From: owner-angry-psychos-digest@smoe.org (angry-psychos-digest) To: angry-psychos-digest@smoe.org Subject: angry-psychos-digest V5 #336 Reply-To: angry-psychos@smoe.org Sender: owner-angry-psychos-digest@smoe.org Errors-To: owner-angry-psychos-digest@smoe.org Precedence: bulk X-To-Unsubscribe: Send mail to "angry-psychos-digest-request@smoe.org" X-To-Unsubscribe: with "unsubscribe" as the body. angry-psychos-digest Tuesday, December 19 2000 Volume 05 : Number 336 Today's Subjects: ----------------- Re: angry-psychos-digest V5 #335 [UnionCityGarbage@aol.com] on being a girl, on being a boy [Thierry Pottier ] [none] [lookfine@caramail.com] NPR: help with punk/emo music ?? [Thinggeee@aol.com] Re: npr not so brief rant ["monkeygrrl66 _" ] RE: Paxil ["Lance" ] NPR: Firing up Johnette Napolitano [AT ] npr: hats off to Johnette [Peaceofpiedesign@aol.com] [none] ["Stephanie Ingraham" ] On being... [Thierry Pottier ] Re: This ought to fire things up.... [KoriG@aol.com] Re: Paxil [KoriG@aol.com] AOL6testpost [Davey08@aol.com] Somewhat Poe related ["Crazy Little" ] Re: Paxil [LoveJoy89@aol.com] One Of The MOST Requested Songs Of The Year ["sp00k@poe.org" ] Re: One Of The MOST Requested Songs Of The Year [KoriG@aol.com] RE: Somewhat Poe related ["Randall Cordero" ] RE: Somewhat Poe related ["monkeygrrl66 _" ] Re: Somewhat Poe related ["sp00k@poe.org" ] Re: Paxil [Satkins0902@aol.com] Re: CALIFORNIA AP's?? [Ricky ] Re: Somewhat Poe related [KrodKnid@aol.com] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 02:25:11 EST From: UnionCityGarbage@aol.com Subject: Re: angry-psychos-digest V5 #335 In a message dated 12/18/2000 12:35:17 AM Central Standard Time, owner-angry-psychos-digest@smoe.org writes: << Biologically, you're actually absolutely right. Scientists have done studies to show that women are actually the final choosers in a relationship. This is because they have more at risk, because if they get pregnant, they want to make sure the guy is responsible, has some degree of attractiveness, can support her and the child, etc... It truly is a purely biological thing. You see it out in the wild, too. Males will take any females they can get, as females are always looking for the better males. Sorry if that's a downer for some of you guys, but you will find someone who's standards you meet, because every female has different standards. Black Dove >> Ok so maybe someone has brought this up already (I just skim this list nowadays) but I tend to get a little bit offended when even females don't recognize that there are women out there that want booty. In *general* men are more sex-obsessed, but don't you think that has something to do with what their culture has presented to them as the standard attitude and behavior? It sounds like you read that 20 page long article that was printed in a TIME last year :) ...It could be so much easier on everyone if more women decided to go out and get laid when they felt like it instead of worrying about being branded as a whore. I think its a problem (not of yours, I mean of most females' general mentalities) that a lot of women will criticise men for their tendencies instead of ridding themselves of their own inhabitions. I honestly don't think my mind is THAT less dirty than the average guy. To whoever e-mailed me asking if I was Catholic, no I'm not, but my school is. I haven't slept in a while, I hope all that makes some kind of sense... - -Sarah ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 05:27:50 -0500 (EST) From: Thierry Pottier Subject: on being a girl, on being a boy Date: Sun, 17 Dec 2000 06:41:37 -0600 From: reese pepper Subject: on being a girl "i disagree with the opinion that being a girl in the dating scene is easier. i realize that y'all have to approach us, but the standing around trying to look approachable is really hard, too. also, guys get to CHOOSE who they want to talk to. we have to take whatever comes our way, usually chatting it up with an idiot who you wish would just leave. okay, so maybe you're the idiot. most girls are too nice (and enjoy being entertained too much) to shoot you down completely. so...get some balls. besides, who goes to bars with the goal of getting laid, anyways? go with the goal of getting drunk! and then rescue those poor girls from their boredom. they're WAITING for you to approach them.reesie p" Hi, poor bored girl, That's not so simple.... If I clearly understand, you figure out the boys-girls mating behaviour this way: girls wait to be chosen, and boys chose... You forget the fact that, at least, we only chose, we don't TAKE... You girls finally are those who say yes or no (usually NO !!!) (lol???) There was a french (absolutely not famous) new-wave song in the early 80's which title was: "femmes sous cellophane" (women under cellophane) (is cellophane the right english word to speak about that plastic film that