From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V1 #321 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Wednesday, December 23 1998 Volume 01 : Number 321 * If you ever wish to unsubscribe, send an email to * eda-thoughts-digest-request@smoe.org with ONLY * the word unsubscribe in the body of the email * . * PLEASE :) when you reply to this digest to send a post TO the list, * change the subject to reflect what your post is about. A subject * of Re: eda-thoughts-digest V1 #xxx or the like gives readers no clue * as to what your message is about. Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: feeling bad about not feeling worse [cmgordon2@juno.com (Courtney M G] ET: Re: feeling bad about not feeling worse ["Kevin Pease" ] Re: ET: Image [moonsong@ix.netcom.com (Charlie, Andalite, & The Goddess)] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Tue, 22 Dec 1998 13:26:13 -0500 From: cmgordon2@juno.com (Courtney M Gordon) Subject: ET: feeling bad about not feeling worse Dear people, Okay, I posted this on the jewel list, but decided I could get more response here. A teacher from my school died last Saturday due to a heart attack. Yeah, I'm sad he died. But in my opinion, he was a jerk who objectified women. And now I feel bad because I don't feel worse about him dying.I think I just confused myself.... Does anybody understand what I am trying to say??? Have and awesome day! MERRY CHRISTMAS YALL!!!! Love and lollipops ___________________________________________________________________ You don't need to buy Internet access to use free Internet e-mail. Get completely free e-mail from Juno at http://www.juno.com/getjuno.html or call Juno at (800) 654-JUNO [654-5866] ------------------------------ Date: Tue, 22 Dec 1998 14:03:03 -0500 From: "Kevin Pease" Subject: ET: Re: feeling bad about not feeling worse > Courtney M Gordon writes: >Okay, I posted this on the jewel list, but decided I could get more >response here. A teacher from my school died last Saturday due to a heart >attack. Yeah, I'm sad he died. But in my opinion, he was a jerk who >objectified women. And now I feel bad because I don't feel worse about >him dying.I think I just confused myself.... Does anybody understand what >I am trying to say??? Courtney, I think I understand what you're trying to say, and I don't think anybody expects you to spend the next year mourning somebody you didn't like, and probably didn't know all that well, either. You can't feel bad if you don't feel bad. However, by the same token, I think there are merits to the "if you don't have something nice to say, don't say anything at all" philosophy we've all heard from our mothers at some point. There are people who did care about - and even love - the man... regardless of your personal feelings about him, I'd say just try to be respectful of their feelings & his memory by not badmouthing him. He may have been as bad as you think, and he may have been even worse, I don't know, I never met the guy. But even so, there are surely people out there who are upset by his death, and probably wouldn't take too kindly to hearing people talk trash about him, regardless of the truth of the statements. Just my 2 cents. Kevin - ---------- Kevin Pease kbpease@boston.crosswinds.net ICQ UIN: 3106063 AOL IM: kbpease http://www.crosswinds.net/boston/~kbpease/ "There oughta be a bridge somewhere they could dedicate to me / I'd probably come to the ceremony with a can of gasoline / then walk on over to the other side, and there I'd light a match / and sit and stare through the smoke & flames wondering how I'm gonna get back." ---(Chris Knight, "It Ain't Easy Being Me")--- ------------------------------ Date: Tue, 22 Dec 1998 14:35:51 -0600 From: gosiam@juno.com Subject: ET: you made no preparation once again..[in other words, just a bunch of ramblings] i previously read sams post and i realized i am like that a lot, but barely during the holidays. i guess thats cause i have the shopping and the packing and whole mass of other criteria. it just sux big time this year, cause my folks are constantly home, and i have NO time alone. its like we're in the car and i get this 'inspirational' line in my head, and i can't write it down , so then i forget it and it ends up going away. ugh, what a pain. the thing that sam said about sitting on the bench in the mall i did it already like three times, and i feel ashmaed to mention it, basically cause i was jealous. yes jealous with envy, not just a little bit, i'm telling you i felt like ripping throats out. it was more of a rage than an insane jealousy. its like these people are so drawn to the holidays and you see them walking by with their gifts in their bags and i get this mental image whenever i see this, i see the person opening up the present and absolutely HATING it. its twisted i know, but kinda funny in a way. the main thing that bugs is those people that walk by and are trying to be soooo f*cking cool, they have their precious little boyfriends, and their little cute outfits, and super makeup they think they're so special its nausiating. i hate watching everyone walk by so happy when they know