From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V2 #163 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Saturday, June 5 1999 Volume 02 : Number 163 * If you ever wish to unsubscribe, send an email to * eda-thoughts-digest-request@smoe.org with ONLY * the word unsubscribe in the body of the email * . * PLEASE :) when you reply to this digest to send a post TO the list, * change the subject to reflect what your post is about. A subject * of Re: eda-thoughts-digest V2 #xxx or the like gives readers no clue * as to what your message is about. Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: hi ["C. C. & S." ] ET: help ["Seimese" ] ET: **Instinct** ["Scott S." ] ET: New News ! ["Rizioule" ] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Fri, 04 Jun 1999 10:54:29 -0700 From: "C. C. & S." Subject: ET: hi okay, okay, i am so pleased. yes, you all can thank me. thank you, thank you. *bows, grinning* yes, it is entirely because of me that this list is up and active again. i take full credit. no, don't worry, i won't be modest. :) so, sadly i still haven't written much poetry. but i'm going backpacking this weekend so maybe that will be inspiration! plus here is the one thing i HAVE written. i still can't get over my success though. yeahh. it's never you, it's me, you say, the same old thing, day to day have you noticed death can seem not so far away and so it gets old, it goes on, it gets old i'm tired of being weary i'm sick of being bold i wish i knew what to tell myself but i'm weary of being told so i can keep on drowning my hopes but then faith will not unfold and it never comes my way, it's always blanking out the day i'm nearly switching like the plot that killed gwen in camelot my mind's a train track heading straight but out of control once from the gate and its black smoke seals up my fate hard candy that fills the air and clean too late this thinking is a waystation, that fades by in a blur and where my life is headed i really can't concure the only thing i know is that i am just what this life has spat and if i could start being honest, or true i'd say it scares me, honesty, and you i run to where i cannot hide i live by rules i can't abide i put too much into my silly dreams, but i can't put out the fire, it seems i say that i say just what i think, but it's gone in the instant that i blink and when i try to remember what i'd thought it's only as real as nightmares are not and so i take the dramatist's stick to beat my brain to light its candle's wick until i'm half crazy, and i'm even more sick and it seems as though my senses should rot and i lose whatever i imagined i'd fought and it's too slow, and it's too quick to light that fairy's candlestick love is a passion, such a lust, such desire what is love when its owner's consumed in its fire? it creates such a craving to be filled it's an endless field that never is tilled and it is so sweet, when it's constantly plowed in the heart's eye it creates such a crowd misery is possible, success leads to death do you know you are dying before the last breath? can love that you knew just then switch off the lane, can it barrel right into that fast moving train? and create such a panic, create such despair that you wish that you'd vanish right into the air and you cry that love, it just can't be fair when it snickers, it caught you, so unaware and i don't show everything i believe i wish that i could, it's a fact that i grieve what standards of living should i choose? it's a colored game track, so what if i lose? what is important, and what will last it lags so slowly, but it crashes so fast it's so easy to be on a living wire high never thinking way up there that you can die but i'm being too cynical i'm afraid it's so sad that so often, fear must be paid when things are a smooth and unwinding ride and the sailboat is drifting along with the tide, sometimes it's important to jolt out of the dream face reality, so frank, but so beautifully clean it won't bluster and it won't tell you lies, it will blow in your face, an invisible sigh, and then gently lay down right by your side, as you pick up your pieces, not trying to hide see i know that i really know nothing at all it's an awful but comforting sliding downfall lata- sam ------------------------------ Date: Fri, 4 Jun 1999 15:07:19 -0400 From: "Seimese" Subject: ET: help ok angels I need some guidance and I rarely post, I really hate to sound like a little pain in the ass about relationships but I cant help it. It is really long so if you dont want to hear it you can delete it. here goes... I am always at my bestfriends house and she has older bros that have a really good looking friend that I have liked for about 4 years already. When