From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V2 #274 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Sunday, September 26 1999 Volume 02 : Number 274 * If you ever wish to unsubscribe, send an email to * eda-thoughts-digest-request@smoe.org with ONLY * the word unsubscribe in the body of the email * . * PLEASE :) when you reply to this digest to send a post TO the list, * change the subject to reflect what your post is about. A subject * of Re: eda-thoughts-digest V2 #xxx or the like gives readers no clue * as to what your message is about. Today's Subjects: ----------------- [none] [Christopher Overholser ] ET: VOTE FOR JEWEL WE CAN DO THIS! [Mika911@aol.com] ET: What happened last night(poem) [Seth Fulmer ] ET: Poem (The Most Dangerous Game I've Ever Played) [Christopher Overhols] ET: Something I wrote ["Brian H" ] ET: "Falling into Darkness" (A Poem) [Jennifer ] ET: lots and lots of poems [Summer ] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Sat, 25 Sep 1999 00:31:29 -0400 From: Christopher Overholser Subject: [none] Any comments for better or worse are more than welcome. Do not hesitate, I would really appreciate any opinion. Thanks! To hold her Soul I wish I could hold her beautiful soul. It would be worth any tariff, price, or toll. It is so fragile, so divine-living consummate. Its holy light banishes all illusions of hate. ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 25 Sep 1999 01:48:59 EDT From: Mika911@aol.com Subject: ET: VOTE FOR JEWEL WE CAN DO THIS! Hey everyone! Jewel was on NBC's Friday Night tonight in Jukebox #1. This means that you all need to go to their website (http://www.nbc.com/fridaynight) and vote for Jewel so that she can WIN Jukebox #1. She won Jukebox #2 a few weeks ago and now she needs to take home #1. This show isn't watched like or does it have the millions of votes like TRL so we can REALLY DO THIS! Example, only 12,000 votes were received! SO, if every EDA votes a few times (once for each day of the week or more per day if you can) then Jewel can EASILY WIN! This show comes on usually at 1:30pm your local time or so, don't miss it. Also, those of you on the west coast can still catch the show tonight with Jupiter if you get this e-mail before then! However, vote so that Jupiter will win and be played once again next week! Visit the website now: http://www.nbc.com/fridaynight/ click on MUSIC, then vote for the Jewel video Jupiter (one of three choices for Jukebox #1)! VOTE NOW! :-) Mika ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 25 Sep 1999 08:48:32 -0400 (EDT) From: Seth Fulmer Subject: ET: What happened last night(poem) I just wrote this maybe 10 mins ago. Any questions/comments can be directed to me privately please :) Nicole..If you wish, you may use this in Section 8 :o) -Seth What happened last night by Seth D. Fulmer 9/25/99 What happened last night You wanted to know You asked me so earnestly with a tone of your voice like you would hate me forever if I didn't answer you I really don't know. I think though you happened You seemed to impress me, with your sweet state of mind I love you my dear as a friend, nothing more but to talk to you I feel stranger than an alien You give me the jeebies You urge me to smile You don't talk too much but THAT's what I like about you! I prefer the shy ones the ones with the flair that comes out nice and slowly as you run your fingers through their hair Ugh but if you want to hate me or if you simply don't care I give you your leave and beg you...Don't dispair I'll be around all year for a century if I must All I want for that time though is a friend with whom to hang out ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 25 Sep 1999 21:06:30 -0400 From: Christopher Overholser Subject: ET: Poem (The Most Dangerous Game I've Ever Played) If you like it or hate it, please send comments all the same. Any feedback is welcome!! Thanks for your support!!! The most dangerous game I've ever played I'm not like them, I can't play the game. They try to help me, but its just not the same. I am drawn to them like a moth to a flame. Why do I try to be like them in vain? It is for acceptance or am I going insane? All I can really feel for sure is pain? My struggle toward impossible perfection is badly in need of stern correction. My credence of failure has cost me my salvation. My optimism is dead, my bleakness has returned. My proposal to my infinite inspiration has been spurned. My sorrow is acute, my pain is real, but I learned our worlds are not and shall not link; they are forever separate. I must accept this depressing fate. Regardless, I am far too low for such a saint. In this life I am, but a sacrificial pawn. My hope is dead, everything I hold dear is gone. The darkness has descended and there will be no dawn. I must hide my pain, my sorrow, my regret, my agony, my woe; hide it so deep inside that it will never show. Lest, I make such weak friends into complete foes. My inside aches, it hurts such much I am utterly torn. My soul is lost in the void: totally forlorn. It is all dead-forever gone-never to be reborn. The world is pain, and has been since my day of destiny and will be forever for me hence I am resigned to live my life about this in silence. ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 25 Sep 1999 20:15:26 CDT From: "Brian H" Subject: ET: Something I wrote Ok, this is really wierd. I wrote this song, it's like the second song I've ever written. Actually, the first that I wrote with the intentions of being a song. But anyway, it is a LOT like you were meant for eachoher, but I wasn't thinking of that when I wrote it. And how I imagine the tune going is nothing like you where meant for me at all. so here it is: When I first met you I knew something was coming When I first talked to you Honey, I knew something was there And now after it came and went You left me, to live the pain But I still believe something could come again ‘Cause We were meant for each other We were meant for each other You and me Can’t you see We were meant for each other We were meant for each other Forever it will be Together I wonder if I could be with anyone but you I wonder who I lived before I met you But still You give me no chance You gonna let me live like this But I still believe that there is hope for you and me ‘Cause We were meant for each other We were meant for each other You and me Can’t you see We were meant for each other We were meant for each other Forever it will be Together So come on just give me a chance I’ll prove to you that I haven’t changed I still care about you Why can’t you? You know We were meant for each other We were meant for each other You and me Can’t you see We were meant for each other We were meant for each other Forever it will be Together I would appreciate all comments!!! [c: ß®I@N "The Jelly Doughnut of an Angel" halaasb@hotmail.com ICQ: 40694569 AIM: brianh5036 Please visit my site: http://come.to/lifeuncommon ______________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 25 Sep 1999 19:37:58 -0700 (PDT) From: Jennifer Subject: ET: "Falling into Darkness" (A Poem) he stepped into sadness she closed the door locking out belief they both danced around deception intrigued by absolution eyes meeting silent words spoken in pursuit of enlightenment he falls into shadows she reaches out only to see him fade into darkness __________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? Bid and sell for free at http://auctions.yahoo.com ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 25 Sep 1999 22:04:06 -0500 From: Summer Subject: ET: lots and lots of poems I haven't posted here forever, but I've been enjoying all the new poems.. here are mine, quite a lot since I haven't posted in so long: I never tan i always burn I always act like I'm elite ok now it's your turn what makes you imperfect I already know what makes you neat I'm ready for what's next I think you're cool I think you're rad but I'm ready to think better than that I want to know you from head to toe give it to me, blow by blow I truly truly want to know Like hey I scream too loud and I cry too soft and sometimes I get the two confused and I giggle when I'm nervous and you make me so nervious and I let myself be used And I can't sing worth shit And I don't help my mom out one bit I don't know how to use a sewing kit and I always stand I don't like to sit I know that you know how to take a seat I already know what makes you neat but now it's your turn to be imperfect I'm ready to learn about the car you wrecked about every quirk I want to know your worse side or else I can't possibly love the better I always prefer the faults anyway so what does it matter? just tell me why you're afraid of women tell me why you're afraid of me tell me about every sin tell me everything - -- One kiss from you would use up my entire vocabulary of adjectives what kind of girl uses all those words on lips? maybe if you and me were "you and me" I would be that kind of girl What kind of girl dreams every night of just one kiss? maybe if "you and me" weren't you and me I wouldn't have to be that kind of girl guilt takes over sometimes but it's always tinged with your lips on mine even in those moments when i cry even when i hate you, even when i despise every single thing you do there's always your lips on mine kissing pressing being one this is no longer delightful this is no longer fun there's two more adjectives down the drain how about two more painful and insane? and sometimes i can't write anything and i just repeat your name over and over again in licorice smelling black pen and i wonder if your lips taste like licorice there i go, lost again love is love and lust and like and all these L words are confusing me especially lips as in your on mine and lust as in these moments and love as in "you and me" except we are just you and me and this kiss, these licorice lips are all in dreams and adjectives - -- you and I are flying fish and just when we start to drown in his eyes, in the memories we will flutter our invisible wings and we will fly to eachother up in the sky you and I will survive the waves seem to be pulling us down into boy's hands, into their mouths but after it all we will come out alive we will dust ourselves off and we will fly - -- i think he is too cold for her warm wings and I know ice burns ice blue burn and tattered wings on my angel on the only one who doesn't ever deserve that the only one who I don't think needs a broken heart now and again she deserves only kisses and support for her wings she will fly and she needs someone some to hold her hand and rise above next to her he tried to pull her down and I know she's lost a few feathers he grappled with her body and took it down into oblivion he he he he he ice blue cold burn when you get too close I think I will scratch his eyes out rip whatever wings he had from his shoulders the