From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V2 #80 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Monday, March 22 1999 Volume 02 : Number 080 * If you ever wish to unsubscribe, send an email to * eda-thoughts-digest-request@smoe.org with ONLY * the word unsubscribe in the body of the email * . * PLEASE :) when you reply to this digest to send a post TO the list, * change the subject to reflect what your post is about. A subject * of Re: eda-thoughts-digest V2 #xxx or the like gives readers no clue * as to what your message is about. Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: publishing thoughts and thoughts on competition [winters ] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Sun, 21 Mar 1999 22:50:42 -0800 From: winters Subject: ET: publishing thoughts and thoughts on competition thank you for all who have responded to my publishing thoughts (which no one really seems to agree on) but here's the thing: i hate competition. i know how with some it helps them, but for me, competition has always been something i hate. maybe i never was in any team sports as a child, but i just don't like competiting for anything and puting my work for someone to read and see if it's better then someone else's is competition. i understand, if i made an art piece that i would want it to be shown at an exhibit. but for me poetry is something else, more then just something you can read. it's not like a painting, it's not visual and completely tangible, there is something more for me. i just can't put something out that i wrote to help me, about issues with my mother or an ex, for some middle aged judges to look at and decide if i did a "good" job. here's two ways it could happen: i could do great, the judges could love me. but then what? after my ego inflating, something to put down in a resume, my poetry being in print in a booklet and some money that i need.....something would happen to me. what about my next poem? how could i possibly write another poem, with that weighing on me? i would compete with myself on the last poem, i would start writing for the judges, for people, for how the word usage is, but not for me. lets say i suck and the judges send me one of those letters saying, "you have talent but give it time" basically telling me that i'm not good. after my ego falls to pieces, i deal with rejection on my most intimate emotions, how could i write again? the rejection would kill me, i''m not stong enough to handle that. i hope some of this makes sense kat ------------------------------ Date: Sun, 21 Mar 1999 23:46:53 -0800 From: winters Subject: ET: canned foods cannd foods. recently i had to write an essay about sterotypes and putting people into boxes. actualy it was more about psychological developtment and weather or not i agree with frued, piaget and all of the rest of them men. i thought about it for awhile and came up with this: we are all canned food. it came to me while opening up my cabnit to get some cerel late at night. i saw the canned foods and realize the connection. we need to know what generaly happens with psychological development, during a midlife crisis it's a comforting feeling to know how normal it is. it would be almost abnormal to be a teen without conflicting emotions. it's how life is. it's how our bodies are. but sometimes some things are different. so here's the canned food theory. we label ourselves and people around us, so that life can be "easier". we call someone a "prep" or call ourselves something, then after putting on that label we feel this need to actualy do what the label says. for instance, if you label yourself something, lets say a "class clown" then you feel this need to own up to that, by always joking around and never really getting upset. your trying to fit into your own sterotype. sometimes there is a can in the back of the cabinet that no one notices,but it's the best soup around. sometimes the green bean soup that no one wants is actualy a good ol' favorite, chicken noodle soup just somehow the manufactures put on the wrong label and vice versa. people will surprise you, with what expectations they feel they have to live up to (you got leading role in one play, so now you feel this near obligation to yourself to always get great roles, because now you are an actor in your mind). sometimes surprise people, and yourself. take off that label and confuse people. show who you really are, a person with contradictions. you aren't just a poet, you are a thousand things as well. so don't allow your label to only say one thing. prove to yourself that your more then just some one deminsional character, your a person. i hope some of this made sense, it's just a theroy and hard to explain. thanks kat ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V2 #80 *********************************