From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V2 #289 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Monday, October 11 1999 Volume 02 : Number 289 * If you ever wish to unsubscribe, send an email to * eda-thoughts-digest-request@smoe.org with ONLY * the word unsubscribe in the body of the email * . * PLEASE :) when you reply to this digest to send a post TO the list, * change the subject to reflect what your post is about. A subject * of Re: eda-thoughts-digest V2 #xxx or the like gives readers no clue * as to what your message is about. Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: Re: School groups ["Rachel Musser" ] ET: the truth ["steve c" <51peg@abts.net>] ET: the truth II ["steve c" <51peg@abts.net>] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Sun, 10 Oct 1999 09:59:21 -0300 From: "Rachel Musser" Subject: ET: Re: School groups There are cliques in every school. Extremely snobby people go to every school carrying the opinion that they are better than everyone else. There are always people who get themselves down about it or who get stomped on by those trendy people who don't know how to think for themselves. A lot of people go through shit because of it. I guess I see things differently than a lot of other people, but frankly I feel that I'm really fortunate that I'm not friends with any of those people. I don't think I could deal with being so mean to other people for such long periods of time. Also, I don't understand how those type of people can do such stupid things to other people but be so full of themselves all of the time. I used to get myself down about it, but now I realize that I am going to be sooooooo better off then the people who I'm describing. It has probably made me a stronger person in life and has increased my want of being successful. I like knowing that I do what I do because I want to and not for any other reason. The trendy, snobby people at my school won't ever get that satisfaction. @~ Rachel ~@ "Head over heels I've fit in before, now I don't want to do it no more. I just want to be who I want to be...guess that's hard for others to see. I'm not a trendy asshole, I do what I want, do what I feel like. I'm not a trendy asshole, I don't give a fuck if it's good enough for you. Cause I'm alive!" The Offspring "Smash" "Then I'll press you like petals, till your fragile and then...then I'll breathe you in. Nicotine love." -- Jewel "Nicotine Love" Be sure to visit http://www.Garfield.com ! Get your free customized E-mail from http://gmail.garfield.com ! ------------------------------ Date: Sun, 10 Oct 1999 20:18:55 +0200 From: "Claudia" Subject: ET: Poem :To an Every Day Angel Hello everybody. This is a poem i wrote for a special friend of mine who has been suffering of anorexia for many years. Even now i can't say that she is completely over her problem. Well, that's just something i wrote for this true angel. As usual any comment on the poem or even on this serious illness that kills every year too many girls is more than welcome. Thanks. Claudia. **************************************************************************** **************************************************** To an Every Day Angel No love from your family, nobody cared about you and you thought it was all your fault. They slowly killed your young thoughtlessness but your pure heart didn't cry out for vengeance: in your soul there was just hate for yourself. They hurt you but you only wanted to hurt yourself. Long hair and sweet eyes, everybody said you looked like a princess but your body was your only enemy. They humiliated you and made you feel ashame of your feelings, of your beauty. You wanted to disappear, to starve yourself to death. Your parents gave you food but you just wanted love. They tried to feed your body but forgot to feed your heart. They tried to break your wings but you can still fly, little angel. ------------------------------ Date: Sun, 10 Oct 1999 22:40:52 -0400 From: "steve c" <51peg@abts.net> Subject: ET: the truth I have come to the conclusion that the only way to beat the puppet master in this game of life is to end my life... i always hear that everything is for a reason. If that is true we are all puppets. there must be a master. i want to be a master. If everything happens for a reason why have i spent the past 26 years of my life searching for what i will never find. Everyone i know always has the answers. I am sorry to have disappointed so many people. I try and try to help others and ask nothing in return. It seems as though I have the answer. Death. If we are not alive any longer the puppet master cannot play his games. nothing will happen for a reason. There will be no more pain. I am correct. There will never be a place where all of us that have emotions can go. Everyone turns to alcohol or drugs or sex as a way to spend there time. It is never to help anyone, to do anything constructive, to accomplish a goal worth accomplishing. I was born into this world with nothing. I will leave this world with nothing. I always get reasons that make no sense. " Don't kill yourself because your parents love you and friends love you." It is so funny to see how blind all of them are. If everything happens for a reason they should understand. My parents will leave me one day too. I will stay alive for a while. i am anxious to see if there is one person on this list that can give me a reason with substance to live. ------------------------------ Date: Sun, 10 Oct 1999 22:51:25 -0400 From: "steve c" <51peg@abts.net> Subject: ET: the truth II It is the only way out of this relationship we have with everyone in this cruel world. I am sure I am offending and hurting many people as i write emails such as these. I am sorry. I only want peace. I only want peace. I too have lost friends from suicide. I too understand the pain that comes from it. I also understand what they saw when they did it I will not contact this group again. I am sure i am no longer welcome if i choose to live. ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V2 #289 **********************************