I died off than talk to her son. And it doesn't help much that it seems like i'm the *only* person she doesn't like. Everyone's like "Oh, Penny doesn't like you? Penny likes everyone! She's so sweet!" and she is sweet, she's awesome, but still... The fact that everyone says she's great and likes everyone, that's kinda discouraging. It's like, everyone but me. Oh well, that's nothing I can do anything about. I will be going now y'all, take care of yourselves and someone else. Court Buhg "I'm here to pay for my mistakes in an excruciating manner" _______________________________________________________ Say Bye to Slow Internet! http://www.home.com/xinbox/signup.html ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V3 #301 **********************************