From: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org (eda-thoughts-digest) To: eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Subject: eda-thoughts-digest V1 #3 Reply-To: eda-thoughts@smoe.org Sender: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-eda-thoughts-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk eda-thoughts-digest Thursday, April 23 1998 Volume 01 : Number 003 Today's Subjects: ----------------- [none] [Candi Friend ] ET: poem ["* Jewel *" ] ET: The Silent Stereotype... ["Ryan Wyche" ] ET: My intro o: ) [Lucky997 ] ET: another poem [Damian Daigle ] ET: today's post and comments... [uranium_eagle@juno.com (Issac J Brogdon] ET: More Yahoo Mail [Lara ] ET: Yahoo Mail [Lara ] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Tue, 21 Apr 1998 21:23:39 -0700 From: Candi Friend Subject: [none] Hi :) I think i have only posted on here once, mostly because i dont write poems but i love to read them. Anyhow, i thought i would throw in my two cents and say that i was in a long distance relationship, we met on irc in March of 96 and then met in person last summer. The story so far has been happy. We had our moments on irc, but now he is living in San Diego with me (not with me, but near me) and going to school close to me. Just wanted to tell people who are in ld relationships now, have a little faith and if it was meant to be...it will happen. (believe me) Also, if there is anyone in the San Diego area, email me and maybe we can get together for some good music at java joes or something. Candi ------------------------------ Date: Tue, 21 Apr 1998 21:23:58 PDT From: "* Jewel *" Subject: ET: poem Hey guyz...I tried to write a few dayz ago but I don't think it went through so if you hear a poem or 2 over again...sorry. Anyways, me and my boyfriend split up and things are BAD. I cry all the time. I miss him so much. Now we're "friends". Things are really hard to deal with lately. My world is crushed. Everything is so damn complicated. I'm hurting bad. So, I write poetry and listen to Jewel. *sigh* Well, I'll talk to you all L8er....take care. Love Always, *~Kristen~* {{ThE aNgEl StAnDiNg By}} PS: I noticed that "EVERY" poem I've written is sad. So, sorry about that...guess my life sorta sux right now... Hurt - ---- My heart is spilt Numb eyes Of salty tears My fears Came true Maybe I knew That you could never love me You I love you... And still do Good Enough - ----------- Sorry I could never be "good enough" for you That I could never meet your expectations Of perfection Maybe I knew That no matter how hard I tried You could not accept me I'm not mad at you I'm just a soul of hurt Lost and unwanted A pool of tears With no place to drop... Always Here 4/20/98 - ------------------- Every glance I make towards you My heart splits into two Every "Hello" hurts so bad An incision piercing my heart That makes me oh so sad; So, you say you "care" Then why, Brad Why aren't you here-- Holding my hand Clasping my waist Kissing my lips Tasting my taste; Sno now we're "just friends" With a bubble of past I sit an d ponder On whether "this" will last I will always love you Even though you're not there Because that bubble sits in my heart So that you'll always be here... - --------------------------------------------------------------------- "Its hard to stare at you, knowing you like I have, I used to feel so close, now I feel so bad...." ~Jewel~ - --------------------------------------------------------------------- ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* ICQ UIN #: 2838979 AOL Instant Messenger: jeweljk15 Email: Kristenluv@hotmail.com ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* ______________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com ------------------------------ Date: Wed, 22 Apr 1998 02:41:28 +0000 From: "Ryan Wyche" Subject: ET: The Silent Stereotype... Hello there, I just read the post from **alien**, and wanted to send you a little support and understanding if you care for any. I was going to send a personal responce, then I realized this subject of depression is not new to the list, or many of us on it I'm sure. So I'm going to send this out to all of you if you care to read it... Just some of my thoughts, and a related poem... Yes, other people have felt like that, most people do at one point or another in life, but not always to the same extent as some of us. I guess that depression is one of the common "side-effects" if you will, to being an "I'm Sensitive" type of person. Other common side effects are not so frustrating though... We very same people often turn out to find we are any or all of the following... A Dreamer... A Lover... An Artist... A writer... A Thinker... A Poet... An Actor... ...or anything else we may