From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V1 #51 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Thursday, June 11 1998 Volume 01 : Number 051 Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: A poem [Karen Miller ] ET: the beggining of the end ["Carhyl Ambert" ] ET: Inspiriation in a post! [Sunshine84@webtv.net (Maggie)] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Tue, 9 Jun 1998 21:29:30 -0700 From: Karen Miller Subject: ET: A poem I wrote this awhile back when I was sad andi wanted somehting to happen and i had been listening to "Sparl" by Tori Amos and i was also listening to "me and a gun" once again by Tori Amos so here it is it'sad and i rea;;y feel like that right now.... holly the wiccan angel I was sitting in my room waiting for life to spring out of me but none came at least that's what I thought. Someone came into my window and sprung towards me I tried to get away but they got me to quickly. I was hit on the head with something but I don't know what when I woke up I was blind folded, and my hands where tied behind my back. I tried to get free only to be slapped on the face. I felt us going faster and faster until we stopped all of a sudden. I was pushed out of the car and I fell to the ground. I was pushed away from the car then they drove off and I was left there. I managed to get up it took me awhile but I did. And I started to walk, through mud and branches. I knew it was much because I kept on stepping in deep quicksand that was thicker. I lost my left shoe but I kept on walking. I walked for along time until my right shoe came off. But I still kept on walking I walked in some creaks and other type little water things then I felt it. A river, I stepped into it carefully and the water kept on getting higher and higher until it went past my head I squiggled and squirmed until I got my blind fold off then. I managed to get out of the water and kept walking because I saw a road ahead I ran quickly I had perfect timing because a car was coming. I stood in the road so they stopped I went to the passenger side and showed them my hand tied in the back the 2 girls just looked at each other then drove off. I fell to my knees and cried knowing I would die that day and that this would be my last breath???? ------------------------------ Date: Wed, 10 Jun 1998 09:18:22 -0700 From: "Carhyl Ambert" Subject: ET: the beggining of the end Hi to you all angels: I haven't emailed you guys ever since the first time I did. So here I am again some of my poems are really starting to pile up so I am not going to write all but only a few that have to do with the specific situation I am going through... Since I am a temp I work in lots of diferent places sometimes I work in places just for a day or just for a week and so on... Anyway 2 weeks ago I was working in fedex and I met this really nice guy who was a manager there I really liked him and I thought he was cute so naturally I was bummed to hear about fedex worker policies they can't date...but after a week I got a call that I was going to work somewhere else and I was happy about that turns out that he wanted to date me too so we talked for two nights in a row and he seemed like the perfect guy I kept thinking this is amazing this guy seemed to be my dream guy...but as you may have guessed he wasn't or maybe he was for me but I wasn't for him. We had our first date on thursday and then he didn't call for 3 days and 4 days and I don't think he will call again ever... I am really bummed about this because now I can't work in fedex again and I can't date him (or more like he won't date me anymore)... So anyway enought about that here are some poems I wrote related to this... He came into my life with his smile he made me whole he transported me into a fantasy world he filled it with guardian angels to protect us and fairies to make our dreams come true and he took me to special places secret places that we called home and nothing could touch me and nothing could hurt me he is my guardian angel and he said one day he would fly me to heaven I wrote this one after our second phone call obviously I was getting way to involved emotionally... I sat on my bed and read to myself I read because I was tired of waiting I read because I was scared I read because I hoped that by getting into other people's minds and hearts and lifes I could leave or at least escape my own... I read because I didn't want to think of you I read because I thought ( I know) you lied I read because I missed you I read because I hoped the words could replace your voice and that they could fill the emptyness in my heart I read for a long time and then when I was done I cried. this I wrote 2 days after the first and only date... You were very much like a dream to me One of those dreams in which you wake up before it ends I awoke much too soon Your face your sweetness struck me it came fast and it was hard you showered me with sweet words many words you wispered so that only my heart could hear them You gave me the attention I craved And just like a hallucination you dissapeared within a week no warning, no explanation, you are gone I wrote this one yesterday... Just like that seems like it happened all in just one day You come into my life and sweept me of my feet but just as the day turns into nioght you took the sun away At dawn, you grew cold and distant and I grew resentful and bitter and by the time the sun came up you were gone... This one I wrote today.... Well I only have one more thing to say about all this and that is that I should've known I was so stupid to let my feelings get involved like that.... Well I got to go... Carhyl bittersweet angel ~my glass was half ful but you drank it all~ Get your FREE, private e-mail account at http://www.mailcity.com ------------------------------ Date: Wed, 10 Jun 1998 22:30:43 -0500 From: Sunshine84@webtv.net (Maggie) Subject: ET: Inspiriation in a post! This is my first post (on this list), although I'm SURE y'all know me!!! Anyway, I was reading a post (from Max Mouse?) and I got this flash, and wrote this in about 3 seconds: brick wall blocking the mirror so I can't see myself not what I look like but who I am my reflection blocked they don't want me to know who I am and I don't I guess they won. Comments? E-mail me sunshine84@webtv.net Maggie, the rambling angel ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V1 #51 *********************************