From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V1 #78 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Sunday, July 12 1998 Volume 01 : Number 078 Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: sig~sorry! [moonsong@ix.netcom.com (Us)] ET: not a poem...just something I need to vent [JonBoy911@aol.com] ET: seems we all get lost.... [gosiam@juno.com] ET: Re: eda-thoughts-digest V1 #77 [ib-3@juno.com (names are superfluous ] ET: so I havent written for a while.... ["Kerry *jo*" ] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Fri, 10 Jul 1998 21:49:02 -0700 From: moonsong@ix.netcom.com (Us) Subject: ET: sig~sorry! Hey, My brother put this STUPID signature on our email without even telling us~~sorry bout that angels! Sam the ? angel moonsong@ix.netcom.com ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 11 Jul 1998 04:02:24 EDT From: JonBoy911@aol.com Subject: ET: not a poem...just something I need to vent Well, Jamie will be surprised to see this, as she has been away for quite awhile, but I have a date Monday. First one in quite awhile. She's a friend of a friend, and she's really cool, and really beautiful. I was all psyched about it until tonight...... I was invited to a party tonight at my friend Amy's house. I was invited basically to be a designated driver since it's a known fact I don't drink. Well.....at about 11, I had been there for 2 hours, and not havin much fun, my stomache was hurting. My good buddy Pat says to me, "Jon, Katie Dickens is here," So, I stand up from the couch and make my pursuit. Pat knows that I like Katie a lot, so he is being a friend. :) He points me towards the kitchen and I see her. My first thought is to run up and give her a hug. But then I think, "I have called her several times this summer, and she hasn't returned my calls, I should wait for her to make the first move." So, there is one person to my left in between Katie and me. I see Josh across the kitchen, and I knew he was looking for the phone earlier so I say, "Josh!, Did you find the phone?" and he says no man. Then I hear a, "Jon Hamilton!!!" and I turn and there's Katie giving me a hug. She explains that she lost my number, and that is why she hadn't been calling me back. So, we duck into the next room and find a piece of paper, so I can give her my digits. Awhile later I am in the backyard and I am talking to people and Katie walks up to me. We start talking. She squeezes my hand and we "have a moment". That;s the only way I can describe it. We didn't kiss. It was better than a kiss. For that brief moment I felt safe, you know? Then I said, "You have a boyfriend don't you?" then she said, "Yes." And she walked away. I left a few minutes later and didn't see her again tonight. I decided I need to tell her how crazy I am for her. See, we went on a date awhile back, and then she started going out with this other guy 2 days later, and that really messed me up, and right now my head is swimming. What should I do? Well, I am going to tell her how I feel, and I need to do it before Monday, since I have a date with Rae then. AHH!!!!! Jon ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 11 Jul 1998 11:09:30 -0500 From: gosiam@juno.com Subject: ET: seems we all get lost.... hi all.. i have been really wanting to go away on vacation for a while. by myself. like to nyc, i remember when i used to live there. it was soo awesome. anyway, i have another couple of poems, one is about an alcoholic. it's called cry. the war, is about well, war. about a sufferer, and a wounded person. forever stay is a love poem. i have this feeling every time i write a love poem, i feel really pissed off for writing it. it seems to me that, all the love poems i write are the same. oh, well. enemy is kind funny at the end, i wrote it about this girl at school that thinks she's better than everyone else, and that everyone loves, and adores her. - --------------------------------------- enemy when i see you you make my insides burn the way your eyes dart a room is there anything beyond appearance in you? when i catch your gaze you seem upset i know its more than that the way you flirt, and the way you dress makes me think of you even less you are nothing in my world nothing what-so-ever you always think that you are better the way you walk with pride makes me walk with even more you think you are so damn adored but your yesterdays news and by the way, you need new shoes... 7-8 - -------------------------------------- cry every time you cry, it makes me cry even more to see the one that i adore on their knees begging and pleading for more your face says nothing instead your soul does all the talking your dressed in black i don't have to ask about that i already know what your thinking and how you wish to stop drinking one is never enough its always been this tough through your eyes all i sense are lies but these are really cries, cries of pain, sorrow and no gain in life. 7-8 - --------------------------------------- the war the message is said but the words are dead you can't realize not even sympathize the life is unknown the soul unheard of the wind whirs around and me fall to the ground the prayers and the mercy are said to be the things that make you see the life that should be free instead is enraptured and tortured the tears drop down and make me frown the sun rises and a new day begins 7-9 - ------------------------------------------ forever stay i see you walking and i see your face i want to be in your embrace to hear the words softly whispered in my ear for my heart to hear to be so close to you without anything to fear your touch makes my heart skip a beat makes me feel somehow complete your eyes look into mine and they let me know all is fine the times we spend are like eternity to you and me your kisses take me to another