wraps the goodies in the shops ? ) That song was talking about girls in the dancing room, exposed, waiting for boys to chose and invite one of them... And those who are not chosen will "wait for the next party in the hope of dancing"... It was a kind of feminist song, amongst other feminist songs of that period, asking for theirght for girls to have the right to be the one who choses... At this time, I believed that things could change, girls allowing themselves to take the risk to approach boys... The fact might be that you girls would like to chose, but maybe fear the answer, in case it might be "no". And as a boy, I can tell you that it really is something to fear: you declare your flame, or simply your desire, and if it works, then everything is OK... but when it's no, you don't know where to hide yourself, you fear about having broken a friendship which you cared of (and YOU are responsible of that, because YOU opened your mouth...) or you fear about being considered as an obsessed-by-sex boy, or you're afraid of having told to someone your deeper secret, and that person don't care about it, even is disapointed by your behaviour, and you stay there, exposed, your soul half-naked... It's a kind of protection that you loose... Imagine the day I told S. (well, I can say her name, you don't know her!) so, imagine the day I told Sandrine that I would miss her during the vacation, and she answered that she did not want me to tell her about that... Imagine how bad I felt... This never happens to girls, if they just wait for boys to "do the first step". I would have wished that she took the phone, in the evening, telling me that this would not change anything about our friendship/relationship... that she was not angry, that this didn't change the way she considered me... About one year later, (pregnant, she was not working, so I had not seen her for a while) I phoned her to invite her at the restaurant for noon, and she refused, because of what I once said... You girls are not exposed to that kind of things (though I'm sure you have to face your own problems). I could tell you as well about those long moments when we boys are wondering "Should I ? Should I not ?" I could tell you about those girls when we don't dare saying what we feel, and the feeling that we should have dared.... So please, baby, as I believe that I won't change your behaviour (i.e. you won't jump on your favorite boy to tell you how much you love/want/need/desire him), please Reesie darling, next time a boy tells you about his secret wishes, and if your answer is negative, be kind to him... Please take the phone, or a sheet of paper, and tell him that you're not angry/disapointed/... after him, because of what he has done, and that you would not have done, just because you're the girl and he's the boy, and it's the supposedly normal behaviour that boys do the first step... And next time you see me, which normally should not happen, please APPROACH me !!! Kisses where it hurts... Thierry "Stay gold, queen, you truly deserve to wear gold" Sophie Moleta ______________________________________________________ Bonte aux lettres - Caramail - http://www.caramail.com ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 11:30:51 GMT From: lookfine@caramail.com Subject: [none] ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 07:22:53 EST From: Thinggeee@aol.com Subject: NPR: help with punk/emo music ?? Is there anyone on the list who is really into punk/emo music that could help me figure out the band to a song that I have, but it's on a mix tape, and there is no band name or song title. I just have the lyrics. Momma Mary ((that psycho *Florida* burnout)) ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 13:15:46 -0000 From: "monkeygrrl66 _" Subject: Re: npr not so brief rant LOL! well, you gotta hand it to your dad for being sneaky enough to buy tickets off a scalper! he knew that would be the ultimate form of humiliation - hahahahaha - no wait, i guess i shouldn't be laughing at you for this...ah well, hahahahahahha.... >From: "Michael Munnis" >To: >Subject: Re: npr not so brief rant >Date: Sun, 17 Dec 2000 22:06:54 -0600 > > >Aaahhh...this reminds me of the time my parents forbid me to go see a GWAR >concert (way back when), but I snuck out anyways and went with my friends. >Here's where the psycho part comes in...my dad found out, went to the >concert, bought a scalper ticket and dragged me out of the concert in front >of my friends. I doubt anyone noticed, other than my friends, but boy was I >humiliated! I snuck out twice the next weekend while my dad was on a >business trip to see Murphy's Law and GWAR....man, those were the f'ing >days! > >Mike > >----- Original Message ----- >From: >To: >Sent: Sunday, December 17, 2000 9:11 PM >Subject: npr not so brief rant > > > > > > okay i'm really pissed off right now....this has no relevance