From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V1 #103 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Tuesday, August 4 1998 Volume 01 : Number 103 Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: midnight ramblings [kara garbe ] ET: Forbidden Fruit [JonBoy911@aol.com] ET: here we go [Karen Miller ] ET: possible thread...? ["Naomi Vaughn" ] ET: Scars ["Agnostic Angel" ] ET: the best advice i've ever gotten [kara garbe ] [none] [zerocool@earth.sunlink.net (Niki)] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Mon, 3 Aug 1998 00:23:46 -0400 (Eastern Daylight Time) From: kara garbe Subject: ET: midnight ramblings hi angels, well the one time i post more poems than i ever have before, the smoe server swallowed them and they disappeared. it figures... perhaps the gods are trying to tell me something? ah well. i did a little writing today but none of it touched anywhere near as deeply as my last ones did, so i'm not even bothering to post them. just wanted to say hello to all of you, even those to whom i don't write... you guys are so great, it's so comforting to know that there are other searchers out there, that i'm not the only one driving around at midnight listening to black lab in a futile attempt to destroy the dark silence... sleep calls to me, the most blissful escape that exists... perhaps the weakness of the body is meant to compensate for the weakness that sometimes attacks the spirit... http://www.people.virginia.edu/~ksg7t lakini@virginia.edu ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 3 Aug 1998 02:34:10 EDT From: JonBoy911@aol.com Subject: ET: Forbidden Fruit I was attempting to sleep, then all of a sudden I crushed that there 2 week plus writing block. YAH! :) ~~~~~~~~~~ Love 101 by Jon Hamilton ~~~~~~~~~~ I was told that we would be better as friends, I guess this is the way it will end, With us......as friends, I didn't buy the line, Did you really think I would? I thought you knew me, I guess you weren't really listening, Now I am back...back for you, I must be crazy, But sometimes I just need a smile from you to move on in my day, Oh please just say the words and I'll stay, Certain memories rot my brain, Happy memories.......of us, How easy someone forgets the love that was faked, But I guess that just makes you human right? Ok, just go ahead and keep teling yourself that. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The end ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Questions, concerns, crisis'? Jon ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 3 Aug 1998 12:26:25 -0700 From: Karen Miller Subject: ET: here we go i wrote this in the story that i send but still here it is again I wonder what would have happened if you wouldn't have come? I probably would be dead. Yet now I wish that I were dead because I feel as if I have done a horrible thing by kissing your sweet lips. I know that I love you but yet I wonder what does this mean to you. My mind is dead, I wish that I had died. I feel like I have done something so very wrong. I love you so very much. I wish I were blind so could not have seen you face so I could not see your sweet lips touching mine the way they did. I feel as if I do not deserve you such a wonderful man such a beautiful being. holly ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 03 Aug 1998 12:57:47 -0700 From: "Naomi Vaughn" Subject: ET: possible thread...? Hey Angels~ Okay, so, I thought of a possible thread. Everyone could post the first poem they wrote, ya know, sort of a "look how far we've come" type thing. That is, *if* you still have your first poem...many of you have probably been writing for a long while. Anyhow...just a thought. Either way, here's my first poem...I wrote it last summer(I think)...ages and ages ago.. I was writing songs for a year before I started in on poetry...so, technically this isn't my first writing, but it *is* my first poem. Be well angels...and smile always.. Love, Naomi the unknown angel - ---- My Star Star, sweet star I lie here now, Looking to you So perfect, so magnificent; Amazing. I have often thought of you this way, It is no secret And always on my mind are you. I wonder, if you will ever know me, And care for me, as I you. I shake my head. Oh, the fantasies of a love-sick teen! But am I just that? Since I first saw you There's been a sense of knowing, Just knowing beyond all doubts That this, you, us, was meant to be Tell me, is that too, a fantasy? Maybe. But for now, I will dream And be satisfied Till the day I know we will meet I lie here now, looking to you My magnificent, perfect, Amazing, Star. - --- "How many corners do I have to turn? How many times do I have to learn, All the love I have is in my mind?" ~Verve Angelfire for your free web-based e-mail. http://www.angelfire.com ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 3 Aug 1998 19:36:59 -0400 From: "Agnostic Angel" Subject: ET: Scars Hrm...No name. :\ I see a black disfigured hurt face moving my eyes down to see a neck, i find a turtleneck sweater yet it's summer. I see a broken arm and a white hand. Trying not to be rude I turn my face away. instead I'm ignorant Can somebody help me pick a name? :) I kept this one in my head when I saw a woman at GNC...Ugh..that place smells. ;) Izzit allright to send "rough-draft" poems or whatever, and ask for suggestions and stuff? Danké. BTW, I'm gonna be on vacation for the next week, starting Wednesday. 