world all i can do is hope and pray that you'll forever stay 7-7 well, that's it.. bye all!! p.s. are there any xfiles fans on this list? if so email me!! we'll talk xfiles style! ;) *extraterrestrial angel* _____________________________________________________________________ You don't need to buy Internet access to use free Internet e-mail. Get completely free e-mail from Juno at http://www.juno.com Or call Juno at (800) 654-JUNO [654-5866] ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 11 Jul 1998 11:26:25 -0500 From: ib-3@juno.com (names are superfluous and irrelevant) Subject: ET: Re: eda-thoughts-digest V1 #77 >Part Two: The Reality Letter > >Well, before you read these poems, let down your shades, light a >candle, >burn some incense, make yourself a garland from spring flowers, and >imagine >you cannot control your future and can do nothing but accept.... You >have >been so brainwashed and prodded and have tricked yourself into >believing so >much that you really aren't anymore, all you can do is surrender.... So how would that be different from normal? For example, last night, I was sitting in my room until about 3 am cutting words and phrases out of magazines in an attempt to write a poem...it's not done yet, b/c I got tired from cutting. :) Anyway, I had incense burning, and a lamp on...so basically, my room was about as light as a closet with a lighter lit in it... I haven't written much, b/c I'm working on this really long epic poem...about masters and students and death and succession and age with wisdom. _____ If a little dreaming is dangerous, the cure for it is not to dream less but to dream more, to dream all the time. _____ James _____________________________________________________________________ You don't need to buy Internet access to use free Internet e-mail. Get completely free e-mail from Juno at http://www.juno.com Or call Juno at (800) 654-JUNO [654-5866] ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 11 Jul 1998 10:40:01 PDT From: "Kerry *jo*" Subject: ET: so I havent written for a while.... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! sorry just had to get that out! Life is so crazy and it just brings me down to the point where i dont believe I will ever be able to make it back up. Most of you probably dont care...I wrote to this list about ONCE and I have just been sitting back reading your poems and crying. All of your poems amaze me, in fact...they never sease to amaze me. Life is crazy like that. So why am I writing to this list anywayz?? Well I just needed to get some things off my chest about my life...Here, I will give you an introduction, MOst of you probably arent even reading this anymore but, thats ok, its my chance to say something so I will say it. HI! My name is Kerry my friends call me Jo I am a 17 year old female living in a state I shouldn't be in. Most people would classify me as a manic deppressive, I think I am just stuipid. In all honsety I hate myself, I am never satisfyed with anything I do or accomplish. I guess I am Just wierd that way. I dont consider myself pretty at all...I have had modeling jobs and offers but, I just dont want them... thats not me, and I dont have enough self esteem. I dont know how to fix all this. I dont know what to do. Everynight I cry myself to sleep listening to Jewel's 'Angel Standing By' hoping I really do have an angel who will guide me to the next morning. I write poetry but, not very well...its not touching or beautiful like many of yours are, I guess you could say I am jealous of all of yours talents. I lost 9 people to death this year who were very close to me...6 of which were very close to my age. My brother is 21 and is a raging alcoholic and beats me up all the time. My dad is an over zealous mormon who turned into one only after coming damn close to killing me in a car accident cos he had drank to much, he was an alcoholic also. My mother and step-dad live together in happiness it seems nothin can bring them down, they have it all...multi-milionairs succesful companies, artist, writer I look at them in disgust, they dont give a damn I am alive. I lost my three best friends this year to high school and guys. It sucks. I have all these opnions no one seems to give a damn about and I feel like I am loosing touch with my not-all-together sanity. I am sorry, maybe I shouldn't have wrote this. You probably think I am selfish and none of you give a shit. I will go. Thanks for the space Kerry*jo* an angel who doesnt know what the world is about - ----------------------------------------------------------- "I believe in Angels, I believe that in my lonliest times I have not really been alone, That no one really is." ~Jewel **Visit my web site =0) make sure to sign the guestbook!!! http://www.angelfire.com/ut/intrepiddreamer ______________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com ------------------------------ Date: Sat, 11 Jul 1998 20:54:44 -0700 From: Karen Miller Subject: ET: here's another poem Well Once again I have a sad love poem for all you peeps. Oh and beware it is very grafic so beware little ones. Here ya go.... It has been 3 hours now since you left my side. I yurn for your touch to feel your strong arms around me to feel you on my naked body controlling me and caressing me so very seductively. The way you kiss or the way you hold my naked body so gently and so very carefully. The way your hands would move all over my body and how we had with hold are urge to pull each other together even more. How you lips would reach my breast and kiss them and caress them so very well I would moan from the pleasure........ but now that is all gone you have gone and left me alone...... why? holly The ANgel in Disctice ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V1 #78 *********************************