to the >posts >or > > anything but here goes: I bought a $65 floor ticket for marilyn manson >and > > told my parents i had bought a ticket to go see cold and union >underground > > (an opening band and a band that was at the same venue a month or two >ago, > > just pulled it out of my ass because she knows who marilyn manson is >would > > never let her sweet christian scientist daughter go to his show-oh my!) > > anyway she decided not to let me go on the grounds that she is a stupid > > bitch. and don't contest me on that point (i.e. you ungrateful little >whore > > you!) because chances are that you have no idea what she's like. anyway >my >3 > > best friends went to the concert. i can't blame em, but i gave them my >ticket > > to sell at the door. so then i hear that they had found some people that >only > > wanted to pay $20. fucking fine in my point of view, i don't care who >gets >my > > ticket, and as i still owe the money to the person who actually bought >the > > tickets, it's $20 I don't have to pay. Anyway my friends were going to >sell > > it to him and one of them, we'll call her srobin, decides that's not >enough > > for a marilyn manson floor ticket and tells them to drive away. so they > > didn't sell the ticket AT ALL. they, four people, walked into the >marilyn > > manson concert on the FLOOR, with FIVE tickets. So, now, being the petty > > vengeful person i am, refuse to hear one fucking word about "man, that > > concert kicked so much ass...i was so drunk.....did you see when > > srobin...what about that guy in canyon club....and when marilyn > > manson....yeah that was cool" and all that stupid bullshit that always > > follows concerts. so now you're probably like, why the hell am i reading > > this, this is so long, why is she doing this, oh my god what a freaking > > bitch....well.....the real reason is, i need a cigarette. goddamn >nicotine > > withdrawal....ack. well delete this now, go on...... > > > > >gabrielle _________________________________________________________________ Get your FREE download of MSN Explorer at http://explorer.msn.com ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 08:03:22 -0600 From: "Lance" Subject: RE: Paxil Yah, I've been on and off antidepressants for about five years now. For me personally, if I miss a dose of Paxil, my neuro-system gets all out of wack. Things don't feel like they should and I find myself asking if I can really feel the things I touch. It's hard to explain. Like a sudden jolt of voltage goes through my body, even though I'm just sitting still. It sounds weird and it's not like I miss dosages intentionally. But face it, sometimes we forget things. I wouldn't say I ever had a panic attack from missing a dose. But, that may be because I was always more prone to depression that problems with anxiety. I "suffer" from unipolar depression. Or in simpler terms, I'm NEVER happy. I've been through Paxil, Effexor, and Prozac. Considering they are all in the SSRI family, all do pretty much the same thing for me. Turn me into a friggin' zombie!! I don't have time to be depressed because I am sleeping all the time. Well maybe that's not completely true. When I'm awake, I seem to be better than I was. God knows I'm not suicidal anymore. I still push people away, but I think that's more of a "hurt you before you hurt me" kinda thing. I just need to learn to trust once in a while. I've tried coming off the anti-depressants, but within weeks of living without them, I start the downward spiral again. I just don't have it in me to sit there and go through months and months of shit, trying to find a medication that works but doesn't have some sort of side effect on me. So I'll take the sleepiness if it means it will keep me alive. But everyone is different. The side effects that occur in me may be completely different from those in anyone else. I agree with Kori in that you should talk to your doctor if you aren't comfortable with what you are taking or the dosage of it. If there's any other questions I can answer or give you personal input on, I'm here. Feel free to email me directly too. Lance Sometimes your castles in the air And the fantasies you're seeking Are the crosses you bear - -----Original Message----- From: owner-angry-psychos@smoe.org [mailto:owner-angry-psychos@smoe.org]On Behalf Of KoriG@aol.com Sent: Sunday, December 17, 2000 10:20 PM To: angry-psychos@smoe.org Subject: Re: This ought to fire things up.... In a message dated 12/17/00 10:11:22 PM, LoveJoy89@aol.com writes: << Hey guys-- I am on Paxil right now, and have been for about a year. Is this really true? I am just wondering...did you take it regularly and didn't miss doses? Because I hear if you miss doses it can really screw you up. Although, I am not doing too well myself lately...I have been going through a major depression period, but my moods swing back and