3 loose form mailing lists...Gonna have fun when I come back, eh? ;) ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 3 Aug 1998 20:17:48 -0400 (Eastern Daylight Time) From: kara garbe Subject: ET: the best advice i've ever gotten i was reflecting the other day on the best advice that's ever been given to me, or just phrases or quotes that have most impacted my life. i came up with three, and i'm going to share them all with you. how lucky you are! lol anyway... "dance like no one is watching, and love like you've never been hurt" i got this off of the jewel list, i think. it was somebody's closing quote. does anybody know where it came from? is it a jewel quote? anyway i love it. my roommate and i posted this all over our room last year as a reminder to ourselves. we were both getting over past relationships that had really hurt us, and we were both trying to accept love again. sometimes a quote like this can remind you of the strength that you have.. that's what it's done for me. so one night we went out to a frat party around 1am and danced for three hours, just ignoring all the drunk people around us... what liberation! the second one kind of goes along with that. i'm in a relationship right now that i think could be it for life, and i'm having some trouble really accepting that, that this right now could be the person i'll be with forever.. i just feel like i can't make that decision. so a friend of mine told me that on the subject of love, her boyfriend said, "I learned a long time ago to stop searching and to start listening." I'm drawing strength from that too, because when I listen I know what's right and I know what path to follow... and I know that the decision doesn't really exist, that it has already been made. searching can sometimes just create fears out of nothing... especially searching just for the point of searching. i have no complaints, i have everything i want and need... so i need to start listening to that. finally, "it's the destination, not the journey" because too much in my life i put things off, i let things slide... especially my dreams. i tell myself, "When i'm older..." and "when i'm on my own..."; it's always tomorrow, it's always tomorrow to pursue my dreams, to begin to really live. but it's never tomorrow, it's now, it's right now that you have to take responsibility for your life, no matter how old you are or what your circumstances are. this is your life; why should you compromise on it? why should you be unhappy? why should you let other people dictate your life? Sorry for writing so much, but I couldn't resist. These are the things that have really changed my life and I want to scream them from the rooftops. I don't know if you guys want to pick this up as a thread over the whole list, but I would LOVE to hear the things that have changed your lives. actually, i'm kind of feeling inspired right now to make a website full of people's stories. anybody interested in supplying me with some stories for it? if i get a response, i'll do it. in any case, just for myself, if any of you feel like sharing advice, i really want to hear it. kind of like a "life's little instruction book", only i want to read the stories that come along with them. just the ways that things have touched your lives... sometimes it's even things said in passing that just really hit you... okay, someone shut me up, i am so long winded when i get into things (just ask ben, btw i'll write you soon)... Kara _____________________________________________________ "I have sworn upon the altar of God eternal hostility against every form of tyranny over the mind of man." --Thomas Jefferson ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 3 Aug 1998 21:25:05 -0500 From: zerocool@earth.sunlink.net (Niki) Subject: [none] Hey tell me what you guyz think of this one. -Niki She Sat There She sat there For months and months Waiting, just waiting, For him to return to her. He promised forever, But if this was what Forever was then she Wasn't sure she Should've done the Things she did in The past. She sat there, Longing for things To be the way That they once had, For him to be there, Every day, And every night. She began to think That she hated him For making her wait Like this-so long. She wished that Wherever he was right now That he could feel the Way that she did, Cold, empty, and Dead inside. Meanwhile... Off the coast A boat is caught In a terrible storm. First lightning crashes Upon the ship, Setting a large fire That is almost immediately Put out by a wave Ten times the size of the ship, Or so it seems to the Man who is thinking of All that he should've done, All that he should've said, All the times that he Should've been there for her. Oh the regrets-if only She could know What he was thinking... She sat there, A small smile playing Over her lips, Salty tears of sadness Running down her cheeks, Now they both knew. ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V1 #103 **********************************