From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V2 #2 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Sunday, January 3 1999 Volume 02 : Number 002 * If you ever wish to unsubscribe, send an email to * eda-thoughts-digest-request@smoe.org with ONLY * the word unsubscribe in the body of the email * . * PLEASE :) when you reply to this digest to send a post TO the list, * change the subject to reflect what your post is about. A subject * of Re: eda-thoughts-digest V2 #xxx or the like gives readers no clue * as to what your message is about. Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: Update on the poll... ["Dr. RomeAntic" ] ET: even the clearest water, if deep enough you drown..... [gosiam@juno.c] ET: gut spill [cmgordon2@juno.com (Courtney M Gordon)] ET: just a silly poem thing [moonsong@ix.netcom.com (Charlie, Andalite, &] ET: 1/2/99 [moonsong@ix.netcom.com (Charlie, Andalite, & The Goddess)] ET: doors [cmgordon2@juno.com (Courtney M Gordon)] ET: hey! i found them [moonsong@ix.netcom.com (Charlie, Andalite, & The G] ET: mindless stuff [zerocool@sunlink.net (Niki)] ET: more [zerocool@sunlink.net (Niki)] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Sat, 02 Jan 1999 18:31:17 +0100 From: "Dr. RomeAntic" Subject: ET: Update on the poll... Hi angels! I tried to send this one a couple of nights ago to jewel@some.org... didn't go through so I'm sending this to you first... a bit updated... and then I'll go to my stupid addy (that I'm subscribed to only cause I use a POP3 server and download it with Netscape)... type it all out again, cause I can only connect via Telnet and can not copy/paste messages... Ah well... Sometimes it be that way!!! You all know the TOP 10 poll I'm doing right... well... Thank you so much for participating... all of you really made my New Year's Day... what can i do... I'm a sucker for charts and stuff... I already got votes for almost 100 different (eligible) albums and just when i think some album will sadly go unacknowledged... the next voter has it on their chart... I just love it... and even if I get a couple of thousand responses I would only get happier!! Flood me :)) Oh and hereby I would especially like to thank: Mr. BB (still can't believe he actually participated... far out) Kevin & Katie for taking their time and giving insightful comments along with the votes!!! I gotta check some of those albums - they sound mighty intriguing! Of course voting is still open 'til January 10th... can't wait for the rest of your votes... and if you'd like to see your favorite album among the best of the year... send in your votes... the more of you participate the more ballanced and "accurate" the chart gets... as more votes are coming in... some albums I expected to be high finally managed to surface from among those at the bottom!!! Those of you who voted for less than 10 albums... can still e-mail me anytime with the additional albums that came to mind later... ALSO it is REALLY IMPORTANT to send the list in the order of your preference... because it makes a huge difference if you put an album in the 1st or 10th slot!!! And remember unless there are some resonable reasons and circumstances only albums form 1998 and 1997 are eligible for this... so no albums like: Yourself Or Someone Like You by Matchbox 20... that was #1 last year Pieces Of You Jagged Little Pill etc... Well the big majority understood that, but still there are some who sumbit a vote or two for one of those... Just a reminder: The address to vote is: romeantic@hotmail.com So unless something really important comes up... next you'll hear from me on the list will be sometime after January 10 with the results of this poll... so until then Thank you... and may 1999 be musically even GREATER!!! - -- Have fun and stay beautiful Dr. RomeAntic, an angel with the worst stroke of luck "She is much better without me She walks through the gates of the country Her hands in the air And I smile as I watch her walk by Somehow I see there are ships in her eyes Yeah she is better off now" Black Lab / Gates Of The Country / Your Body Above Me Catch Dr. RomeAntic's cyber image @ http://www.geocities.com/Paris/Metro/2009 ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 2 Jan 1999 13:11:26 -0600 From: gosiam@juno.com Subject: ET: even the clearest water, if deep enough you drown..... it is saturday and i am completely bored. so i decided to write a little something in 'honor' of the new year..i can't stand it..i just can't anymore..it seems that i am just so lost in this whirling world based on looks, money, power,violence, and sex.. i am only 14, [turning 15 jan 28] and i am already feeling depression coming on..its like there is no more time to be strong, i have to leave it behind and the memories that i look back upon are so painful..their painful because i really wish i was there and just reliving every moment i had with my friends all those boys and girls that i'll never see again..i don't understand why i feel this way..wait, actually i do, i try to be different, but i just blend in with all those people that i hate..i think i have a lot of hate for certain