forth. Kori, when you went off of it, were you okay? Because I have panic attacks if I miss a dose. Any more info any of you guys have on this would be great, because I am beginning to worry about myself and I am pushing my friends away because I am basically a nutcase sometimes. Thank you... Joy >> Correct. If you miss doses of just about ANY psychiatric medication, it can cause serious problems. I took (as I always do) my medication just as directed. Even if you decide to stop taking the medication, work with your doctor to wean you off, or it will shock your system. A common problem with this medication is that it makes bipolarity worse, or even brings about bipolar depression in people that are truly only depressed, with general anxiety disorder. I fell in this category. As I got worse, the doctor only INCREASED the Paxil dosage, just saying I needed more. Or increasing my other medications to try to "lessen" the "side effects" - tried just about everything BUT the actual medications I needed to be taking instead. After talking to MANY people who have been on these medications, as well as health care professionals in this field, I finally INSISTED to be taken off this medication. (Mind you, I have gone thru several doctors and had serious medical problems of both physical and psychological nature since I was 4 years old. By the time I was 10, I knew more than most third year interns.) My doctor wasn't too happy about it, but we started steadily decreasing my Paxil and started me on another medication. I'm not doing cartwheels, but I'm much better than I was before. I spent about two years either being an emotional wreck, manic or depressed, or, if I was lucky, in between I would be a complete zombie from time to time. Basically, I was just so depressed most of the time that my brain transfered that pain into physical pain. (That is my constant headaches and body aches are considered some of the many signs of possible depression. You're hurting, but you don't really know how to process the pain. Or, if you have family like me, you are constantly being asked "What's wrong?" when you don't feel like doing anything, or you feel too dead to cry although you are truly down, or you just want to lie in bed with the lights off and sleep all day. Depression? A valid excuse? Nah, that's all just in your head.) Even though numerous doctors, both physicians and psychiatrists, told her this was completely valid, she still doesn't believe. Thus, there is your reason that all of this is twice is hard for me. Joy, feel free to e-mail me directly if you want to talk more or there is anyt hing I can do to help. : ) KORi ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 07:37:23 -0800 From: AT Subject: NPR: Firing up Johnette Napolitano Everybody Knows is a Leonard Cohen song , and Concrete Blonde did cover it. Rather well I might add. But I am biased, and totally in love with Johnette.Concrete Blonde is the best band ever commited to vinyl.Ah what can you say? - -God is a bullet , have mercy on us everyone - Concrete Blonde ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 11:03:33 EST From: Peaceofpiedesign@aol.com Subject: npr: hats off to Johnette Concrete Blond is one of my greatest loves .... and her version of Everybody Knows rocks. She sings from her soul ... JP up through the cracks, up through the broken glass - concrete blonde ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 11:08:58 -0500 From: "Stephanie Ingraham" Subject: [none] My name is Stephanie. I'm 20 and from Boston, Massachusetts. I first heard Poe on WBRU--a Providence, RI station that plays all the new and cool music before most stations do. After I heard her on the radio (years ago...) I immediately went out and bought "Hello." I can't believe the growth she's shown in "Haunted." It's an intense cd and derives so much emotion from her listeners. The cd sounds exactly like a soundtrack to a good, creepy horror movie. - ----------------------------------------------------- SparkNotes.com - FREE study guides - Think about it. ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 11:14:00 -0500 (EST) From: Thierry Pottier Subject: On being... I made an error: I did not really want to send my "on being a girl, on being a boy" mail to everyone on the list, (I mean: I did not ask this to myself before clicking "send", but later I realized that it was a private message, and should have been sent as such). What I meant was: We men are not all conquerors, you girls don't have to be all conquests !!! C.U. Thierry ______________________________________________________ Bonte aux lettres - Caramail - http://www.caramail.com ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 11:52:17 EST From: KoriG@aol.com Subject: Re: This ought to fire things up.... In a message dated 12/18/00 5:10:29 AM, hunsin_e@denison.edu writes: << it did wonders for