shoulders that refused to support anyone but himself I know I am not strong enough to pull him down to give him what he deserves but I will never see ice blue and think beautiful again ice blue cold burn does not have as much power as he'd like to think she will survive she will fly she will leave him behind leave his hands struggling for something to bring down she will survive she will fly he will be alone ice blue cold burn still on the ground she will survive she will fly - -- There is ink on my fingers tonight and sometimes I want to die just to know what it'd be like for you just to know if you'd want to die too There is ink on my fingers tonight because I've stayed up writing about your eyes, about our fight about your life, about your light There is ink on my fingers tonight lines of black stain that won't go away it's too much like the mark you made on my heart There is ink on my fingers tonight and you and I are not speaking you can't talk now I understand It's just that I am thinking that without your voice on the other line without your laughter and your hair and your coffe-drinking without a you to call mine I'm sinking There is ink on my fingers tonight and I want to know you from the inside and you can't talk and I can't walk and I'm stumbling sinking falling losing my mind and sometimes I want to die just to know what it'd be like for you cuz I know whenever you die I want to die too - -- spiderweb spinner spin me in somewhere wrap me save me have me for dinner as long as i live in your spider lair this seems to be a recurring theme you doing what you will with my heart But it is not what is seems cause when you use me I do my part it's not that you've held me captive I want to be here with you It's not that you won't let me live it's that I don't want to live without you so, spiderweb spinner spin me in somewhere wrap me save me have me for dinner as long as it's with you, I don't care - -- black taffy candy boy striped dancing windup toy so skinny I can wrap my arms around your waist twice almost so living I can barely wrap my mind around the width of your soul so alive racecar overdrive i’m living in the memory of you and me of spinning laughing overreacting buzzing flying honey bee black taffy candy boy striped dancing windup toy - -- bright green floor dancing made me realize at last that your eyes are not that green and you do not have wings that fly you higher than me in your absence that your eyes were blue or emerald green this week I got close to you and they're chocolate brown more like mine than I wanted to realize i always imagined you flying halo shining so high above me this week when you held me crying I realized we were both on earth or maybe we were both flying - -- i’m lost and i’m divided set on the thought of you lost in the dream of you don’t know what to do i’m found but undecided i’m travelling away I don’t know what to say and nothing is okay without you I can’t live in your eyes anymore I can’t live with your lies like before i’ve fallen and i’m flying and to you i’ve shut the door behind me so you can’t see i’m still crying but I know you’re still lying so can’t return to the fire that will always burn somewhere the fire of me and you like everything like me and you it’s red outside and inside blue and it’s burning while my insides are churning i’ve forgotten the difference between burning and learning and turning and i’ve lost my direction and i’m falling or am I flying and i’m mourning this loss this is the cost of losing of bruising of you using me I said i’ve lost my past reaction and i’m falling or am I flying all I know is that i’m dying and staying alive and staying alive and every few moments of emptiness and pain are interrupted by a flash of sane and okay and I wonder if this is working if walking away from you will be alright someday if walking away will ever be okay if flying away may teach me to say how much I love you and I hate you and I fly like a dove and I crash to the ground but I don’t really feel the pain anymore. I love you and I hate you and I fly like a dove and I crash to the ground but it’s okay now. it don’t hurt anymore like it did before am I falling or am I flying all I know is I am dying but it is okay. it’s okay to be lost and divided and set on the thought of you lost in the dream of you. it’s okay. suddenly I know eaxactly what I want to say and it’s that I need you godspeed you and goodbye my redblue you. - -- boom goes the room when you walk in the door sparkle crackle pop and i drop to the floor you shine like the sun way-too-close vicinity closer and oh-my-god-oh I don't know what to do anymore cuz you're above me and I'm oh-on-the-floor trying to make some sense of this you seem to be leaning in for a kiss you're leaning lower and lower and closer and closer but then you rise and my heart falls like the tides of the oceans and the moon and all unspoken-and-broken I'm left on the ground you walk away with out a sound I don't know what to feel anymore cause I'm oh-on-the-floor and you're oh-walking-out-the-door - -- in the parts of my heart that are darker than anyone here really knows i want to live there with you forever forever forever and i want to melt down my hands and place them on your chest hot wax skin dripping melding our bodies into one melting in the darkest parts of my heart Love, Summer ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V2 #274 **********************************