From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V2 #35 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Friday, February 5 1999 Volume 02 : Number 035 * If you ever wish to unsubscribe, send an email to * eda-thoughts-digest-request@smoe.org with ONLY * the word unsubscribe in the body of the email * . * PLEASE :) when you reply to this digest to send a post TO the list, * change the subject to reflect what your post is about. A subject * of Re: eda-thoughts-digest V2 #xxx or the like gives readers no clue * as to what your message is about. Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: girls, insanity, stuff, mi vida loca ["Seth D. Fulmer" ] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Thu, 04 Feb 1999 18:54:50 -0500 From: "Seth D. Fulmer" Subject: ET: girls, insanity, stuff, mi vida loca Hello everybody who is keeping up with the crazy life of my stunt double(I wish!) named Seth Fulmer. Before I begin, I caution you now that if you don't have time to read babble and risk permanent insanity(Yeah, I know..COOL!!!), do whatever you have to do to delete this email now(if you want). Ok, here's the deal...Nothing is wild(That sucks! What kind of game is this?!). The other day(Sunday I think..yeah..Sunday) I responded to Holly(from NY of course)'s email, and asked her if she'd make a decision about the Valentines dance on Feb 13th at Drexel(She had said she was flattered but had school stuff and wasn't sure yet) by this Thursday(that would be today I believe). I normally wouldn't have cared until like next Tuesday so I could get a bus ticket for my sister(her boyfriend goes to school at Alfred) and me in time for leaving Friday for Alfred(it's the closest Greyhound bus station to Oswego, NY that I know of)....BUT, my sister wanted to know by tonight if she was definitely going. So, I said to my darling sis that she was definitely going..but I was indefinite yet. I'd tell her how to get on the bus and all about Greyhound and stuff cuz I've done it before...that is if I don't go. (Now, geez..I'm feeling a lot better now...I think I figured out something. oops..nope, that was a brain fart). Anyhow, Holly hasn't emailed me since then!! WAA!! *desperately looks for a shoulder to cry on!!!* So, I emailed her last night apologizing for making her make a decision so fast..It's like I want her to go, I'm telling myself subconsciously that she's gonna say No, but a part of me says I'm wrong. God, I looked pathetic(but then when don't I?)! However though..I was thinking how I did practically the same thing with Melissa(only with her I made the fatal mistake of describing my feelings to her)...Woah..Ya know what?(side note here)..She just said the other day that I never told her I loved her..YEAH RIGHT! I told her more times than I have listened to Jewel's music in nanoseconds(ok..a little exageration there)...But like, Holly (hopefully) has no clue how I feel about her..and I guess it's kinda good because she lives over 300 miles(301.8 according to Mapquest.com) away from me...so I dunno if it's such a good idea, and maybe it would be best if I "loved her but just left her alone"(ok...enough song title quotes for now). Like...to give you an idea..I have this dream of going to the dance and requesting Dave Mathews Band's "Crush" and "stealing" the dance floor so to say..I think I've only felt that happy(as I do in that dream) this past summer at the Lilith Faire when Natalie Merchant and Sarah McLachlan took the stage. I actually said "Woah! Is this what it's like to fumble towards Ecstasy?"..I dunno..Like a few weeks ago, I was telling Melissa how I dunno if I really liked Holly or if it's a forced emotion...Now I would die for her...but like it feels like a love spell..TOTALLY irrational, yet so perfect..I dunno how to explain it..which makes me think it's not true...because as I said a while already..I have the ability to force myself into an emotion at will...and it's a totally irrational emotion too..If someone asked me why I didn't change it, I'd be like "Because I've had it so far..why change?"(If it's not broken, don't fix it)...Anyhow(like I said I'd babble), I'm "thinking" of emailing Holly again tonight or tomorrow morning if she doesn't email me tonight...just to see what's up..I'm not gonna ask her about the dance at all...I'm just not sure if I should...I might be testing my chances. But then again, I thought of that same theory with Melissa and I was kinda sorta wrong...But Holly said in one of the past emails that I was the only person that has emailed her every day and she was glad about that...so I dunno *freaks out!!* Ok, now about this trip though...Ok, the dance is $5 per person(so figure $10 total) for a 5 hour dance(more or less) BUT I'm taking a 9 hour bus ride up to Alfred(plus an hour car ride more or less to Oswego) and back down from Alfred again and riding down with Holly to the dance(if she goes. The bus ride round trip is about $120 so I'm paying $130 for the price of a $5-10 night...Am I INSANE?!?!(don't answer that! hehe) Also, I'm gonna have to take a day off of work too(Friday) if I go. Plus, I'm spending over 24 hours in a car just for 5 hours of pleasure...I dunno if I'm insane or not. I said to Melissa that I hope she's some real Aphrodite...but in a way I feel like a materialistic prick for caring about the cartime or the money. Bleh!..Well, anyhow...because I'm trying so hard to be the perfect person/male/etc...I was kinda wondering(just idle brain farts here) if anyone knew of websites about Social Psychology so I could improve how I deal in society. I want the valentines dance to go Perfectly! Not that anything else in my life ever succeeded perfectly...I got a group together to see the opening of the XFiles movie...that failed miserably(ok..so I have a weighted scale) as did like every sort of project I did..Ok, enough depressing thoughts for this evening..Time to dance around my living room to Crush!!..YES! I am Insane :) hee hee...Have a Fantastic Day/Evening/Night everyone!! :o) Seth Fulmer mailto:usfulmer@mcs.drexel.edu mailto:st96t879@post.drexel.edu mailto:kaosking@voicenet.com webpages: http://www.voicenet.com/~kaosking Cool Quotes and stuff :) "...Your smile; the soul of witchery. You're not running away, you're not running - are you?" - -Lisa Loeb, "Furious Rose" ------------------------------ Date: Thu, 04 Feb 1999 21:40:19 -0500 From: Robby VanSciver Subject: ET: The local band thing OK, well, thanks to everyone that helped me out with information on selling CD's and all...(I liked the mail it to yourself idea) ^_^ Anyway, my friend is getting it copyrighted, and when it's done, I'm gonna help him promote the CD single, and I asked him if he'd mind if I sent it out on the internet, and he said no, so here it is: The offer is (I guess) $5 plus shipping. I really want to help him with this, but don't know where to start on the selling--The CD isn't exactly ready yet. He's strictly against people putting songs on the internet (i.e. MP3's), so I can't get you those. (With a little convincing, he may allow for me to put short real audio clips up). If he does, I'll tell you, and if you like what you hear, then tell me, so I can give them some feedback. He's coming over Sunday night to work with some kick arse software (THANKS, JESSE!), so try to get me some information (whatever you can), before then if you can. Thanks a bunch, everyone! ^_^ ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V2 #35 *********************************