their really not. ok, thats enough with the negativity. ok, bye now.. margaret ___________________________________________________________________ You don't need to buy Internet access to use free Internet e-mail. Get completely free e-mail from Juno at http://www.juno.com/getjuno.html or call Juno at (800) 654-JUNO [654-5866] ------------------------------ Date: Tue, 22 Dec 1998 18:25:55 -0500 From: "Seth D. Fulmer" Subject: ET: Re: At 12:55 PM 12/19/98 -0500, Mandabear four wrote: >Dear 'A Poet On Bleeker Street', and possibly Seth. Seth, I don't know if >this will help you also. But I'm giving it a try. >... Ok...like...Right now..I'm happy..Quite so...not like happy as in when I got my computer case(but before I talked to Melissa)...but quite not distressed. I live my life in goals as to what I want in life. Most times, I can see what I want and it's not conflicting with what other people want. Most times, I won't take something that someone else wants...whether it be a girl that someone else likes(I'll forget about her then...painful as it may be) or if it's something I have strived for my entire life so far(which I've lost 2 of those to that). Coming out of that...I was thinking about what was wrong the past couple of days and it was mostly because of Murphy's law...I was damned if I did and I was damned if I didn't. If I did something to help others, I hurt myself and vice versa. I told you all about how Melissa wanted advice on Friday night..Well..if I help her...I'd be hurting myself...and if I tell her to screw off and ignore her, I'd hurt her(and myself a little bit as well). It was almost like a soldier stuck in a deep pit with a grenade that he's pulled the pin out...If he throws it up, it'll bounce off the walls and the explosion will hurt him and maybe others...If he keeps it in his hand...it'll kill him but everyone else will survive..What do ya choose? Those types of situations are what distress me. Saturday I upgraded my computer(Yes, my baby is now an AMD K6-2/350 Mhz with Win98) and Sunday it wouldn't work for me...and I got SOooo mad and upset and I couldn't do anything except just pace and curse out the guy who was helping me with the computer...I kept blaming him and then I went to sleep and woke up the next morning calm...The next night(Monday) I set up my computer right with a clear head and it worked. Now, I'm happy that my baby(yes, I call my computer my baby...and I've debated changing "My Computer" to "My Baby") is healthy once again. I'm Bah Humbug about Christmas and I really don't want Xmas to come...When I try to think of why that is...I end up saying that it's because everything I asked for, I don't care if I get or not...and the day after Xmas, I'm gonna be going to Minneapolis, MN for a national Convention for my Community Service Fraternity. I'm a little afraid of meeting 3 brothers...I just am not the type to meet new people in person. One of them even says that she'll be able to see my true emotions even with my masks...In a way I want her to...but in a way I am afraid that she'll be successful, and that I won't be able to hold it for 5 days straight. Bleh...Well..I'm gonna go back to forcing a Christmas spirit on myself. Merry Merry Christmas Christmas to you all! and a Very Happy New Year! :o) Seth Fulmer mailto:usfulmer@mcs.drexel.edu mailto:st96t879@post.drexel.edu mailto:kaosking@voicenet.com webpages: http://www.voicenet.com/~kaosking Cool Quotes and stuff :) "We've made houses for hatred; It's time we make a place where People's souls may be seen and made safe" - -Jewel "Innocence Maintained" ------------------------------ Date: Tue, 22 Dec 1998 19:54:22 -0800 From: moonsong@ix.netcom.com (Charlie, Andalite, & The Goddess) Subject: Re: ET: Image here tis a lil "re:" from sam, who is so cold that her 2 rings are twirling and sliding loosely around her chilly fingers... to darling Summer: >the guys confide in, but are always single, are single because the guys that DO >like them always ASSUME that all the other guys she hangs out with are her >boyfriend or at least about to be so. that makes sense...so basically, having guy friends can really suck too. :) hee...umm, where's my mind...must be numb. but summie...mah poor summie. >My dad also says that I'm the kind of girl that lots of guys will want to >"marry".. oh yes. "sweet, and bladibladibla." they shall appreciate. yep. >Great.. precisely... >But... what about NOW? ahh...what *about* now. (well, for one thing, i think it's inhumane to have the heat below 70....) >Another thing - Sam, you ARE one of the gorgeous girls... and so much more. aw summer! you are such an angel! you sweetie... Holly: > thanks for taking the time to read those stupid poems of mine. >life just really hurts right now >doesnt it? well...life for me is actually pretty good. but i know what you're getting at. sometimes it can just trip and fall into this pit just so suddenly and you're like...whoah, who turned out the light? hurt can be a lot more magnified. Love & lipstick, Sam the ? angel moonsong@ix.netcom.com ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V1 #321 **********************************