my sex life.. all night long baby, and all the next day, and the next.. and the next, damn.. still don't feel a thing.. :P >> Well, as for that particular activity, I can't really say, but as for just about anything else I did, yes, for a good little while there, I was Wonder Woman. Could do anything, say anything, worked like mad, (I went from barely being able to work parttime to Begging to be taken on full time in the span of two weeks,) and basically just ran around like a chicken with my head cut off. Felt no pain from anything, but then I also felt little pleasure either. And when I finally crashed, ugh, was it miserable. KORi ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 11:59:48 EST From: KoriG@aol.com Subject: Re: Paxil In a message dated 12/18/00 10:17:08 AM, lancej@nconnect.net writes: << I've been through Paxil, Effexor, and Prozac. Considering they are all in the SSRI family, all do pretty much the same thing for me. Turn me into a friggin' zombie!! I don't have time to be depressed because I am sleeping all the time. Well maybe that's not completely true. When I'm awake, I seem to be better than I was. God knows I'm not suicidal anymore. I still push people away, but I think that's more of a "hurt you before you hurt me" kinda thing. I just need to learn to trust once in a while. I've tried coming off the anti-depressants, but within weeks of living without them, I start the downward spiral again. I just don't have it in me to sit there and go through months and months of shit, trying to find a medication that works but doesn't have some sort of side effect on me. So I'll take the sleepiness if it means it will keep me alive. But everyone is different. >> Yup. Every word of this is EXACTLY what I mean, so when you think you can't describe something, rest assured, there are people out there who know EXACTLY what you mean, no matter how weird you thought you were. KORi ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 12:15:17 EST From: Davey08@aol.com Subject: AOL6testpost My opinions do matter, at least to me. Dave Dave@poe.org "Dans la maison, l'obscuriti me consommera." House of Leaves by Mark Z. Danielewski http://www.geocities.com/run_rom_run/ "Ces mots vous effrayent-ils?" ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 09:13:46 -0800 From: "Crazy Little" Subject: Somewhat Poe related Bay area radio used to have a morning show DJ named Alex Bennett. That guy had Poe appear on his show twice while she was promoting her "Hello" album. During those appearances she recorded 2 songs each time for his show to use, which were then encoded and built into a streaming internet jukebox. It's been years since this DJ's disappeared, but I never guessed that the juekbox would still be around, so here you go people, enjoy. =) http://www.radiofreejack.com/jukebox/jukebox-16.html ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 13:16:41 EST From: LoveJoy89@aol.com Subject: Re: Paxil Yes, Kori, and everyone else out there who is going through this, I completely understand you, too...I have been through so much in my life and its manifestation has come in the form of depression and anxiety/panic attacks...I know how it feels to have people ask you what is wrong with you and you don't even know what to say because you're not sure yourself, or you're just too damn tired to try and tell one more person just how crazy you think you are...at least that is how I feel sometimes. I can't stand it when people say "how are you?" because I know that if I really told them, they would probably run away screaming...it has almost happened before...People don't know what to do with people that have mental diseases...most people cannot deal with their own problems much less the problems of someone else...I just want you all to know I understand you and how you are feeling...I don't know if this made much sense, but sometimes I just need to get random things off my chest. I love you guys. Joy ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 14:09:33 -0500 From: "sp00k@poe.org" Subject: One Of The MOST Requested Songs Of The Year "One Of The Most Requested Songs Of The Year" those are the words that WBER station manager Joey G used to describe "Walk The Walk" just after it finished playing a few minutes ago. I had spoke with him by phone shortly prior to the most recent playing of WTW on WBER, in regards to the standing (dancing) room only Xmas party they hosted Friday nite, and asked if by chance the AP's were responsible for any of the "over voting" in the Top 100 poll that he had admonished listeners for. He said he was not aware of any AP "over voting" which was nice to hear. It is significant that he should mention the high request rate for WTW, as those requests, by phone, and e-mail are given a weighted value that is somehow factored into the votes cast, to determine the top 100 songs