From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V1 #68 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Thursday, July 2 1998 Volume 01 : Number 068 Today's Subjects: ----------------- ET: just a couple of ed thoughts [Bebe838@aol.com] ET: poems ["* Jewel *" ] ET: A very sad yet pathetic story [Karen Miller ] Re: ET: A very sad yet pathetic story ["Seth D. Fulmer" Subject: ET: poems Well, angelz, here's some new poems: *~Scatter The Ashes Of Yesterday~* Everything seemed so right, So sureal- Heavenly. I thought the Heavens never crumble! Why did mine?! Now all I can do Is scatter the ashes Of yesterday, And watch my memories and love Crash into Salty waves Of endless sobs... *~Silent Heart~* I want you to think I no longer love you, I no longer wish to kiss your lips, I don't miss our endless talks, I don't want you to hold me, I don't give a damn when you don't call. So, I'll tell them I'm over you. But damnit! My soul can't help but tingle At every reminder Of your existence! But I realize You're way over me. So I'll take my feelings, And cast them Into a sea of silence- Where no one can touch them, Where no one can see, All the memories and desires Buried deep within me... Hope all is well angels. Stay sweet and poetic O:) Love Always, *~Kristen~* {{ThE aNgEl StAnDiNg By}} ______________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com ------------------------------ Date: Wed, 1 Jul 1998 14:43:18 -0700 From: Karen Miller Subject: ET: A very sad yet pathetic story hello everyone, ok so all my life i have tried to be myslef to be happy to goof off to = be like a normal person then i always find somethign topicka t about = myslef like howi look or howi dress or the fact i dont have a chest. So = all mt 14 years 8 of them i haver been clinincly depressed and right now = i dont mind so much about how i look i just want to know that i'm not = alone int he looks thing because in my school if you dont have the looks = your not datable and i want someone to like me for me. hell i dont even = know why i wrote this. probaly o have you writers say that you know how = i feel or something. i hope someone reads this blessed be holly ------------------------------ Date: Wed, 01 Jul 1998 20:17:58 -0400 From: "Seth D. Fulmer" Subject: Re: ET: A very sad yet pathetic story At 02:43 PM 7/1/98 -0700, Karen Miller wrote: >hello everyone, > ok so all my life i have tried to be myslef to be happy to goof off to = >be like a normal person then i always find somethign topicka t about = >myslef like howi look or howi dress or the fact i dont have a chest. So = >all mt 14 years 8 of them i haver been clinincly depressed and right now = >i dont mind so much about how i look i just want to know that i'm not = >alone int he looks thing because in my school if you dont have the looks = >your not datable and i want someone to like me for me. hell i dont even = >know why i wrote this. probaly o have you writers say that you know how = >i feel or something. i hope someone reads this Holly, Don't feel bad about your looks. In High School(HS), I never gave a *&$# about how I looked and when I started College the beginning of last year, I took a look at myself and thought I looked pretty pathetic...I had my socks all pushed up through HS, didn't care if my hair was combed; my face looked like the moon with craters and acne...still does in a way. In personality, I was nice as cherry pie with pudding, but people would see the messed up hair, the mismatched clothing, the acne on the face, the socks pulled knee-high and wouldn't go any farther. Even now, I pull my socks up to my knees still every now and again just because it's "me". Of course, it's also natural to get depressed about what's not right in life. I always say that I have a square head and that it should be more egg-shaped. I say that I want less broad of shoulders and that I want to be a foot taller. I can speak in 4 languages(2 fluently), sing in a broad range of frequencies(tenor, alto, soprano, bass). I can change my personality for whomever I'm around and get myself out of most situations with ease. I guess I'm saying that I think you should look at the things that you LIKE about yourself and make them more than the things you DON'T LIKE. I've found that although some people will like you for "you", that's not the standard and with some people, I've had to give myself an ego about myself for them to hang out with me. My reasoning has always been "Why would anyone in their right mind that isn't drunk off their arse go out with a horrible monster who could scare the skin off a skinless toad with just a blink of his eye on his zit-infested face from behind a thick steel wall?" But if you're polite and the people you're trying to date are mature to a degree, that reasoning is meaningless because they'll see past appearance and look for personality. I personally look for the less popular people first because they're the ones that are nicer and who won't stab you in the back at the first opportunity they can for more friends and more popularity. I hope you feel better and I wasn't trying to lecture. In fact I hope I haven't messed up my entire point...I'm basically saying that I know what you're feeling and You're never alone. Take care of yourself and Have a Great Day!! :) Seth Fulmer A.K.A. "The Angel that thinks too much" mailto:usfulmer@mcs.drexel.edu Cool Quote of the Day/week/timeperiod of your choice: "And I'm sorry I didn't always have a match That could start a fire big enough for your heart to catch." - Jewel Kilcher ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V1 #68 *********************************