From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V2 #263 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Tuesday, September 14 1999 Volume 02 : Number 263 * If you ever wish to unsubscribe, send an email to * eda-thoughts-digest-request@smoe.org with ONLY * the word unsubscribe in the body of the email * . * PLEASE :) when you reply to this digest to send a post TO the list, * change the subject to reflect what your post is about. A subject * of Re: eda-thoughts-digest V2 #xxx or the like gives readers no clue * as to what your message is about. Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: watching a couple in love ["Robert A. Peate" ] ET: okay [Courtney M Gordon ] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Mon, 13 Sep 1999 13:49:50 -0400 From: "Robert A. Peate" Subject: ET: watching a couple in love just another ramble--i hope no one is minding my presence, or my poetry. i see another couple, middle aged-man, thirtyish blonde woman, holding hands. and i think to myself, "that's what i want with her, that's what we could be, proud and happy, together, for all the world to see." that's still what i want, because she is beautiful, both inside and out, and i just want the world to see it, i just want to show them. robert ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 13 Sep 1999 16:53:19 EDT From: Oblivia15@aol.com Subject: ET: Smatterings of thought Here you go, guys...... a few more of my writings that maybe you'll enjoy. I hope you do, anyhow... =0) Well.... bon apetit!! ~~~~~~~~~~~ Maybe you pretended maybe every "I love you" was just another drop of water to you filling me with a fuel I thought I needed. Maybe everything was a facade, a carefully executed masquerade that dazzled me with opulence I thought you naturally possessed. But the Poetry..... the Poetry wasn't fake. - --Your bad grammar gave it away. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I mustered up the courage to approach you-- a man seven years my senior who had done much more than catch my eye. For when our glances crossed those dark pools spoke to me, telling me fairytales of which I could only dream. And they willed me to you (Someone had to take that step) But if only eyes could warn then maybe I would have saved myself the trouble, because when I stepped into that sacred space where you stepped outside for your cigarette break You told me how much you wished for it to be but that someone else's hand was in yours. You told me I was tempting, but what does tempting do when you are already in love? You took my number-- just another scrap of paper to litter your wallet. If only I could unbind you. You would surely be mine if you weren't hers --you told me so. But I shall not trespass where my footprints are unwelcome Your heart is not mine to claim. She may have you But my heart waits --in case you ever want to try it on for size.... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Comments much welcomed!! Lotsa love to you all!!!!! Jackie Stage Angel ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 13 Sep 1999 17:48:03 -0500 From: Courtney M Gordon Subject: ET: poem Fly ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I look down hoping but I still see the shackles at my feet holding me to my past, keeping me chained to disaster and self defeat. I still run though the shackles are there I run aimlessly in wide eyed terror from that which I have brought on myself. I Can't help it I see you running towards me I reach out and then pull back, lurching at the idea that you might be loving me. You might try to help. But I run past you running from the thing that cannot be. Can't let you... I look down as I stumble blindly over my chains, and hit the walls around me. jesus christ, damn it all I look up, waiting This is all your fault you know Don't tell anyone. This is your secret. Live with it. And fuck you too, because If I have to explain it you won't understand. i don't need you. I don't need anyone. You may think i need help. But you need a miracle sweetheart, and you'll still be a loser. I need this room and the chains that keep me in this hell that I come to know and love as home. That's all I really need. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ questions and comments welcome with open arms. love and luck always Courtney ___________________________________________________________________ Get the Internet just the way you want it. Free software, free e-mail, and free Internet access for a month! Try Juno Web: http://dl.www.juno.com/dynoget/tagj. ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 13 Sep 1999 18:01:11 -0500 From: Courtney M Gordon Subject: ET: okay Dear Everyone, Okay yall. Yesterday was eve 6's show in grand rapids and guess who didn't go?! (****!*#&#^!*#^*$@^$*(####) Now everybody and their freakin cousin on the eve 6 list is talking about "Oh is was awesome, and i met tony's mom and we saw the cutest picture of him when he was 8, and max has way more tattoos now and he's not being a slut anymore!" ONE freaking person on that freaking list didn't go. (slight exageration) ONE! ME! AGH! And do you know WHY i didn't go?! Cuz nobody knew anything about the damn thing!!!!! (I'm pissed and I'm blaming it on every person in reach right now) But there is redemption. Cricket (my brother) said he might try to burn cd's of two of eve 6's show. one from last year when they played at a radio station party, and one from 4 months ago. If he doesn't, I personally will be highly let down and will blame everyone on this list. (Especially Will. and Laura. And Steven. And Chris. I know you guys, so It's more your fault than everyone else's) And please, I hope to everything sacred that someone replies cuz I've gotten like no email!!! love and luck alwyas Courtney I'm aware that I spelled that wrong ___________________________________________________________________ Get the Internet just the way you want it. Free software, free e-mail, and free Internet access for a month! Try Juno Web: http://dl.www.juno.com/dynoget/tagj. ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V2 #263 **********************************