I first started to like him I would say stupid things like "I would love for him to just talk to me once " or how I would be happy just to kiss him once. Well one night we him and I just happed to be spending the night there we ended up staying up and talking for a really long time and I honestly was not expecting this guy to give me a second look I was just happy he was acknowledgeing me. At 10:00 in the morning we were still awake(by this time everyone else was aslep) he just kissed me. I was a bit schoked I was honestly speechless.We talked a while longer and I decided it was time for me to go, besides I got my kiss right? Well I was going in to surgery that day at noon so I had like an hour or two to sleep. I was so happy I could not sleep ( I was going to sleep for surgery!) When I got better from surgery I want over to my best friends house and her brother was upset with me and said what happend when you spent the night? I said why he said because **** said he does not remember. I was so pissed that I broke down and started crying. Her bro told me that he said " I remember talking to her but after that I dont know what happend. I saw ****"s best friend that a couple of days later and he told me that he knew what happend between me and ****. I said how do you know, he said because he told me everything the next day. I was a bit confused, he told one person he does not remember and another everything. I decided that I hated all men at this time, but I still liked him. One night my friend was having his party and **** was ganna be there, I ignored him untill he talked to me and kept apologizing for what he did, we ended up leaving together about 5:00 in the morning. We did nothing together I kissed him a couple of times and listend to him apologize. We got back to the party about 7:00a.m. and went to sleep. He told me to page him later so I did and everytime I did he never called back. It got to the point that I felt like I was a pain so I stopped, I just wanted to avoid this guy but I would always see him like the next day after I decided I would stop paging him. He would say that he got my pages but he was bussey and could not call back I was like OK! I know at this point most of you think that I am a fool but I cant help it it has been so long and I stll like him and care a lot about him. I get weak when I am around him and cant help but fall tohis trap. I just need some guidance please. ------------------------------ Date: Fri, 4 Jun 1999 16:54:27 -0500 From: "Scott S." Subject: ET: **Instinct** Hey Angels, I just got back from the movie Instinct which came out today and it is a necessity of life to see. Finally, a movie that shows a little part of what i'm thinking! Really, this movie is about life and how changed civilization has changed. I garauntee, if you care about life, you will cry! Check it out! "Scott S." -Big Sexy Angel "WE ARE ALL GOD'S CHILDREN! BUT WHY DO WE KILL EACH OTHER?" P.E.A.C.C.EŠ President/Founder and Proud EDA! http://homestead.com/rocksolid ICQ#9685289 ___________________________________________________________________ You don't need to buy Internet access to use free Internet e-mail. Get completely free e-mail from Juno at http://www.juno.com/getjuno.html or call Juno at (800) 654-JUNO [654-5866] ------------------------------ Date: Fri, 4 Jun 1999 18:12:25 -0700 From: "Rizioule" Subject: ET: New News ! Hello Everyone ! I have good news to announce about the June 26th San Diego "Gathering of Angels" One of the opening performers from Jewels concert "JASON MRAZ" will be performing at the Gathering ! We ( Jason, Lori and I ) met Jason last Friday when he opened for Gregory Page . His performance style is similar to Tracy Chapman Although he certainly has a style that is uniquely his own . He is really good ( sings way better than me , thats for sure ) His lyrics are really deep and moving. I am sure he will find many new fans at this gathering and at Jewels show . I would also like to add that I will be performing at the Newbreak on Friday June 11 th , with special guest "Judge Tatum" From Atlanta Ga. ( My Hometown ! ) This show is mainly to set up the sound system for the June 26th concert so it will be an very informal event and you may get to meet some of the performers from the concert on a more intimate basis . There is no admission charge, So if you want to check it out come on down ! The Address is: Newbreak on the Beach 1959 Abbott St. Ocean Beach San diego Ca. For reservations to the June 26th Gathering of Angels Concert e-mail me at rizioule@hotmail.com Seats are going fast so I really recommend reserving your place. ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V2 #163 **********************************