From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V2 #349 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Tuesday, December 7 1999 Volume 02 : Number 349 * If you ever wish to unsubscribe, send an email to * eda-thoughts-digest-request@smoe.org with ONLY * the word unsubscribe in the body of the email * . * PLEASE :) when you reply to this digest to send a post TO the list, * change the subject to reflect what your post is about. A subject * of Re: eda-thoughts-digest V2 #xxx or the like gives readers no clue * as to what your message is about. Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: (how bout)if i wrote you [shivergirl ] ET: scribblings in a new notebook :) [shivergirl ] ET: bipolar disorder ["Chris Sylvester" ] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Mon, 06 Dec 1999 16:24:07 -0500 From: shivergirl Subject: ET: (how bout)if i wrote you ~(how bout) if i wrote you~ (title half-borrowed from miss williams...dear dar) * how bout if i wrote you that i don't live in a box that this lingering ennui&general malcontent don't stem from being disconnected from my friends but something deeper&more familial, would your ALL-CAPS rebuttal accomplish anything substantially comforting or understanding? (maybe. i don't know. you don't even write christmas cards anymore.) * how bout if i wrote you that i know apologies aren't band-aids, that they're only an overly-delayed start i wish to build upon carefully&professionally, ready&willing to agree to your conditions, providing we both get turns on the couch, would you still want to speak with me sometime over the holidays after all our essays' completion? (i think so. i hope so. you did laugh at my caustic sarcasm on the phone.) * how bout if i wrote you to say you popped into a lucid dream of mine last night that you were a member of a '50s band, but i couldn't recognize you amongst all the homogenic suits&silent sounds, only being the stunned recipient of your long-awaited e-mail, would you understand this buried need for closure, how it haunts my subconscious like demons on the walls? (i'm not sure. i don't think so. correspondence was never your forte.) * how bout if i wrote you that i wish i could converse with you, that i could be sure of your allegiance&absence of judgement right off the bat, when you have witnessed nearly all my crashes almost dispassionately, but still craving a psychic connection with my twin, would you call your favourite month instead, laughing that belly-laugh i love so much, from within? (i'm trying not to guess. i don't bet so. chances line my pocket in abundance for you.) * how bout if i wrote you that i'm insecure around men because of you that i'm unsure about inheriting inherent wandering traits, because of your long-ago selfishness&thoughtlessness concerning the rest of us, would you condescend to talk about the far-reaching pain&repercussions without resorting to employing all the known defence mechanisms on the planet? (it's hard to say. life's full of surprises. and those two overused cliches sum up my very real experiences of you so far.) ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 06 Dec 1999 16:36:52 -0500 From: shivergirl Subject: ET: scribblings in a new notebook :) ~ like having an angel-babby&oh-so-attractive diablo dueling the bit out on your atlas shoulders, honey, sullying all the freckles, (angel-kisses) the boy with wings not covering anything remotely evil she reaches out to with scissor-hands full of useless words dipped in bitter red vinegar, but he consumes the rice, nonetheless, blessedly unfamiliar with asian eating utensils (she picks him) ~ pojken/pokemon/come on/over here/lovely man/i'll teach you/how to/ turn on/more than just/the compewter ~ radiohead-lad/you make me so glad/to be/free/from emotional meteor showers/constant uppers-downers/i have nothing against/inexperience/i have been missing out/myself/all the natural sugar heather highs/of a love/so pure/a dictionary of new emotions/couldn't contain it/whereas/i don't even/try ~ hello, it's me*/half of we, swedie, can i fill you up with north american slang boomerang my heart to australia and back that's what it feels like to be christened in another language do you realize your adopting my linguistic peccadilloes makes me wanna lock your office door tonight&every night fly up there on water-skis make love while machines hum in the background (i didn't think so) ~ ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 06 Dec 1999 13:38:03 PST From: "Chris Sylvester" Subject: ET: bipolar disorder hey. does anybody have any information i can get on Bipolar disorder, specifically in teenagers? thanx! ~Sly ______________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V2 #349 **********************************