From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V1 #4 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Friday, April 24 1998 Volume 01 : Number 004 Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: My rambles... [Lara ] ET: some ramblings...some poems... [vonfam@rapfire.net] ET: relationships.. and poems ["Jennifer Greeley" ] ET: eda-thoughts webpage [Lara ] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Wed, 22 Apr 1998 23:05:23 -0700 From: Lara Subject: ET: My rambles... Hey guys! Just thought I would say hey and a little of what is up here. Sorry if this post is a little weird. I am on some painkillers (I'm sick) and I am not quite feeling my *normal* self. I am excited because I am getting to do something different this weekend! I am going to MSU for Friday-Sunday to see two of my good buds. They are in sororities down there and there is some sort of sorority thing or something...but anyhow I get to see them which is good. Here (where I go to school right now is also my hometown) I am away from all my good gal pals so that is not easy. My relationship with Greg is going well :) He's really nice and he does understands my feelings on things. *smiles-to-males*! I am a little aggrivated though cause I missed the new Tori Amos video on MTV -- but I am going to make sure to tape Jewel on pop-up video this weekend! Hmmmm... well I think I have rambled enough for one night! I am working on some new poems and when they are done they will be right here as well :) Goodnight all! - ---------------------------------------------------------- Lara -- daisypetals@usa.net   members.tripod.com/~laruth                - ---------------------------------------------------------- questions? ask! ljruth on AIM                   check out the list homepage! surf.to/eda_thoughts -- help contribute! :) - ---------------------------------------------------------- ------------------------------ Date: Thu, 23 Apr 1998 11:43:53 -0500 From: vonfam@rapfire.net Subject: ET: some ramblings...some poems... Hello all you wonderful people! I am in a good mod right now, I don't know why though. After the night I had lastnight, I would have expected to be extremly depressed, but I'm not!! So I won't ask any questions, and just try to make this last. I was off the computer for a few days, and I have a load of e-mail to catch up on. I'm not complaining though, I love it. :) Okay, i'll stop babbling in just a sec. I hope everyone is happy, but to those who aren't, be strong, you will get through this! Okay here's some poems i've written in the past few days, things have been a little tense around here this week.... - ---------------------- silence A door slams a mother cries out in helplessness frightened children hover around the corner they don't understand the yelling and screaming. Upstairs, in my room the music grows louder and louder till it blocks out their angry words. My brother at just two years of age comes to me, asking "why mommy and daddy yell?" I have no answers and give him toys at his young age, his is easily distracted I wish I suffered the same finally, the front door is slammed and the house is silent except for my mothers muffled tears It's over, for now. But everytime he storms out, so mad, there's always that involuntary fear what if he doesn't come back? how would we make it? But he always returns and in time my parents will speak again but for now I'm just enjoying the silence. 4-21-98 - ------------------------- Make-Believe Souls Most everyone has an outer exterior they have made-up in order to make themselves somebody else They'll discreetly check themselves to make sure not to fall out of character And every now and then an angel comes along that sees through their game of make believe they tap through the outer core shattering the lies and falsities and finally expose their vulnurable souls it stings but the angel remains there while their hearts grow stronger and they more often venture out without costume 4-20-98 - ----------------------- Pain and sadness is so trivial You weep for a love lost, but why cry over such things? Afterall, children are dying of starvation And youths take their lives every day So, I feel bad about hurting so over mear heartbreak such an unimportant thing next to the trials of the world But one can't help but cry over spilt milk When you are sometimes so helpless with matters of the heart as insignificant as they may be... 4-23-98 - --------------------- Okay i'll stop. Smile everyone.. :) Always, Naomi ~the unknown angel~ naomisplace@angelfire.com ICQ # 10320304 http://www.angelfire.com/ok/naomisplace/index.html - ---------------- "When everything's like the movies, you bleed just to know you're alive.." ------------------------------ Date: Thu, 23 Apr 1998 13:47:20 PDT From: "Jennifer Greeley" Subject: ET: relationships.. and poems Hey all... well i know i haven't really written, but that's okay, i'm sure no one is mad at me.. ;) With all the talk of relationships, and stuff, thought i would throw in my two cents. I was in a long distance, computer relationship. (500 miles, and lots of money for trips and phone bills). It was the greatest thing in my life for two years until we broke up last December. I still hate the fact that we aren't together, but life goes on. We are the best of friends, so I guess i will have to live with that. And now I'm getting really close with another