wish to become. Yes, Depression can hurt, I know that very well from experiences with it on and off over the years, but I almost always learn something, or take a large step in life when I come to the end of a down spell. Having recognized this pattern, I've eventually come to embrace the down times as I understand them better, work my way through them faster, and I'm always anxious to see what awaits me at the end. That's right, it really can be a GOOD thing! Take Jewel for instance... Working dead end jobs, and being frustrated with the struggle for existance? This brings familiar feelings to mind for me... What did she do? She worked through it, learned from it, and moved into her van so that she could apply more energy to the passions of her life, like singing, Poetry, people, etc... And look what can happen when you follow your dreams!! I've learned a lot so far in my 23 years, much of which has been new to me in the last 3 or 4 years, but I couldn't be the person I'm so proud of being without having gone through those years, even if they were very difficult times to face. I guess I'll wrap this up, but before I close with a poem, I just want to invite anyone who wants to talk person to person about things that they have been or are currently going through in life. Send me e-mail, or if you are on ICQ, we could set up some time to chat directly. I know how many people helped me get through my rough times, including Jewel and other artists, and now I am always happy to give of my time if it means I can help someone else the same way. Take care of yourselves, love yourselves, and be proud of who you are. And that's not just when you're down, that's every day... Untitled Will you let it overcome you? Will you let it change your life? Will you let the things it makes you feel Determine wrong from right? When you need something to turn to, But ignore your family's love; Do you reach from drugs or alcohol As an artificial dove? Will you let it overcome you? Will you let is snuff your life? Will you dwell on those dark feelings 'Til you've locked out all the light? When the days are always longer, And you're hanging by a rope; What will it take to make you see The faintest spark of hope? Well now you have reached the bottom. It's a dark and somber place. Pray that you accept the sleep As it decends upon your face. Will you let them guide your future? Will you let them give new life? Will you let your dreams break free? Or stay entombed within the night... Tatasa 4-20-98 "Your life becomes what you believe" -Jewel Make your life extraordinary! Tatasa Ever wonder Who is Tatasa Anyway? http://www.geocities.com/Yosemite/Trails/4250/ ICQ# 6915755 ------------------------------ Date: Wed, 22 Apr 1998 15:49:04 EDT From: Lucky997 Subject: ET: My intro o: ) Hey~I just joined this list, after hearing about it on the edajewel list...Jamie (Angeljlb96) sent me a lot of the old digests and I just finished reading them all...you guys are so great! You're all so sweet, and friendly and intersting, I know I am going to love all of you. So anyway, this was an introduction...My name is Melissa,I'm almost 16,I live in Suburban New Jersey, but like Rebecca I am a city person too. I love New York City, Boston, and San Francisco...I'm really liberal and open-minded...I love to read (especially Kurt Vonnegut) and write...especially poetry, I'll post some soon...I am pretty natural, I don't wear make up or anything...I love my friends..I love music a lot- especially Jewel, of course, but I also like Dave Matthews Band, Indigo Girls, Barenaked Ladies,Steve Poltz, Fiona Apple, Sarah McLachlan, Tracey Chapman, Bob Dylan and a lot of other musicians...I love LOVE, everything about it...except that yucky empty feeling when it's over...Wow, this is longer than I thought it was going to be...Love, Melissa ------------------------------ Date: Wed, 22 Apr 1998 16:14:18 -0500 From: Damian Daigle Subject: ET: another poem hey! how are all of you today? well while i was drifting of to dreamland last night i felt an urge to write something.... well this is it... for me being a guy, this poem may sound a little gay or whatever but it's true... with you in my arms the world ceases to be people vanish distractions contain themselves just you and i souls coincide i venture through you and you in me all in the simplicity of a touch, a feel, an emotion. felt by us shared with none to flourish in these caverns of ourselves. lying motionless, tongue speechless, no better conversation taking place. my arms around yours so gentle and fragile to protect to delicacy contained there in bodies separated, souls entangled, completion of a perfect being all this in the simplicity of a touch, a feel, an emotion. well that's it...thanks for reading