From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V1 #16 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Wednesday, May 6 1998 Volume 01 : Number 016 Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: just a thing [moonsong@ix.netcom.com (Us)] ET: Re: eda-thoughts-digest V1 #5 [LOVE1618 ] ET: hey guys ["Christie Ambert" ] ET: ramblings ["Jennifer Greeley" ] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Tue, 5 May 1998 10:12:39 -0700 From: moonsong@ix.netcom.com (Us) Subject: ET: just a thing Hey everybuggy, you're probably thinking, she's writing again? i kind of :) had to send this, i just wrote it. sam the ? angel with sunlight in her hair ~~**~~ sm may 5 98 This is goodbye It wasn't supposed to be this way I always thought I'd be the one leaving you Off on some life expedition Not you leaving me That spirit always filled with happiness Is growing weak and slow I search in vain for an answer And find only sadness This is goodbye But it wasn't supposed To happen now How can I bear never to see You overbounding with joy When I'm crying, I turn to find you And see only an empty room You have so many lessons Yet to teach on kindness and glee And so you can't leave Your heart is purely good Your soul is only kind The mischief is gone from your eyes The day cannot smile The leaves do not whisper The air is silent and heavy This is goodbye ~~**~~ goodbye, we will not meet again how can i stand those words such a spirit can't just vanish goodbye, death wasn't invited but it has come and damn it the time is too soon, clock 1/2 past noon goodbye, it is not time, but you are gone ~~**~~ The explaination? This probably will sound silly but my little eight year old doggie haas a severe liver problem & could die. He's taught my family so incredibly much in the ways of love and forgiveness, he can't just leave now. ~*Sam*~ moonsong@ix.netcom.com ------------------------------ Date: Tue, 5 May 1998 13:45:33 EDT From: LOVE1618 Subject: ET: Re: eda-thoughts-digest V1 #5 Coula someone PLEASE send me the #4 issue? I print them out and that one got lost! I keep them in a little folder, so I can read them again and again! Thanks!!! Love as always, Ami Who knew all this talent could be on one list? ------------------------------ Date: Tue, 05 May 1998 18:03:00 -0700 From: "Christie Ambert" Subject: ET: hey guys hey you guys, first of all yes my birthday was april 25th and thank you guys for always telling me im a great poet, i try. as i said before i write in order to survive if i cant write i die. so when i work, i try to use every situation and i write a poem. i have a few poems to share today. before the poems one of my coworker`s dad died today.; it really makes you value life. as soon as i found out about it i called my mentor,my grandpa and he`s ok and i called my dad and he was ok too.i told my co worker that sometimes we lose people and sometime we meet people who fulfilled those empty places in our hearts. i know i made a difference with that. oh the poems... shut up by Christie the flowerchild angel - -------------------------------------- listen to your heart listen to your soul listen to your head listen to me listen to his heart listen to his soul listen to my prayer listen to my song listen to my rithym listen to others listen to the children listen to my poem listen to my heartbeat listen to the clock listen to the phone ring listen to my deceit listen to my unfaithful heart listen to my appology listen to my cry for help - ------------------------------------------------------- we lose one soul but we gain a million everyday another angel has left us today. funny how we value life when one dies. and how we forget to achnoledge someone`s work before he dies. i tell people,that i appreciate them everyday at work, knowing that life in one second can end, what will tomorrow bring...i dont even know. let`s take a minute, and think about our family and friends, and the friends we`ve lost, and idols,like that jewel`s amen song. i thank god everyday for my family and friends... even the computer friends... thank you god for giving me a wonderful life well that`s all for today. you guys take care, and dont forget to tell the people you love how important they are. well later EDAS Christie The Flowerchild Angel Get your FREE, private e-mail account at http://www.mailcity.com ------------------------------ Date: Tue, 05 May 1998 18:28:58 PDT From: "Jennifer Greeley" Subject: ET: ramblings Hey all.. Guess you could say that i'm turning to you guys for a shoulder to cry on at the moment. i can't really turn to anyone else cause they don't seem to understand me. One of my best friends is my ex boyfriend and alot of my problems still revolve around him. My other best friend just got a new boyfriend a couple of weeks ago (first in 2 years), so all her time and devotion is to him. My other friends just wouldn't understand. The special person in my life at the moment is quickly drifting away from me, and we hardly ever see each other, let alone talk.. So i need someone to talk to.. I feel very comfortable talking to you guys and sharing stuff, so i thought what the heck.. So life is supposed to be great right. Full of happiness and all that stuff. I haven't felt that in so long. This whole year (school year i mean, so from september) nothing has been going right. Starting in Sept, my boyfriend and i (now ex), started having our problems which lasted until December when we broke up. It was a long distance relationship so it made it harder, but i thought we would be together forever. In Oct. one of my friends committed suicide. Since the break up, i've tried to move on in my life, get with other guys, and just try to have normal teenage fun. But that's just not working. Have tried three times. First one, broke up after first date. Second, didn't even go on first date. Not talking to either any more. Third, is my special guy that i talked about earlier. He lives an hour away, so i can understand why he doesn't want to come out here all the time, but once in over 6 weeks is insane. No offense to the guys on the list, (i know you guys are sweet), but this guy is so not sweet or able to say exactly what is on his mind. It's really annoying.. Life isn't great. I've always had problems so that's nothing new. I've always felt out of place in this world. People have always thought of me as different. I don't mind that all that much, but after several years, it starts going to my head. i was suicidal for a year, and depressed for many years. I go on little ups and downs now. But every day is a struggle for me. I can't think of myself as beautiful. I can't speak my mind even when i have to. i find myself getting more and more quiet and withdrawn as the days go on. I know it has to do with more than just these little problems that almost every one goes through, but i can't figure out what it is. But on a more happy note.. Recently i experienced the miracle of birth when my cousin gave birth to her first daughter. beautiful as anything. (thanks Kat for your story as well). Yesterday, my ex's sister gave birth to a little girl as well.. I think that giving someone else a life is a miracle that we have to cherish.. Anyways.. this is long enough.. I'll send poems another night. Thanks for listening to my complaining. -- Jenny * The Sad Angel * ______________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V1 #16 *********************************