From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V3 #247 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Tuesday, June 27 2000 Volume 03 : Number 247 * If you ever wish to unsubscribe, send an email to * eda-thoughts-digest-request@smoe.org with ONLY * the word unsubscribe in the body of the email * . * PLEASE :) when you reply to this digest to send a post TO the list, * change the subject to reflect what your post is about. A subject * of Re: eda-thoughts-digest V3 #xxx or the like gives readers no clue * as to what your message is about. Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: Re: eating disorder [RedWoodenBeads@aol.com] ET: Introduction and a first posting. ["Sara" ] ET: Untitled ["Sara" ] ET: Our love is Amend [Tudegirl08@aol.com] ET: A drawn out thought [Tudegirl08@aol.com] ET: if bursting seemed possible, I just might do it ["* armisia *" ] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Mon, 26 Jun 2000 00:06:06 EDT From: RedWoodenBeads@aol.com Subject: ET: Re: eating disorder In a message dated 6/25/00 9:02:16 PM Pacific Daylight Time, owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org writes: << I have tried to do the eating disorder but i could not >> yeah, those pop tarts are just way too tempting. MMMhmmm!!!!!!!! ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 26 Jun 2000 08:16:49 -0700 From: "Sara" Subject: ET: Introduction and a first posting. Hello my name is Sara, and I've been an Eda for a little over a year now, but I had not heard of this list until recently, and so I joined on Friday. Thus far I am really impressed by the postings I have read. I decided for my first posting I would post a poem I wrote about a monthly ago that has yet to see the light of day. I thought it would be more beneficial to post something new that hasn't had much work than to post something that has been edited, and critiqued, and rewritten, and worked abundantly already. Remembrance. I miss you So much. So much my entire body aches. So much, So much that I don't know what to do. Everything, Everything around me reminds me of you. Everything. Whenever I see the color red, I think of you. Whenever I wear the color red I think of you. This box and that song. This joke and that story. All words uttered by my mouth speak of you, So much so I have stopped dropping your name to disguise the existence of my emotions and their attachment to your name. Your name, ah your name. The name which is on everyone's tongue. The name I hear a million times a day. Your name. It reminds me of you. My day can be split two ways. Those hours I spend dreaming of you, and the hours I spend wishing for you. Wishing you were here. Wishing I could tell you, tell you so much, and yet nothing. All the little things that make our conversations special. All the little moments that are so simplistically beautiful. Yes, It is that which I miss the most. - --- I tried to forget you but you tied bells to your name ~Jewel "Love Me Just Leave Me Alone" http://homepages.go.com/~mysteriousraven/door.html *********************************** chickclick.com http://www.chickclick.com girl sites that don't fake it. http://www.chickmail.com sign up for your free email. http://www.chickshops.com boutique shopping from chickclick.com *********************************** ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 26 Jun 2000 08:19:52 -0700 From: "Sara" Subject: ET: Untitled After posting such I a long one I decided to post one of my favorite shorts. Untitled I could eat you alive like the cheese puff you are and the cheese burger you think you are. - --- I tried to forget you but you tied bells to your name ~Jewel "Love Me Just Leave Me Alone" http://homepages.go.com/~mysteriousraven/door.html *********************************** chickclick.com http://www.chickclick.com girl sites that don't fake it. http://www.chickmail.com sign up for your free email. http://www.chickshops.com boutique shopping from chickclick.com *********************************** ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 26 Jun 2000 15:45:07 EDT From: Tudegirl08@aol.com Subject: ET: Our love is Amend Days contain hours, skilled to feel like years and if I had a wish, I'd wish to go on a journey An adventure through tears Tears that would travel the depth of your mind and I wonder if I would see myself in there Can I be strong enough to manipulate time? To dissect the blood inside of your veins that bleeds, burns, and makes your heart drain What if I've ran out of strength from running away And I turn down that power by saying just break me and in the mean time build up your being and stray satisfy the hunger you feel because your distance, distances me If I could stomach this ride of being your mind Would I live or would I die Would I fade away or just fall behind I can't predict, will love survive? If I close my eyes and dream of your arms What you feel we had, my bones feel you drop But I see your conscience and it's there to remind To challenge this storm It's me that you crave, please don't deny My insides have twisted into a knot I breath in and I try to let go The loneliness of this thought ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 26 Jun 2000 15:43:01 EDT From: Tudegirl08@aol.com Subject: ET: A drawn out thought I lay in an uncomfortable position without you. I am not as perfect as a child's smile but my laughter came close you once said. I wash away the impurities of today that have seeped through the pores of my skin and I feel the most beautiful when no one's looking to critique my mistakes. My mind wanders uncontrollably, unstoppable, unwillingly into the doubts I have of you and in all the skepticism you have left me to dwell upon and my eyes swim in dreams we used to share, a love that felt and grew inside of me and became the most dependable part of my being. The only thing real now are the hands that swept you away along with all of my thoughts that once spilled on the floor in front of you. Pieces of you are left for me to tip toe through but I watch my step carelessly and make sure a day doesn't present itself without a reminder of what once was undeniably existing between the telephone wires that kept us apart. My shadow remains by my side, I imagined you would eventually take its place. My imagination works itself to the core, holding its breath that my dream of you will someday reveal its face and prove to all that have watched me bleed and say your name in vain that it is real and not a lost hope erased between the lines that have been over read, over analyzed, and over looked. I dissected myself to you allowing myself to become vulnerable in the palm of your soul only to become a distant memory. Specific words were meant to be written. Feelings surface purposely without question. The emotions here were never intended but are securely fastened beyond repair. You outline my heart and I feel incomplete unless you know and share in why I can't fall asleep tonight. I miss everything about us. ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 26 Jun 2000 14:52:58 MDT From: "* armisia *" Subject: ET: if bursting seemed possible, I just might do it Hey AngEls! Its kerry, still feeling held tight and happy with love and my new beau. When everything seems to fall apart he's there pushing back up my world. And it never takes much. I never realized how much the little things meant until he came into my world. My self confidance has gone through the roof and I find myself wanting to open my heart to everyone to be their friend. Its an amazing feeling =0) So how are you guys doing? I love all the posting thats been giong on...you are all so talented. I found a new writer (new to me at least) And the impact his poetry has had on me is incredibally satisfying. Charles Wright...the main book I have read is negative blue. I cried in the middle of the bookstore when I picked it up. I would recomend it to anybody! Has anyone else out there read it? Any thoughts? Just checking =0) SmilE LivE anD dream YouR woRld In colORs! Kerry*bear The huggable angel =0) *** You wander constantly through my mind all day replacing thoughts of work, home, and daily things I seem to forget the moment to remember your smile or kind words im not complaining it keeps a smile on this face when the day seems to long or stressful its just amazing how when your not here with me to hold my hand your still holding this heart with a tight un releasable grip *** Your love has given me wings to fly ** even speaking from my heart I could not describe just what it is I love about you I could say it's the small things the way you smile at me in the mornings the way you watch me with an intensity I can feel shake through me the first, second, last and every other kiss of the day a tight hug just to show you care the call that brightens up the worst of days just to say hi the way you know my heart and mind with certainty and love the many ways you say i love you when i wake up in the mornings and know your right there next to me how no matter what the weakness is you are there to help and pull me up how you don't want to share me with anyone else because your not afraid to be you and show me what's inside I notice everything from the way you carry yourself to the curves of your body what draws a smile and what makes you laugh I feel comfortable in every way when im with you you give me the courage to stand up and believe in myself its not any particular thing and its not everything i could name or explain to any other person in the world my heart just knows and it reaches up and takes me in its grip giving me a smile and certainty that i have the best possible love and friendship i could ever want or dream of *** ________________________________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free E-mail from MSN Hotmail at http://www.hotmail.com ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 26 Jun 2000 19:00:53 EDT From: Tudegirl08@aol.com Subject: ET: Realistic, yet dreamt adventure So when you're not around, does it mean you're with her? and when you can be found, could I find your mind on me? because I awoke this morning from a half nightmare, half dream I picked up my phone and dialed all but the last number because for that second I imagined her there with you asleep and so I placed down my phone, wiped the sweat from my skin, I took a deep breath and dove back in bed Why can't things just exist without change That way we could go back to just simple things When I could write when I wanted you and you could call if you needed to I saw you last night, we were in my car driving fast And as all the lights sped past, I noticed we weren't moving You placed your hand on my leg and promised I was safe Although I was scared I smiled anyway I felt suffocated and tried to escape, my door was locked and you grabbed my waist But it wasn't you I was trying to get away from It was just everything ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 26 Jun 2000 19:41:53 -0400 From: "Seth D. Fulmer" Subject: ET: Fallen Star(poem) Hey there everyone! I just got my internet back. Someone screwed up last weekend and my apartment lost internet midway through the week. I actually had email through the week but could only access it from the computer lab on campus. I was looking through some old poems and didn't recall ever sending this out to people. Those of you who have known me for a while know what this poem is about; but if you don't and care, just feel free to ask me and I'll probably tell you :) Anyhow, like comments, questions, suggestions, hell..even rude offensive insults are welcome. If you don't want my poems, let me know and I'll take you off my list. Take care of yourself and I hope you have an excellent Day!! :o) -Seth ======================================== Fallen Star by Seth D. Fulmer 5-22-00 To sit on a rock in the middle of a stream Winds blowing around you A hurricane in the making All the stars in the blue sky are covered up by clouds The moon is too and also the sun is cloaked by the night One of those stars falls to the ground It lands on a distant island The once brightest star in the distant sky is sighted but yet unreachable If she were Jesus, or an immortal being Perhaps she would calm the winds and sea, walk over the ocean and bring me to the island where I could see my star like a dream that I've had I want to see my star right in front of me or in the sky With her on a far off island, she's further now than in the sky The pain of the loneliness is deadly; it makes me cry Just send me up to heaven so I'll be closer to my star. ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V3 #247 **********************************