guy over the internet, and he's only an hour away. (still long distance though to call). But that's a completely different story, as that relationship is far from anything right now, and going completely down hill. Also thought i would throw in a poem or two or three. Don't mind most of my poems. I haven't been able to write a *happy* poem in a long while. So most of them are rather depressing. (also totally different story) ANGEL - ----- The wind gently blows around, while i sit in total silence. My angel watches me, Tears fall. Sadness takes over. My angel floats around. I will never find another angel sweeter than him. I will never find another angel more precious than him. I have been waiting my whole life for an angel like him. But the angel that i've always been waiting for is gone. My sweet angel smile for me. thinks of me. My precious angel is no longer my angel. My angel floats around me. Watches me. watches the tears fall for him. The wind suddenly stops. My angel is gone. - - JLG April 22, 1998 ****** Death - ----- Falling deep within the hole, living life like a bat in fear hiding in the darkness among the weeds, Sneaking to become beautiful. Life is a genius, forbidding us to become smarter. Controlling our minds which claim to know all taking from us what we don’t know giving us nothing. We are left like a rose with no love. Wilting and falling to the underground where we will be fed and loved by Satan himself. Evil loves me and takes me to where I will belong. Among the devils of the land, the hate of the world, the life of the dead earth. All is dead around me, Life is just starting, death is the ending of the beginning. It is only the beginning now, life continues, death continues. No end will take me, for I have yet to start, in the deceased land. - -- JLG Oct 1997 **** Night At night, I dream of you holding me like a child with a teddy bear. Touching me with your soothing hands. Kissing me like lovers do. I wish the dreams would never end that you would be mine forever. But night turns to day The moon disappears, The stars vanish And the sun comes out to play. You are gone But I hold your heart in my hands waiting for the night to visit again. - --- JLG July 1995 * Just a note on the poem "Death". This is being published in a Canadian Anthology of young poets. It was written when a friend committed suicide just after a big fair around my area. * Okay that turned out long... hehe.. i'll post some of my other recent poems as soon as i find my book.. (bad thing, lost my good writing book).. Hope everyone is happy and well.. And if you aren't, go to http://www.utec.net/gidget/icq/greet.htm :) Trying to send as much *happiness* around to everyone else, when i'm down and depressed. hugs, Jenny the alone and confused angel ______________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com ------------------------------ Date: Thu, 23 Apr 1998 13:54:03 PDT From: "* Jewel *" Subject: ET: oops... Hey guyz...I screwed up one of my short poems, "Hurt" that wuz in the previous diet. Well, here it is and another one. My bf just broke up w/ me and I found out he likes some 'other' girl. God, it hurts so bad...its too soon. Well, here's the poems: Hurt - ---- My heart is spilt Numb eyes Of salty tears My fears Came true Maybe I knew That you could never love me How I love you... And still do My new one: Someone New 4/22/98 - ------------------- It hurts so bad to think of you Already with someone new It makes me want to break down and cry Thinking now how hard I've tried To get us back together again Instead, you want to be my friend I can't imagine you and her Holding eachother Like when we were together I can't ponder the thought Of 'her' lips pressing upon yours My place filled so soon My heart growing sore You've found a new girl So very fast All my love and kisses Are held in your past So I evily wish She won't last long I secretly hope Everythink will go wrong And then she'll be gone Leaving you alone- And you'll know how it feels For no love to be shown... Talk to you later, guyz! O:) Stay sweet and write more poems!!! ;) Love Always, *~Kristen~* {{ThE aNgEl StAnDiNg By}} (\o/) /_\ ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* ICQ UIN #: 2838979 AOL Instant Messenger: jeweljk15 Email: Kristenluv@hotmail.com ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* ______________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com ------------------------------ Date: Thu, 23 Apr 1998 17:23:07 -0700 From: Lara Subject: ET: eda-thoughts webpage Hey guys! I am still adding stuff to the eda-thoughts webpage (poems, etc). I am also adding little pictures along with the poems if I have any of the list member (ex. I have one of Jamie's up along with her poem). If you have a picture and would like it on the page please email me (daisypetals@usa.net) the picture or the URL. I am still adding poems, etc. and will ask before I put your poem on the page. I want this to be a neat and useful page for list members and in interesting other people to possibly sign up. Thanks guys... you are the greatest! :) <><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> Lara -- daisypetals@usa.net   check out the list homepage! members.tripod.com/~laruth     surf.to/eda_thoughts questions? ask! ljruth on AIM help contribute! :) <><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V1 #4 ********************************