From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V1 #94 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Sunday, July 26 1998 Volume 01 : Number 094 Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: Mother ["Nina Edlund" ] ET: hey... ["Naomi Vaughn" ] ET: i'm back [Jan Winters ] ET: 5 days [Karen Miller ] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Sat, 25 Jul 1998 00:18:28 -0400 From: "Nina Edlund" Subject: ET: Mother we speak in parallel lines running along side each other never to meet we face each other hands over our ears lips stirring over words that are never heard my soul is polluted with hurt twisting me into the person i never wanted to be ------------------------------ Date: Fri, 24 Jul 1998 21:26:32 -0700 From: "Naomi Vaughn" Subject: ET: hey... hey angels.. how is everyone? today was just a really bad day...so i'm not in the best of spirits, but I hope this won't last. I wrote a few poems, comments are much appreciated. later angels. forever me, Naomi the unknown angel - -- today the silence ripped my happiness taken by their angry words retreating quietly to my empty room the door shut tight in effort to shut it out I fumble through pages with weary fingers blocking out the rage beating at my door then later, though they're not speaking, i'll act as though nothing's wrong and i'll smile through forced conversation till I can one again retreat to the saftey of my room, alone. 7.24.98 - -- how long how far is it till I reach you how long till I get past these lies and pointless masks when will you stop this attempt to impress and show me your raw soul let me look on your naked form with no games or puzzles just me, and you and the nights darkness to feed your foolish pride no one else has to see. 7.23.98 - --- "How many corners do I have to turn? How many times do I have to learn, All the love I have is in my mind?" ~Verve Angelfire for your free web-based e-mail. http://www.angelfire.com ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 25 Jul 1998 16:59:59 -0700 From: Jan Winters Subject: ET: i'm back hi everyone, i'm back from europe. it was emotional *sigh* seeing you again walking up the steps with the bus tickets in my hand the station was crowded but it was early in the morning i wanted to see you again i walked up the flight of steps without fully thinking i just wanted to see you again my eyes were heavy from the 9 hr flight across the ocean and my body was aching for some sleep but i just wanted to see you again you were standing there so calm and cool as if this wasn't a big meeting, a turning point i was shaking inside, i just wanted to curl up in fetal position and die you had a new blue jacket on you told me you bought it at the charity shop for 5 pounds then we went on conversation that strangers only have surface comments on the weather and airplane i just wanted to see that smile again but it wasn't you i was seeing not this fantasy that i wrapped up in time, no you were a stranger after the years and distance you were just another person just with the same shared past all i wanted to do was see you again. never again never again will i look in those eyes never again will i understand those dreams never again will i believe never again will i cry to my depths about you never again will i wonder where you are never again will i write a ten page letter-in hopes for a reply never again will i hold onto the embrace a little longer then i should never again will i stare at the torn photo of you and i together never again will i share my memories of what once was and never will be never again will i kiss those lips passionaltly, feeling a deep conection never again will i get excited to hear your voice, see your face never again will i yearn to say i love you now i'm stronger and more aware now i'm older and growing cynical now i've seen the pain of love now i've felt the freedom of letting go now i've thrown away the dried up roses now i've burnt the old photos now i've forgotten those special dates now i've stopped running to the mailbox, waiting now i've answered the phone without expecting your voice now i've stared at another man without comparing now i've blocked out those steamy nights now i've learned to say i love you to others kat imperfect angel ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 25 Jul 1998 18:52:06 -0700 From: Karen Miller Subject: ET: 5 days Know one knows about this but if you read bewteen the lines you should catch on 5 days for 5 days i was there wishing myslef away wishing i could die. feeling normal yet out of control feeling as though i had just killed something on the inside of me those 5 days i wish i could erase forever those days but i cannot i must live with them until i day why was i so foolish why did i have to live though those 5 days holly ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V1 #94 *********************************