From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V1 #121 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Tuesday, August 18 1998 Volume 01 : Number 121 Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: stepping up to my fear [Jan Winters ] ET: to all the angels who are scared... ["AMANDA the great" Subject: ET: stepping up to my fear today was the first day of my senior year. everything was so strange, surreal almost. old friends waving hi, noticing my haircut asking about the summer. meeting new people that i've never noticed before and starting classes. writing my life out on the index card for the teacher and constantly saying "i prefer to be called kat then katherine". i was waiting for my ride though when something happened to me. sue, this old teacher at my school who is real cool. she was in the peace corps and i met her at a pub actualy, so we are more like friends. she went to the school to give some papers to another teacher when she bumped into me. we talked about my future and other things that people always mention when you are 18. i told her i was staying here for community college, not going to this other school 10 hrs away that i originaly thought of. i gave a list of desent reasons on why i wanted to stay home. but then she was shocked and asked why, again and again. saying that i needed to get out of this city, that i need to be around a college town and experiance everything. not to stay here. we talked about it a little longer, i don't really know this lady that well. well enough to bring back tea bags for her from england but not well enough to pour my soul out to. but she said something that has shaken me pretty bad today and i might even reconsider my future plans. she said "you don't want to leave here kat, because you are scared of growing up. you show everyone how confident you are, at the pub having older friends and getting along with everyone. but you are young, and your scared of leaving this comfort zone. but you need to leave to grow". i'm scared. i don't know what to do. i have to make some big choices soon that will truly affect me. daddy's not making them and neither is mom. my friends have all decided already on what to do, i'm changing my mind over and over again. should i stay at home? or should i leave? it's such a hard choice when your going into something black. UNTITLED i wish i knew the answers i can read a political article and give thousands of debates i can choose what color wall paper my sister should have and how much money my friend should spend i can contemplate on the enviroment and change everyone's life around but i just cant grasp a hold of my own i'm seeing something frightening i'm growing up, and i'm completley alone. kat ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 17 Aug 1998 15:37:07 PDT From: "AMANDA the great" Subject: ET: to all the angels who are scared... i just got my first few EDT's and i really like them. ive always liked hearing about other peopl. i know there are a LOT of people out there that are so scared of there life and dont know what to do with there problems that they forget about angels. i just wrote this one night when i thot the world was going to collapse on me.its a lot like like Jewel's "ANGEL STANDING BY" but i wasnt thinking about that when i wrote it. Your Guardian When your heart is like a a broken window When your cheeks are like a wet rag When your face is as white as snow and you life just seems to zig-zag, You can turn to me When your feelings are as fragile as glass when your body just wants to curl into a ball When you want to disapear into nothingess I'll catch you when you fall. I'm watching over you all day and all night im watching over you in your moments of fright just remember I'm here and you'll be alright I'm your Guardian Angel holding you tight there ya go. maybe that'll help you someday... ~amanda the rocker angel ______________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 17 Aug 1998 19:17:57 -0400 From: Mike Connell Subject: Re: ET: to all the angels who are scared... AMANDA wrote: >i just got my first few EDT's and i really like them. ive always liked >hearing about other peopl. i know there are a LOT of people out there >that are so scared of there life and dont know what to do with there >problems that they forget about angels. Amanda....yeah, it's reminiscent of ASB, but sweet none-the-less :-) Before most of you were born Carol King wrote a classic, which was turned into a #1 hit by James Taylor in the early 1970's. This song has always had a special place in my heart. I'm certain many of you may have heard it, but if not, I hope you do so soon :-) Mike :-) You've Got A Friend by Carole King When you're down and troubled and you need a helping hand and nothing, whoa nothing is going right. Close your eyes and think of me and soon I will be there to brighten up even your darkest nights. You just call out my name, and you know where ever I am I'll come running, oh yeah baby to see you again. Winter, spring, summer, or fall, all you have to do is call and I'll be there, yeah, yeah, yeah. You've got a friend. If the sky above you should turn dark and full of clouds and that old north wind should begin to blow Keep your head together and call my name out loud and soon I will be knocking upon your door. You just call out my name and you know where ever I am I'll come running to see you again. Winter, spring, summer or fall all you got to do is call and I'll be there, yeah, yeah, yeah. Hey, ain't it good to know that you've got a friend? People can be so cold. They'll hurt you and desert you. Well they'll take your soul if you let them. Oh yeah, but don't you let them. You just call out my name and you know wherever I am I'll come running to see you again. Oh babe, don't you know that, Winter spring summer or fall, Hey now, all you've got to do is call. Lord, I'll be there, yes I will. You've got a friend. You've got a friend. Ain't it good to know you've got a friend. Ain't it good to know you've got a friend. You've got a friend.  : \    / :                    -- o -- :                      /    \ :                             .---.           .---. :                           /      \  @    /      \ :                         / / /     \(   ) /    \ \  \ :                       //////  /    '     `       --\\\\ :                     / /   /  / :         :   --\  \  \ \ :                    //  / /   /   /`     \     --\\ \   \\ :                  / /   /  /  / /  . .  . \ \  \    \   \ \                     We are everyday angels. :) ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 17 Aug 1998 19:03:10 -0500 From: Summer Burton Subject: Re: ET: to all the angels who are scared... Mike Connell wrote: > Before most of you were born Carol King wrote a classic, which was turned > into a #1 hit by James Taylor in the early 1970's. This song has always had > a special place in my heart. I'm certain many of you may have heard it, but > if not, I hope you do so soon :-) Indeed I was born before Carol King wrote the song, but it's still one of my favorites. :-) Thanks for sending the lyrics, they brightened my day. May the classics live forever (pushing Bob Dylan's Desire into my CD player). Jewel and a ton of other artists everyone listens to today are only able to be heard cause of the road being paved by people like Carol King, Joni Mitchell and even boys like Dylan and James Taylor. - -Summer ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 17 Aug 1998 20:14:04 -0700 From: moonsong@ix.netcom.com (Us) Subject: ET: whoah Heya, Hmmm ok in that poem about me there were a looooot of type-os. (What can I say? It was long.) In: in a room with a gray karpet of course it's "carpet" When I was 4 or 4 is really "3 or 4" & he sand me to sleep is "sang" not "sand" Okay, now I'm off to read some poems and comment on 'em. :) Lata! Sam the ? angel moonsong@ix.netcom.com ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V1 #121 **********************************