From: owner-angry-psychos-digest@smoe.org (angry-psychos-digest) To: angry-psychos-digest@smoe.org Subject: angry-psychos-digest V5 #345 Reply-To: angry-psychos@smoe.org Sender: owner-angry-psychos-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-angry-psychos-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk X-To-Unsubscribe: Send mail to "angry-psychos-digest-request@smoe.org" X-To-Unsubscribe: with "unsubscribe" as the body. angry-psychos-digest Thursday, December 28 2000 Volume 05 : Number 345 Today's Subjects: ----------------- WCAP party [raymond lew ] NPR: bassist [raymond lew ] AP in GA ["Juan Torres" ] most wanted ["monkeygrrl66 _" ] My friend Brian (Pett). Killed Himself One Week Ago. (fwd) [Cyberfan Cor] Re: angry-psychos-digest V5 #343 [LiveThruThisVow@aol.com] Re: My friend Brian (Pett). Killed Himself One Week Ago. (fwd) ["Crissy F] Re: angry-psychos-digest V5 #344 [leah staub ] Re: Poe and Everlast [Dracovixen@aol.com] Re: Poe and Everlast [KoZmiCbLUe72@aol.com] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Wed, 27 Dec 2000 05:04:45 -0800 (PST) From: raymond lew Subject: WCAP party hey everyone, ok, the groundwork for the WCAP party is slowly (but surely) being made. if you haven't joined the WCAP group yet...what are you waiting for?!?! that's where we're doing all the planning! if any other regional AP groups are planning events, maybe you could send some input/suggestions my way or to the list. thanks! ...ray west coast angry psychos >> www.egroups.com/group/wcap ------------------------------ Date: Wed, 27 Dec 2000 05:09:04 -0800 (PST) From: raymond lew Subject: NPR: bassist hey, i'm trying to get a band together...i was wondering if any of you know of any bassists in the los angeles area. we've got a low-key, radiohead-coldplay-john lennon-esque sound. kinda like thom yorke doing a bad impression of john lennon. yeah. ...ray ------------------------------ Date: Wed, 27 Dec 2000 08:29:13 -0500 From: "Juan Torres" Subject: AP in GA I need for all the AP's in Georgia to email me.... I'd like to get to know each and every one of you...Poe is by far one of the best singers I've heard, so get in touch and lets chat...later AP'S... _____________________________________________________________________________________ Get more from the Web. FREE MSN Explorer download : http://explorer.msn.com ------------------------------ Date: Wed, 27 Dec 2000 13:42:02 -0000 From: "monkeygrrl66 _" Subject: most wanted would the owner of the address of sculder@poe.org please contact me. a thanks is in order, but this e-mail didn't work. _________________________________________________________________ Get your FREE download of MSN Explorer at http://explorer.msn.com ------------------------------ Date: Wed, 27 Dec 2000 16:24:13 +0000 (GMT) From: Cyberfan Corporation Subject: My friend Brian (Pett). Killed Himself One Week Ago. (fwd) 12.26.00 My friend Brian (Pett). Killed Himself One Week Ago. *** I can't explain the interesting pain I feel. When I met him, he was working at a company called GetNet. He was a wiz. Smart... Versed in computers... The original shit!!! His talents were beyond his understanding. He is now dead at 24. ********************************************************************* TO ALL: I have felt the pain of living. I made it through that frustration more than once. My envy of this man's ability, in a subject that I was interested in, is the crushing part. It rips me up inside... This was not a life long friend. This was a short blip in friends... A business associate at an internet firm in 1995. So... Not So ! ! ! A massive part of me has now died. My eyes get cloudy and my hear gets grey thinking of the pain that is strickened to the parents. As much as you don't love parents, they love you! DEAL WITH IT >>>>>>>> ___ Brian was 19 then. 19. He made lots of money over his life. Had his own house, nice car, would buy rounds of drinks. Lah, Lah, Lah... He never sounded sad, kept it to himself... Tried to figure it out on his own!!! That is the mind of a computer man, and he was in it deep. Self-Taught. Gifted. He had a fascination with guns, it made sense. This was a person, in his right mind, could bring the internet to a slow crawl. ___ My story is not a new one, suicides come and go. Think of all of the friends and people you like, that ones you talked to in the past. Just think of the masses that you have touched and affected with your presence... You kind of expect them to be alive, because you are alive. Well that is not the case, and I feel the effects of that reality. In 30 years of my life I haven't understood my existence and necessity to prolong my life, until I was told that Pett Executed Himself. ___ My only true experience with suicide was at 15 and I had the shotgun unloaded. Shells in hand, mom asleep in her bed, thoughts-a-racing and I wrote a note and said how much I wanted to kill myself. Could not see the light of living. The process. The misunderstandings. 15... 