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Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: Forever Questioning Angel's Poems [JohnTracy4@aol.com] ET: Poem: A Little Girl in Hell [Seth Fulmer ] ET: cant do it without you ["Christie Ambert" ] ET: I hate Life's Lessons [Seth Fulmer ] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Thu, 18 Mar 1999 00:12:54 EST From: JohnTracy4@aol.com Subject: ET: Forever Questioning Angel's Poems Well, here is a couple of my poems, grant you it isn't much, but I really don't have the time nor energy to type all of them tonight. *untitled* - ------------- There is a person I know that goes about his day living life to the fullest trying to make the best of everyday. He goes to his school and has a lot of friends (or so he thinks) They all talk to him and laugh at his jokes. He has a good time with his classmates. But when he gets home he feels depressed. Many people like him, but no one calls him Somedays his parents yell at him, and he can't get along with his girlfriend. There was a night when he tried killing himself, but he realized that it wasn't that people didn't like him, but that he didn't like himself He found light in everyday after that, not to say he didn't have his bad days, but never to the point where he felt tired of life... That person is me. *Whore* - ------------- She sites there, trying to be noticed. She brushes her hair Knowing the notion of her acts She giggles like a small child. The men like her because she does things other girls don't Yet she doesn't live. She sleeps, sleeps with everyone who wants to be slept with. That is... if they have the money and the car. "...Saw my baby down by the river, knew she had to come up soon for air." "Sugar Magnolia" ~Greatful Dead. ~John --The Forever Questioning Angel ------------------------------ Date: Thu, 18 Mar 1999 13:13:14 -0500 (EST) From: Seth Fulmer Subject: ET: Poem: A Little Girl in Hell Hey..Here's a poem I wrote a few days ago..but I wrote it over the course of a few days as my emotions have been so eratic lately. This was actually sorta an attempt to force myself to write poetry...I have another one that I'll send later which is more beautiful but this one sorta keeps the fire going in my heart today for some reason. - ---------------------- A Little Girl in Hell 3/12/99 by Seth D. Fulmer Fire races candidly through a village so drear A little girl cries but her parents fail to hear The firemen come, the police, and ambulance too but nobody can hear the small voice in the crowd Superhuman strength rages those who are small, the rats, ants, and beggars who live by the mall Power from a God that all humanity has denied a chance for belief and the salvation from lies A demon runs forth and throws rumor into the crowd The sinful greek puppets are joyful to grab it The girl sits still in the center of disaster Raging infernal power forms creeping slowly towards her She says "Stop right there! Stop being mean to me! "Or I'll go tell mommy and daddy on you" It's funny how even fire stops to listen to a child For a child has an innocence not even chaos can deny Well, the fire steps back but the demons come forth The devil's much smarter; the child cannot hurt him Not that the child could do much to the fire however God can stop fire; and much more things indeed The demons, with their sharp claws and ugly underbite grab, mawl and mishandle her, like as if she were clay She screams "Leave me alone!" and calls for her daddy They whisper in her ear "Not even daddies can help you" How many times does the devil have to taunt you? fiddle with your life, and make you regret it How long must this terrible satire continue and make lost souls of this world of ours? ------------------------------ Date: Thu, 18 Mar 1999 10:27:09 -0800 From: "Christie Ambert" Subject: ET: cant do it without you So Im loosing my mind, and everything is falling down on me. I tried to keep it together, but baby i cant do it without you. So Im going nuts, and everyone i know thinks Im wrong, but baby i cant be sane without you. You are my peace, when im in conflict. You are my strength, whem Im weak. You are my power, with you I can take over the world. So Im loosing my mind and people think Im insane, people cant understand it`s an insane world. I lost my mind,when i lost you... and i cant do it without you. Get your FREE Email at http://mailcity.lycos.com Get your PERSONALIZED START PAGE at http://personal.lycos.com ------------------------------ Date: Thu, 18 Mar 1999 14:28:51 -0500 (EST) From: Seth Fulmer Subject: ET: I hate Life's Lessons Hey everyone! :o) I really hate when God, or Life or Fate..or whatever you want to call it..tries to teach me lessons. This whole week, I've been taking the taxi cab to and from work for one reason or another(we won't get into it) and I was frankly getting quite annoyed at it, but I needed to get to/from work, so I dealt with it. This one girl in the apartments where I live wasn't being too nice about rides either...but like okay..it's like it got worst last night. I was about to go to bed..and now that I think about it, I should have. Recently, this girl Nedra(she's a brother in my fraternity from another school nearby) has been IMing me..and she's anxious to see me Sunday and she's single...nuff said..But I never really took interest/notice of her until she started IMing me..Sunday's a meeting for my service fraternity for chapters in the general Philadelphia area. I go to all of them usually, but this Sunday I was looking forward to, because there's a friend/female brother named Leigh who I like to play with(we act like biological brothers/sisters act)...but I don't think I'd ever want to date her just because it would screw things up(no pun intended). I am SOOOOOOOO afraid that Nedra likes me and is going to try to talk to me. Thinking about it now sorta makes me laugh at myself for being afraid of her "talking" to me..but I really know how girls felt like when I liked them. I'm probably being melodramatic but I'm scared...but that's sorta only 40% of the problem. My friend Barbie(please no Aqua barbiegirl jokes hehe) that I met on Collegeclub lives in Philadelphia and I'm looking to meet her in 2 weeks more or less when I return to classes. Well, last night on AIM instead of going to bed, I IMed her and she said she was tired and then after a while I said that I'd let her go..Then she said "okay..thanks" and after exchanging smiles, she stayed online for a long while and I did too because I was downloading the South Park Star Wars Parody "The Phantom Menace" and RealPlayer G2. I started to wonder what she was doing, getting skeptical, paranoid, and pretty much losing faith. Well, this morning I woke up tired, and I found that whenever I tried to play the Phantom Menace, it would lock up my computer! Now...The lesson comes to me because today has been relatively good. I went out to lunch with the other CoOP interns, and when I was walking back, that girl that wasn't nice about the rides said that she could give me a ride tomorrow..which is my last day..AS IF I care if I go in on time or not(ok..so I do, but I'd have preferred a ride today or earlier in the week). Geesh..I'm starting to think that if I had gone to bed at a decent time(thus forgoing the download of something I didn't quite need and saying Hi to Barb), I'd have saved myself the depressing end of day yesterday had. Bleh..I want a good long sleep!(or a trip to Missouri)...And like next week I'm going to Missouri to meet Melissa and Roxy and Roxy wants me to party with her Friday and Saturday..Can we say "YESSSSS!!!!!!"? I am so excited, yet I'm so scared at the same time too. Well, I'll let you all go..I'm done my babblefest for March 18th, 1999. Take cares and Have a Great Day! :o) Seth D. Fulmer mailto:kaosking@voicenet.com ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V2 #74 *********************************