it... well opinions are welcome if you feel obligated. well thanks again... bye and keep dreaming...never wake up me, damian ------------------------------ Date: Wed, 22 Apr 1998 16:55:06 -0500 From: uranium_eagle@juno.com (Issac J Brogdon) Subject: ET: today's post and comments... Well, for all of you out there who like to write (let's see, that's everyone) If you ever cover poetry in your english/lit. class, don't get too excited. the *authors* in my class all felt that we definately over-analyzed the poems that we covered and that it definately degraded the value of the poem. To the general audience of the class, well, they saw actual meaning in the poems for the first time and liked it, but not me. REDUNDANCY! Anyway, I finally got over Angela only to discover the VERY NEXT DAY that she's now going out with some guy. Well, last night before i found out, i wrote this... Blood of my pschye leaving behind a piece of my heart sould and experiences i will never forget chapter closing in my life more opportunity lost but nothing i'll regret everything i'll leave behind won't add up to anything more than a one line detail in the fourteenth chapter of your autobiography like an artist's signature in the corner of a painting insignificant detail, but i'll always know that it's there thanx, babe, for putting me back in my place on this, the twenty first day of april, nineteen ninety eight _____ There is something wonderful about seeing a wrong-headed majority assailed by what I have to say. - --me _____ james _____________________________________________________________________ You don't need to buy Internet access to use free Internet e-mail. Get completely free e-mail from Juno at http://www.juno.com Or call Juno at (800) 654-JUNO [654-5866] ------------------------------ Date: Wed, 22 Apr 1998 19:34:47 -0700 From: Lara Subject: ET: More Yahoo Mail To: "EDA thoughts" Date: Tue, 21 Apr 1998 19:41:00 -0700 From: "Christie Ambert" Subject: (No Subject) Organization: MailCity (http://www.mailcity.com:80) oh well im trying to b happy.my dad is trying to be funny, but he not. i had a really bad day at work, ppl kept yelling at me for no reason.I havent been able to write much but im still writing. I like to say hi to Lsra and naomi and james and basicly everybody at the list. you guys give me stregth...love you all Christie the flowerchild angel ------------------------------ Date: Wed, 22 Apr 1998 19:32:54 -0700 From: Lara Subject: ET: Yahoo Mail hey guys -- please remember the new posting address is eda-thoughts@smoe.org!! Thanks! - -Lara ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ Date: Tue, 21 Apr 1998 22:06:42 -0700 To: eda_thoughts@yahoo.com From: moonsong@ix.netcom.com (Us) Add to Address Book Subject: ladida Hey again, Soooooooo! You want happy, do you? Sorry to say that I often write poems when I feel down, it's like a release for me. But I'll search for a cheerful one though WARNING they may be *ahem* *ahem* corny. I really like writing about flowers, though. (You wouldn't believe, I have poems everywhere--pockets in diaries, folders, corners of drawers, loose-leaf notebooks, etc.). In the meantime....Here's one. (There will probably be some more after it because I'm gonna look for some happier ones and type them up.) Sam the ? angel - ----~~---- no title sm, 04-18-98 you were there when it happened and you were there when it died you stood right beside me you comforted while i cried you never said 'i told you so' but understood all my hurt you said they say those things and we tried so to make it work you nodded when i fell apart and you said we deserve more you sighed when i said how he always would adore you showed me reality kills and though hope remains no more can be expected we can never be the same ~~~~--~~~~ Rennucula's SM 3-19-97 Flowers so distinct and unique with long curving stems their petald gently curling and delicate flowing arrays of petals or only a few simply blooming in a pastel of colors ##~~## A Thunderstorm SM 6-6-97 poppies bloom in a flower field of gold as the wind rustles through the grass shadows sweep over the silky hills as sunlight flickers and grows dim clouds roll in from a salty sea as the bright blue sky turns to gray and tiny droplets glance onto golden petals roll down wavy stems and blades of grass the thunder rumbles in the distance as brightness like a flash of sun lights up poppies gold then the loud thunder makes petals tremble and rain grows steadier and pounding the sky darkens more and freshness fills the air as the flower field is cleansed with raindrops TELL ME YOUR THOUGHTS!!! =) Email to moonsong@ix.netcom.com. moonsong@ix.netcom.com ------------------------------ End of eda-thoughts-digest V1 #3 ********************************