of the year. That said, it would seem to imply that Poe and WTW will finish high in the poll. Voting ends 12/28, plan a listening party for New Years Day 5PM thu 11PM East http://wber.monroe.edu/year2000.html One other note on requests for Poe, while WTW is in regular rotation, actual requests from people besides me, aside from helping her vote total, cause WTW to be played with greater frequency. I bounce between http://www.musicchoice.com via my cable TV and http://wber.monroe.edu and it seems with each fresh start, Poe is played within the first two songs I hear, no lie. sp00k etc ... P.S. Every Sunday night at 11pm WBER presents Universal Buzz Radio. A weekly radio show of live concerts recorded exclusively for this program. The show starts at 11pm sharp and last 1 hour. 12/10 : Zakk Wylde 12/17: Drums and Tuba 12/24 :The Bellrays 12/31 : Aloha 1/7: Glassjaw 1/14 :The White Stripes 1/21 : Black Heart Procession 2000 1/28 : Napalm Death 2/4 :Dinosaur Jr. 2/11 : New Order 2/18 : Joy Division 2/25 : Gary Numan 3/4 : The Sea and Cake 3/11 : Erase Errata 3/18 : Neko Case 3/25 : Broadcast 4/1 : Papa Roach 91.3 FM WBNY Buffalo, NY Buffalo State U 1570 AM KAMP Tuscon, AZ University of Arizona 1260 AM KASC Tempe/Phoenix, AZ Arizona State U Mon @ 3PM 88.1 FM KCWU Ellensburg, WA CWU 89.7 FM KIWR Omaha, NE Non-Commercial 89.1 FM KLPI Ruston, LA Tech. Tue @ 8PM 90.7 FM KSDJ Brookings SD State U 90.9 FM KSLU Hammond, LA SE Lousiana U Wed @ 11PM 88.3FM KUCR Riverside, CA U of California at Riverside 90.1 FM KUPS Seattle, WA U of Puget Sound 88.1 FM KVSC St. Cloud State University St. Cloud, MN Tues @ 11PM 90.5 FM WBER Rochester, NY Non-Commercial Sun @ 11PM 91.9 FM CFRE Mississiagua, Ont University of Toronto 104.7 FM KSCR Los Angeles, CA U of Southern California Fongduckdong 90.7 FM WVUA Tuscaloosa, AL University of Alabama 1370AM WGMU Fairfax, VA George Mason University Tues @ 7pm 88.1 FM WMUL Huntington, WV Marshall University 91.5 FM WPRK Orlando, FL Rollins College Thurs @ 3pm 89.5 FM WSOU South Orange, NJ/NYC Setan Hall University Sun @ 12am 91.7 FM WWVU Morganstown, WV West Virginia University 88.3 FM WXAV Chicago, IL St. Xavier University 90.3 FM WXLV Schnecksville, PA LCCC 88.3 FM WXUT Toledo, OH University of Toledo 88.9 FM WCVF Fredonia, NY Suny Fredonia Mon @ 10pm 88.1 FM WESN Bloomington, Ill Wesleyan University 88.9 FM WFSE Edinboro, PA Edinboro U 90.7 FM WKKL CapeCod, MA Community College 88.7FM WLUW Chicago, IL Loyola University 91.9 FM WMEB Bangor, ME University of M 91.3 FM WUTS Sewanee, TN University of the South - ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- Where Shes @ ??!! http://Poe.Org Visit My "POE" Place http://www.sp00k.com 3 INDIE Rock Grrlz http://EmberSwift.com Hear What I Hear ? http://wber.monroe.edu/live.ram 80K Feed ? http://wber.monroe.edu/live2.ram ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 14:31:50 EST From: KoriG@aol.com Subject: Re: Paxil In a message dated 12/18/00 2:31:06 PM, LoveJoy89@aol.com writes: << I can't stand it when people say "how are you?" because I know that if I really told them, they would probably run away screaming... >> Another problem of mine is that I am the most painfully honest person in the world. Good or bad, I speak my mind. I mean, I don't go around forcing my opinions or views on people, but when asked, I don't mince words. Actually, it's reflex. I've tried to control it, to be more "polite", (although I think I already am a very polite person : ), but frankly, I'm just not a good liar, and a LOT of people are not comfortable with this. And because I have depression, people just think, "Oh, she's just having another one of her "spells". Just ignore her. She can't control it." I HATE this. This is part of my PERSONALITY, dammit. It's not some chemical imbalance that needs to be altered. This is why I am leary of certain psychiatric medications that act as if a personality trait, such as honesty or shyness, is something that needs to be treated and cured. Yes, there is more to social anxiety disorder than just "extreme shyness", but Paxil is being used WAY too often for situations such as this. Not really up for a party very often? Occasionally feel swamped in a new class? We all go thru that. Can't hardly get yourself out of the house? Just being around people in any general public place positively makes you batty? Now THERE's a problem. But back to the point at hand -- If someone asks me how I am, I am going to tell them, good or bad. No, I'm not going to blow up all of a sudden and proceed to list every damn little problem going on at the moment, but I'm not going to plaster some fake smile on my face and act like Susy Sunshine. That's not fair to anyone. But of course it also depends on how well you know the person as to how detailed you will be, considering just how much that person would actually want to know. But of