things, and i am feeling like i'm going to explode any second..theres too much emotion in me..i have a crush on this guy and its more like an obsession, last year we were thisclose to going out and being together for ever..ok, i'm exaggerating not forever but you get the idea, and i miss him so much, i just want to see him again, and i just want to be with him..then come my friends, last year 3 of my friends just disappeared..they moved and they didn't look like they would even miss me and my two 'leftover' friends..god, what a useless life..i wish i was born something else instead of what i am..i am a raging sea of emotions and suicide..around my parents i try to act 'normal' [whatever that may be] and i don't want my sadness to show..mainly because if my parents believed in divorce they would be by now, and i don't want them to know for the most part..i'm pouring my gut out to you guys because well, [get ready for a really DUMB answer] everyone else it..i saw sam doing it, naomi doing it, and a shitload of other people..but let me finish this up, i am moving into our basement in about a month, and there is this huge window there..its so wonder to just stare out of..as some of you know there a huge winter storm here in chicago, and today i went down there and you could see the snow falling down, it was so magical..it made me think of so many things..this past year, i experienced nothing but pain spiked with a little pleasure..very little pleasure.. this is my truth tell me yours.......... margaret 'your tender and your tired you can't be bothered to decide whether you live or die just forget about your life' -manic street preachers ' tender&tired ' ___________________________________________________________________ You don't need to buy Internet access to use free Internet e-mail. Get completely free e-mail from Juno at http://www.juno.com/getjuno.html or call Juno at (800) 654-JUNO [654-5866] ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 2 Jan 1999 16:28:39 -0500 From: cmgordon2@juno.com (Courtney M Gordon) Subject: ET: gut spill Dear ppls: well, since everyone else seems to be spilling their guts on the past few years or so, i figure I may as well jump on the band wagon. I've found some awesome friends from the eda list, (Troy, Steven, Lynn, Matt, Jesse, Reg) that I'm really grateful for. I've realized that a lot of the ppl in my school don't like me because either they can't understand me, or I am a lot more honest, blunt and realistic than they are. I've lost a few "friends" that I've learned weren't really my friends as I'd thought they were (Heather, jenny, ricky) and realized who my true friends are (Serina, Will, Carrie), that will always be there for me. I almost died this year, I was suicidal, fell in love with a dude I will never see again, been lied to by the ppl I thought were the greatest on earth, tested my family's trust in me and all in all, learned more this year than I have learned in all the years gone by combined. Because of my past, I've been forced to grow up a lot faster than I should've. I never got to be that cute sweet little 9 year old down the road. Back then I didn't get to act the way the rest of the 9 year olds were. i had to grow up and think in terms of "Santa Clause isn't the answer to everything, life sucks and there are way more bad than good ppl out there". Realizing the severity of my past, combined w/ everything else going wrong around me almost drove me to kill myself early in the year. but thanx to the great ppl I met on the list and the friends I reallized were real, I didn't. People, you know who you are. love and such Courtney ___________________________________________________________________ You don't need to buy Internet access to use free Internet e-mail. Get completely free e-mail from Juno at http://www.juno.com/getjuno.html or call Juno at (800) 654-JUNO [654-5866] ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 2 Jan 1999 15:38:00 -0800 From: moonsong@ix.netcom.com (Charlie, Andalite, & The Goddess) Subject: ET: just a silly poem thing it's kinda weird.... Resolution Sunday I will not owrry about what people think, that stuff, it's horrible. & not fret on my waist, or he who is eighteen, & too gorgeous, delicious, too, out of grasp. I won't be bothered by wasps, dust storms, or gloomy moods. Moods reflecting my brown nail polish He, she, it. Resolution Sunday, on which I surrender my fear, and accept my soul. I will not be terrified of the new. And when I gain sight, I will laugh, for I have that & more to realize. I will believe in myself, my abilities, To heal, to adore, to dream, & to love chocolate. To kiss the morning sun rays with tears, relax in indisturbance, & shake the doilies on Resolution Sunday. The new year always brings difference. - -SM, 1/2/99 wanna know something interesting, i just noticed that i wrote that on the back of a torn piece of paper. the printing on the other side is titled "thoughts for the times on war and death." interesting, huh. Love, Sam the ? angel moonsong@ix.netcom.com ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 2 Jan 1999 16:26:23 -0800 From: moonsong@ix.netcom.com (Charlie, Andalite, & The Goddess) Subject: ET: 1/2/99 try sm, 1/2/99 I just want to kiss you & I just want to put my arms around you & I only want never to leave you to grieve you I don't want to send baskets of tea I only want you to remember me And if you want to write me down, I won't even cry. And if you want to fly around - well, I can only try. I want you to know me & bring the leaves out of the sky if you move near me I can almost guarantee maybe you'll see truth in my eyes I only want you to dream in my hold to lay under that tree & love me, I've been told that you can, in my hands I just want your lemon wings to surround me I only desire your kisses that bring only sky & honey And if you want to write me down, I won't even cry. And if you want to fly around - well, I can only try. I just want to kiss you & I just want to put my arms around you & I only want never to leave you to grieve you - - - - - - *this next one - i got the idea from a line in the above one.* lemon skies & honey sm 1/2/99 in the place where heaven comes to earth and poppies grow in peach in liquid waves of amber & gray there are lemon skies & honey in this land where people's hands engulf their souls and merge the fields arms become one with their loved one with the lemon skies & honey the breeze you can clasp in a free away grasp and lemon skies & honey rain falls on the ground in a comforting sound from lemon skies & honey in a place where the breeze is soft as silk and a sense of peace shifts the stars the hills soak up warmth in the glow of lemon skies & honey and words don't exist in the horizon where day and night are the same and knowing moves in the trees and stays in lemon skies & honey they're kind of weird, but i hope you like it still. love, sam the ? angel moonsong@ix.netcom.com ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 2 Jan 1999 19:58:24 -0500 From: cmgordon2@juno.com (Courtney M Gordon) Subject: ET: doors Dear ppls- I wish I was around when The Doors were together. Jim was genius. Hot too. Any Doors fans out there??? have a great day! love and bah humbug Courtney "Mother, have you seen my grasshopper? It looks real nice. Oops, I blew it, it was a moth." -Jim Morrison ___________________________________________________________________ You don't need to buy Internet access to use free Internet e-mail. Get completely free e-mail from Juno at http://www.juno.com/getjuno.html or call Juno at (800) 654-JUNO [654-5866] ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 2 Jan 1999 17:14:47 -0800 From: moonsong@ix.netcom.com (Charlie, Andalite, & The Goddess) Subject: ET: hey! i found them hey, remember those poems about my dog that i couldn't find? well i found them. here they are. ~~**~~ sm may 5 98 This is goodbye It wasn't supposed to be this way I always thought I'd be the one leaving you Off on some life expedition Not you leaving me That spirit always filled with happiness Is growing weak and slow I search in vain for an answer And find only sadness This is goodbye But it wasn't supposed To happen now How can I bear never to see You overbounding with joy When I'm crying, I turn to find you And see only an empty room You have so many lessons Yet to teach on kindness and glee And so you can't leave Your heart is purely good Your soul is only kind The mischief is gone from your eyes The day cannot smile The leaves do not whisper The air is silent and heavy This is goodbye ~~**~~ goodbye, we will not meet again how can i stand those words such a spirit can't just vanish goodbye, death wasn't invited but it has come and damn it the time is too soon, clock 1/2 past noon goodbye, it is not time, but you are gone ~~**~~ there you go. - -sam the ? angel moonsong@ix.netcom.com ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 2 Jan 1999 20:17:53 -0500 From: zerocool@sunlink.net (Niki) Subject: ET: mindless stuff Untitled And you don't care Walking through the mist Like tomorrow is already here You hum a tune No one knows you carry your heart In a gray picnic basket The earth moves under you But you don't notice And if the earth was flat I'm sure you'd keep on Walking until you fell off the edge. Untitled If the earth was round There would be yellow cows And green table tops Life would be fun (All the time) And work? No such word Pigs could fly Ants would sing Life would never be The same ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 2 Jan 1999 22:05:33 -0500 From: zerocool@sunlink.net (Niki) Subject: ET: more As if the world revolves A r o u n d your glances And the Sun and Moon bow d o w n to you and yours ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Leave the wall intact The stereo where it's always been Take the painting though... I never liked it anyway It's always reminded me of... Of things that I like... USED to like But don't like to talk about... Know what I mean? Yeah you do... So take it down You can burn it for all i care It'll save me the trouble... And you can also take the bed There isn't anything that can Save it now ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V2 #2 ********************************