30 Now. The thought of suicide is thinning, but it never goes away. As I mature, I get more interested in the fun of LIVING A JOURNEY. If you want to feel the gift of living, get a dog from the pound. Feel the love of living... Excitement... The safety in your own heart that though you can't understand, you can live. And you can die -- It is not for you to decide. Infact, it is not to decide. Our complicated world has checks and balances. Natural Disasters are a perfect example... Acts of God (to some) and "time to go" to others. I think that a plane crash is an equally good example. To some, the elements that make-up the plane are acts of God... And everything that God has made is not perfect and uniform. THAT IS WHAT MAKES THE VALUE OF YOUR EXISTENCE. The fact that you are not perfect and uniform. If you relly want to die, keep acting on good faith... Not Godly faith, but the faith that what you are doing (in life) is a process of killing yourself. Choose your path. Keep choosing new paths. Each has an undefined reward. And an undefined cost. But to selectively choose to be killed and not let yourself be killed by the forces of Earth is the issue at hand. Earth will kill you... Other people will kill you. You to kill you is unfair and boring. What challenge do you give yourself... Life = Challenge. That is clear from birth!!! __________________________________________________________________ I am sad by the loss of a friend. A person with so much talent and appreciation for his moment... To never see his image again makes me cry. Walking the Earth. Never again. Laughing. Never again. Kissing a girl. Never again. Finding a dollar in a Circle-K parking lot. Never again. Have a jamboree with 10 friends. Never again. The discussions of changing the internet. Never again. The laughter I get because of his presence. Never Again. To be the person he is in the World. Never Again. I could be that person. *************************************************** JK/// Jarrod Kniff jarrod@domainevolution.com *** http://www.darkmother.com/nspd.html National Suicide Prevention Directory ______________________________________________________________________ Please share this story with others... Call your friends and tell them you love them. Say... "If you ever think of killing yourself, even think... Call me. " Or send them this email. The world is a tough place, and if you can't count on a friend, you are already dead. ______________________________________________________________________ ------------------------------ Date: Wed, 27 Dec 2000 10:28:04 EST From: LiveThruThisVow@aol.com Subject: Re: angry-psychos-digest V5 #343 > Am I the only person to find LTCleo a *little bit* cheesy? Maybe its just > because I particularly liked them at such a young age. But they kind of > make > Definitly agreed. I never got into that whole Save Ferris/ Letters to Cleo thing... But I will shamefully admit to liking No Doubt. I wouldn't like the idea of Poe opening up for Pearl Jam because then Eddie Vedder would let Poe play for 15 minutes and then HE would do a 3 hour concert just like he did with Sonic Youth. ~*~ Fade, made the fade, passion's overrated anyway~ Massive Attack ~*~ Grow up and be a man, drop dead right where I stand~ Hole ------------------------------ Date: Wed, 27 Dec 2000 19:22:49 -0800 From: "Crissy Fletcher" Subject: Re: My friend Brian (Pett). Killed Himself One Week Ago. (fwd) my grandpa died on Xmas at 4:02 pm, hows that for a xmas present. Crissy _________________________________________________________________ Get your FREE download of MSN Explorer at http://explorer.msn.com ------------------------------ Date: Wed, 27 Dec 2000 23:47:27 -0500 From: leah staub Subject: Re: angry-psychos-digest V5 #344 At 01:30 AM 12/27/00 -0500, you wrote: >At any rate, originaly, I guess someb0die asked if any "MAJOR" stations are >playing POE. > >How about are there ANY on the air radio OR on the internet outlets for the >music of POE that you are aware of? If so please POST it to the list!!!! > 88.5 wxpn philadelphia (88.1 wxph harrisburg 90.5 wkhf worton/baltimore) mostly i hear haunted but last week (?) i heard "if you were here" on "the quiet sounds of sleepy hollow" saturday morning. actually, i think it was two weeks ago. xpn is "member-supported non-commercial radio from the university of pennsylvania" and it rocks but it's also not what i would call "college radio" at all....i don't know what the deal is with penn, but they certainly don't have college students doing anything on-air (except sometimes for two hours sunday night/monday morning at like 1 or something)....anyway, i don't know if anyone really cares but if you do you can check out www.xpn.org it's a pretty awesome station and you can listen online too AND starting at 6 tomorrow morning they're doing the top 50 albums of 2000--they play all albums in their entirety. i don't know anything about cd burners but if you could record like tape player/radio things...you're bound to find some good stuff from tomorrow to new years eve. i'll post if "haunted" makes the list. i voted for her. we'll see how smart philly folks really are. psycho hugs all, leah ------------------------------ Date: Wed, 27 Dec 2000 23:57:11 EST From: Dracovixen@aol.com Subject: Re: Poe and Everlast My opinion is that I only like one of Everlast's songs. I don't like any others, so I would go for Poe only, and feel like the other part of the show is a waste. That's my personal opinion. Black Dove ------------------------------ Date: Thu, 28 Dec 2000 01:06:50 EST From: KoZmiCbLUe72@aol.com Subject: Re: Poe and Everlast ------------------------------ End of angry-psychos-digest V5 #345 ***********************************