course, the problem is, there are never any people that really want to TRULY know "How are you doing?" No, it's not their faults. They are trying to help, show general consideration -- no, not everyone is a therapist and can fix your problems right there. And we don't expect that. But when the casual "How are you"s way outnumber the serious "How are you"s, it is truly a very hopeless feeling. Pardon me for getting all emotional-whiny on you folks. But I just wanted to "share", because it may help some of you out there to know you are not alone. (cheesy Michael Jackson song plays in the background) : ) KORi ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 14:36:29 -0500 From: "sp00k@poe.org" Subject: Re: Somewhat Poe related I love the concept of this jukebox, but I'm not getting any sound, and I have flash 5, anbody else having problems? Or hearing anything? While I am able to make selections and the numers light up, my firewall indicates that no data is being sent. - ----- Original Message ----- From: "Crazy Little" To: Sent: Monday, December 18, 2000 12:13 PM Subject: Somewhat Poe related > > Bay area radio used to have a morning show DJ named Alex Bennett. That guy had Poe appear on his show twice while she was promoting her "Hello" album. During those appearances she recorded 2 songs each time for his show to use, which were then encoded and built into a streaming internet jukebox. It's been years since this DJ's disappeared, but I never guessed that the juekbox would still be around, so here you go people, enjoy. =) > > http://www.radiofreejack.com/jukebox/jukebox-16.html ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 14:50:53 EST From: KoriG@aol.com Subject: Re: One Of The MOST Requested Songs Of The Year In a message dated 12/18/00 3:30:17 PM, rmorale2@rochester.rr.com writes: << It is significant that he should mention the high request rate for WTW, as those requests, by phone, and e-mail are given a weighted value that is somehow factored into the votes cast, to determine the top 100 songs of the year. That said, it would seem to imply that Poe and WTW will finish high in the poll. Voting ends 12/28, plan a listening party for New Years Day 5PM thu 11PM East >> This is not just the case for the specific radio station sp00k is speaking of. It is true of HUNDREDS of stations. People don't realize just how much fan demand for something means. Requests and inquiries are noted EVERYWHERE in the realm of music and media and entertainment: for radio, video, club play, in-store, writing mags and suggesting they do a piece on the artist or their work, word of mouth, EVERYWHERE. Be creative. The APs are bright people. Everyone can think of creative ways to spark interest and attract attention to Poe and her work. Make it like "Fight Club". We can plan projects across the country and try to start a WAVE! "Project Poehem"!!! OK, sorry.... I got a little carried away. But please take some time to put in some requests to radio stations, any stations you can e-mail requests to as well as those in your own area. You all know the drill. Get the songs on the air. And once they get played, stage reinforcements. Keep calling for more. May some calls inquiring about the song or artist, like you don't recognize her at all, but you would love to hear more. Just a few suggestions for what you can do when bored at home over the holidays. : ) KORi ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 13:48:44 -0600 From: "Randall Cordero" Subject: RE: Somewhat Poe related I can listen to it...but it takes some time...so i dont know. - ----- Original Message ----- From: sp00k@poe.org To: Crazy Little ; Angry-Psychos Sent: Monday, December 18, 2000 1:36 PM Subject: Re: Somewhat Poe related > > I love the concept of this jukebox, but I'm not getting any sound, and I > have flash 5, anbody else having problems? Or hearing anything? > > While I am able to make selections and the numers light up, my firewall > indicates that no data is being sent. > > ----- Original Message ----- > From: "Crazy Little" > To: > Sent: Monday, December 18, 2000 12:13 PM > Subject: Somewhat Poe related > > > > > > Bay area radio used to have a morning show DJ named Alex Bennett. That > guy had Poe appear on his show twice while she was promoting her "Hello" > album. During those appearances she recorded 2 songs each time for his show > to use, which were then encoded and built into a streaming internet jukebox. > It's been years since this DJ's disappeared, but I never guessed that the > juekbox would still be around, so here you go people, enjoy. =) > > > > http://www.radiofreejack.com/jukebox/jukebox-16.html ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 21:01:49 -0000 From: "monkeygrrl66 _" Subject: RE: Somewhat Poe related mine downloaded just fine with shockwave. >From: "Randall Cordero" >To: "Angry-Psychos" >Subject: RE: Somewhat Poe related >Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 13:48:44 -0600 > > >I can listen to it...but it takes some time...so i dont know. > >----- Original Message ----- >From: sp00k@poe.org >To: Crazy Little ; Angry-Psychos > >Sent: Monday, December 18, 2000 1:36 PM >Subject: Re: Somewhat Poe related > > > > > > I love the concept of this jukebox, but I'm not getting any sound, and I > > have flash 5, anbody else having problems? Or hearing anything? > > > > While I am able to make selections and the numers light up, my firewall > > indicates that no data is being sent. > > > > ----- Original Message ----- > > From: "Crazy Little" > > To: > > Sent: Monday, December 18, 2000 12:13 PM > > Subject: Somewhat Poe related > > > > > > > > > > Bay area radio used to have a morning show DJ named Alex Bennett. >That > > guy had Poe appear on his show twice while she was promoting her "Hello" > > album. During those appearances she recorded 2 songs each time for his >show > > to use, which were then encoded and built into a streaming internet >jukebox. > > It's been years since this DJ's disappeared, but I never guessed that >the > > juekbox would still be around, so here you go people, enjoy. =) > > > > > > http://www.radiofreejack.com/jukebox/jukebox-16.html _________________________________________________________________ Get your FREE download of MSN Explorer at http://explorer.msn.com ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 16:10:56 -0500 From: "sp00k@poe.org" Subject: Re: Somewhat Poe related Sorry, I meant shockwave, they seem to go hand in hand, I never upgrade one without the other... or so it seems... - ----- Original Message ----- From: "monkeygrrl66 _" To: Sent: Monday, December 18, 2000 4:01 PM Subject: RE: Somewhat Poe related > > mine downloaded just fine with shockwave. > > > > > >From: "Randall Cordero" > >To: "Angry-Psychos" > >Subject: RE: Somewhat Poe related > >Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 13:48:44 -0600 > > > > > >I can listen to it...but it takes some time...so i dont know. > > > >----- Original Message ----- > >From: sp00k@poe.org > >To: Crazy Little ; Angry-Psychos > > > >Sent: Monday, December 18, 2000 1:36 PM > >Subject: Re: Somewhat Poe related > > > > > > > > > > I love the concept of this jukebox, but I'm not getting any sound, and I > > > have flash 5, anbody else having problems? Or hearing anything? > > > > > > While I am able to make selections and the numers light up, my firewall > > > indicates that no data is being sent. > > > > > > ----- Original Message ----- > > > From: "Crazy Little" > > > To: > > > Sent: Monday, December 18, 2000 12:13 PM > > > Subject: Somewhat Poe related > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Bay area radio used to have a morning show DJ named Alex Bennett. > >That > > > guy had Poe appear on his show twice while she was promoting her "Hello" > > > album. During those appearances she recorded 2 songs each time for his > >show > > > to use, which were then encoded and built into a streaming internet > >jukebox. > > > It's been years since this DJ's disappeared, but I never guessed that > >the > > > juekbox would still be around, so here you go people, enjoy. =) > > > > > > > > http://www.radiofreejack.com/jukebox/jukebox-16.html > > _________________________________________________________________ > Get your FREE download of MSN Explorer at http://explorer.msn.com ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 21:13:57 EST From: Satkins0902@aol.com Subject: Re: Paxil lance.....I think we share the same heart. .........................scott ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2000 20:43:54 -0800 (PST) From: Ricky Subject: Re: CALIFORNIA AP's?? Sorry this is late. I was in Boston this past week on a much needed vacation home. I'm living in San Francisco these days though. thomas On Wed, 13 Dec 2000 SILVERnirvSTH@aol.com wrote: > > HEYA, ANY AP'S FROM CALI HERE? ------------------------------ Date: Tue, 19 Dec 2000 01:21:10 EST From: KrodKnid@aol.com Subject: Re: Somewhat Poe related In a message dated 12/18/00 12:29:00 PM Eastern Standard Time, crazy@crazylittle.com writes: > Bay area radio used to have a morning show DJ named Alex Bennett. That guy > had Poe appear on his show twice while she was promoting her "Hello" album. > During those appearances she recorded 2 songs each time for his show to > use, which were then encoded and built into a streaming internet jukebox. > It's been years since this DJ's disappeared, but I never guessed that the > juekbox would still be around, so here you go people, enjoy. =) > > http://www.radiofreejack.com/jukebox/jukebox-16.html > Amazing, just Cameron on cello (pizzicato) for most of the song...who's the other girl? ------------------------------ End of angry-psychos-digest V5 #336 ***********************************