From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V3 #282 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Sunday, July 30 2000 Volume 03 : Number 282 * If you ever wish to unsubscribe, send an email to * eda-thoughts-digest-request@smoe.org with ONLY * the word unsubscribe in the body of the email * . * PLEASE :) when you reply to this digest to send a post TO the list, * change the subject to reflect what your post is about. A subject * of Re: eda-thoughts-digest V3 #xxx or the like gives readers no clue * as to what your message is about. Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: Monkey in the Middle(poem) [Seth Fulmer ] ET: Me.. [GuMmIbEaRs ] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Sat, 29 Jul 2000 11:04:54 -0400 (EDT) From: Seth Fulmer Subject: ET: Monkey in the Middle(poem) Hey everyone, Perhaps I'm jumping a bit but this morning I was really flipping out and just shut myself in my room for 2 hours and cried myself to sleep(to wake up with a headache and my dad opening the door to yell at me that I should open the door and let the air conditioning come in..oh and that he was leaving the house with my mom...at least one bit of good news..I shouldn't say that but I don't like people being rude/mean to me). So here's the poem I wrote(before I went to sleep). As always: Comments and all that are welcome and if you don't want my poems, let me know and I won't send them. Take care of yourself and Have a Fantastic Day/Weekend!! :o) -Seth "I wish I could take a journey through your mind..and find emotions that you always try to hide" - Joe, "I wanna know" =========================================== Monkey in the Middle by Seth D. Fulmer 7/29/00 I feel I'm in the middle and the ball is being thrown around me I'm the Monkey in the Middle of two people in emotional chaos My dad was so mellow last weekend on the phone Today he's so negative and taking it out on the world He says he doesn't know what's wrong that the world just sucks throughout Maybe if he actually examined his emotions He'd see they're not rational but chemical Guys have hormonal periods too dad It's really not just the girls Only difference is I hate myself and you just hate everyone else That's just not fair though to those in your life who love you You're not the only one in this here Let someone listen to what's wrong. My girlfriend too is ill at heart She misses me but there's something else I have no clue; I don't know her that long But I'd travel across the world to find out I don't like being left out of things Usually those times I choose to leave I love both of these people though so very much It kills me to go or to stay around People please tell me what to do! I'm being torn apart by the heart muscles One person being mean on one side of me and the person I want to be with is so distant ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 29 Jul 2000 13:46:41 -0700 (PDT) From: GuMmIbEaRs Subject: ET: Me.. I have been really depressed lately and well i got into a fight with my parents and ended up writting these /////////////////////// I don't want to do a Thing Nothing Notda Zip I am in a state of self Hatred Pity Anguish Denial Hatred For the only thing I have In my mind is that image Him signing things Then he Thinks it is all over and Stands up Then she comes up to him Kisses him Gasp He sees some one then I go running to the Catwalk And watch as he looks For me And as she sit there In his love //////////////////////////// Nope Not going Cant do it I have something else Planned? Some one in my Family died? Or how about This one Cause I am Afraid something Will happen that Will crush me to Death Yeah that sounds right ////////////////////////// Waiting in line/ waiting little by little/ getting closer to him/ you see him/ only to see the thing/ to see "HIM"/ kissing a girl/ and the only way/ you know how to deal with it/ is to do what you do/ destroy your life /////////////////////////// Love has become a Disease Plague Famine That I am the main Possessor of I bet he is as Sweet Kind Gentle As you want and Believe him to be And when I meet him I will put on a Mask Big enough For him to not see The real me Dying Inside //////////////////////////// Never before in my Life Have I ever Tried To Destroy Something attached to my Heart So much Before they have broken Themselves off Or it hurt so much it fell off But never Ever Have I tried to detach Remove Something on my heart ///////////////////////// 3days until my prize Things in life Happens 3 days So why does it Seem that I Am having a Breakdown? //////////////////////// He told me to put The past behind me That I should Just for get it But I cant Him tell me to Forget it And move on Is like telling A suicide patient That has a gun in There hand Down Its not going To fucking happen ///////////////////////// Well here ya go, questions, comments, all things welcome, except bashing, you do that i come and kill you. :) Holly PS my quote goes with these poems ===== "-Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends" or "how very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart." -Rose Walker __________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? Kick off your party with Yahoo! Invites. http://invites.yahoo.com/ ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V3 #282 **********************************